Wow I am sooooo nervous. I feel like its the first day of highschool. I painted my nails and my toenails...lol... and I'm taking a shower and getting ready soon. I am so glad I am going, but sooo nervous all at the same time. I know this will make me be able to help my family so much after I graduate... only 2 years.... wow it seems like thats so far away, but I know it will fly by. Then I'll be at goal weight, working and thinking about having more kids..... let me not get ahead of myself...wish me luck tonight everyone... I know I'll be fine, but all the support I can get I'll take...Lauren

So today my BMI finally hit under 50 probably for the first time in about 6 years.... wow... I keep having wow moments lately...like I went to put a shirt on me that was tight at one point and it now looks like a dress...its crazy. Life is going great. I can't beleive I start college in 2 weeks....  I am sooooo happy....

Okay here is the begining of a list of things I want to do again after I loose enough weight...

1 Horseback riding
2 Skiing
3 Amusment park rides
4 Jogging for the first time
5 Water skiing
6 Shop in a regular clothes store
7 Play basketball (not just shoot hoops)
8 Play baseball or softball with my kids
9 Ride a bike without falling over...lol...
10 Go to Disney World for the first time
11 Enjoying shoe shopping
12 Being able to tie my shoes without putting my leg up on something
13 have little to NO back pain
14 Be able to go into a crowded place without getting nervous as hell
15 Not feel like I'm the fat friend anymore
16 being able to do my hair without my arms feeling like they are going to fall off after 5 minutes

I'm sure this list will grow..... and shrink...then grow some more...