Knowing my surgery is a month and 6 days away is exciting and nerve racking.  The more I hear about the intricacies of the surgery, the more nervous I get.  The drain, the PCA pump, the removal of my stomach through my belly button?!  It's so much to take in.  It's almost enough to make me change my mind......but then I think about my friends who have had it done, and I think about how wonderful they feel and how healthy they are and how much they are thankful for the change......then I recommit.  

It's scary and exciting all at once..... my mom is going to buy me some size large sweaters for Christmas for me to wear NEXT Christmas..... which is exciting and daunting at the same time.  I can do this.... I will do this..... for me, for my family, for my LIFE.

*sigh* I feel better now.  Thanks for reading.
Laur  =)