Laurie S.
What a weekend, self esteem issues, BMI update....
Jun 15, 2010
I did it! I can check another goal off my list - I have walked a 5K! As part of the Relay for Life I walked the 14 laps around the track in the first 1 1/4 hours of the relay. My cousin Katie and my friend Meg stayed with me the whole time - My sister Jennifer and my friend Kristin walked in proximity...and my sister Moe was my pit crew to keep me hydrated! Overall I walked between 12 - 15 miles in 24 hours......it was exhausting, exhilerating, and wonderful. I am so proud of myself.The pics blow my mind. I almost look "normal" sized. It's so amazing. I almost didn't recognize myself in some of the pics. During the weekend, I ran into my cousin Kathy - who was my buddy when I lost weight before on Weight Watchers...... she has lost 45#! We got to talking about self esteem and weight loss....and how even though your body shrinks.....you still find things you can change and don't like about yourself. I am thrilled that I am smaller - but when I look in the mirror, I still see things I don't like.....my baggy boobs, my saggy thighs, my waving arms......I don't think that will ever leave me.......but it is what it is, and recognition will help me to deal with this as it comes. I am still so thrilled that my relationship with food is changed..... Sure, I get tempted at times, but 80 - 90% of the time, I stick to the plan and do the work. It has gotten me here...I just deal with the crap as it comes.....and it does......but I am strong and will stay the course. This is my life now. It is what it is.
And now - how cool is this? As of 0.5 of a BMI point, I will be officially "just" obese, as opposed to "morbidly obese". Cool, huh? I can't wait.
Thanks for reading! <3 you all!
Laur =)
