OMG, it's May!

May 19, 2010

I am ***this*** close to my 4 month surgiversary and I'm so proud of where I am!  I am 88.5 lbs down, with 82.5 to my initial goal, I'm down 4 sizes in pants and am able to buy "regular" 2x shirts from places like walmart and old navy without thinking twice about, "will this fit me?"  I'm thrilled with my progress thus far....I just have to stay the course.  I no longer weigh myself every day - in fact I keep the scale in the linen closet and only weigh once every week or two.  It's so liberating!  I have more energy than I've ever had....I can sit on the floor without discomfort..... I can stretch my back and legs without help!!  It's a great feeling!  Now that I've proclaimed the positive, let's discuss the negative.....because there are two sides to every coin!

I am struggling with letting old habits get the best of me.  For example..... I allow myself to have a half a peanut butter sandwich on a sandwich thin every night to get the remainder of my protein in - but I fear the carbs are going to get me.  I find myself allowing a little nibble here and there of carbs.... a whole wheat pringle here, a pretzel there..... I am always cognizant of making sure it's whole grain before nibbling, but I do find that when I "indulge" I am far more hungry later.....does that happen to the rest of you?  I have to get back to basics.... and I will do so. (after this tortilla chip - just kidding!)

I am slacking on my meds/vitamins......I am lucky some days if I remember to take my birth control!  Which I fogot this morning - and I am paying for it in cramps and early spotting...good times. I expect this since I'm only on it for the last 2 months.....but it's annoying now to have TWO periods a month until I stabilize!

I have days when I don't get in all my protein - some days I'm a rock star!  Others, I get about 50 - 60 in.....but it's not optimal.  

In a nutshell - the more "normal" and "better" I feel, the more I find myself unconsciously getting back into old habits.  I'm keeping it under control, for the most part.....and the fact that I'm aware of it is HUGE..... but things have to change again..... it's time for another refocusing!! 

I resolve to do the following starting tonight (5/19/10):
- take my meds each and every day.....using a pill box for a reminder. 
- drink at least 1 protein shake a day to supplement my food proteins
- journal daily - on Daily Plate or on here - to track my every move
- CUT THE CARBS! - no more PB&J's at night.....with those comes the craving for "crunchy" a bad habit to say the least!
- stretch and do some form of exercise every day - and journal it here/on Daily Plate.

Ahh...I feel better.  I'm going to get over the hump and move along..... I am doing this - I just know I can do it better.

Thanks for reading!
<3
Laurie  =)

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