Since last weekend, I am having such a hard time eating!  I have absolutely no appetite.  Half the time, taking a sip of water gives me unbelievable burps that are painful.  On Tuesday I threw up orange juice (which I drink in the form of a frozen O.J. pop nearly every morning).  The last 2 days I've eaten nearly nothing and taken in almost no protein because I feel nauseaus and afraid to eat.  I know I need to eat, but I can't make my brain make myself eat.  It's simply easier not to.  In addition, both kids have fevers and ear infections and only want to be held. 


SO, I need to refocus starting right now.  I'll start with sipping a protein shake this morning and force myself to eat, even if it's just a few bites.  I've also FINALLY gotten the names of some therapists who focus in eating issues so I'll call and get an appointment.  I think alot of this not eating is mental more than physical. 

The good news is I am down 46 pounds since this started, and it isn't quite 2 months yet!!  That definitely makes me happy.  I think it would even be more if I could eat something!