Well where to start! October 2nd 2000 I weighed 580 pounds yes 580. I had reached my wits end and was lucky enough to be approved for wls on the first try. Life for me was rather dimal I could not do every day activities hell I couldn't even go up a flight of stairs. The only thing I seemed to have was a love and a need for food. but now 360 pounds later I have a brand new lease on life! my joy is in anything physical I love life and life loves me. Get ready world I got a second breath! maybe I should mention I am down to 209 now and that makes a total loss of 373 pounds that is right world I am kicking some ass! Sept 30, Well another day down and lost another pound! That is a total of 374 in my 6 year journey. You know you can learn a lot about yourself when given time to think. I have decided to prove to myself I can make it on my own and you know something I WILL!  Minus the skin weight I want to lose 4 more pounds to be at goal and I want to sheare that joy with the special people in my life so many have kept my head above water and kept walls tore down thank you all.  Oct 1st, Well it is about an hour till my anniversary it will be 6 years and I have lost 374 pounds. So unreal to me I still feel like the same 582 pound guy that was never noticed for anything other than size. Life is quite weird now. I go where I want and buy what I want and do not even have to try it on lol. I was a size 68 in pants and an 8 xl in shirts, now I am a size 32 (can get in 30s) and wear a large shirt. Life truly is amazing glad I want to live it. Oct 2, Happy Birthday to me! 6 years ago today I was given a new lease on life. I currently weigh in at 208 pounds. That is 374 ridiculed, teased,hurt, betrayed,lonely,and diseased pounds gone forever!!! I am truly a new person full of hopes and dreams and none of which revolve around food! I have had an exciting journey. I have had a few down times but a hell of alott of up times to take them away. I have had my heart ripped apart and held together at the same time. I have been a lover and a best friend, but most of all I am becoming me and that is awesome! So big shout outs to my surgeon he saved my life and the life of many others. I would also like to add since I have moved to the lovely city of San Diego I have found that the support group at Alvarado hospital is the biggest encouragement a guy could need great folks who key in on helping everyday people with everyday issues. You can see some of these folks at www.ellnerbariatric.com. Dr. ellner has brought a new meaning to these losers lives and a new pep to their step! Oct 16,  I am at 207 now can't seem to lose anymore I dont think there is any there to lose! Anyway remember to live life and above all love hard!

Oct 31,  trick or treat!

On November 9th my mom collapsed on me in the afternoon and died in my arms while the ambulance was on the way. Once they arrived there was no response. They managed to get a pulse back and now she is in a coma and the doctors are giving her a 10 percent chance to live.  my mom continues to simply exist in this vegetable state with no hope or light at the end of the tunnel. So please if you read this go call your parents or wright them or just go see them and hug them and tell them how you feel everything you feel it may be your last chance! I never thought this time would come you know it's just some thing you don't prepare for the thought of losing a parent just doesn't crosss your mind! It should! They are human too and can be gone as quick as you and I so please I am begging you go...go now and see them, love them, enjoy them this time is priceless!!

 How could you love someone and make their life this way! I dont believe in anything anymore or anyone at that all life is full of is liars cheats and thieves! Thats it as far as I am concerned everyone falls into one or more of these catagories! Dig deep you will find the one you are it is there in all of us yes me included so how do you live a good life knowing this! FUCK I HATE FEELING LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!! Life is supposed to be about making a family and growing old together holding hands and making love what happened to that life?

Dec 3,

Well mom is on the road to recovery! they have placed her in a rehab facility and are pounding her with physical, occupational, and speech therapy. It still seems as if the woman lying there is a stranger but through guidance and support I know it is my mother and I can not deny it. I still have to live with knowing she did die in my arms and I have that visual for the rest of my life!

My weight has pretty much leveled out im holding at 202 with 380 pounds gone!   I think losing the weight increases the health in life but tends to open a new list of problems. I guess the main thing above all else is to believe in you because you can't accomplish much without faith.

Christmas is on the way and I have been given the best gifts in the world. My mom is recovering from heart failure slowly but surely. That in itself is a miracle. I know I have had my issues with God and I still do but I believe in miracles and mom definetly is one!

CAPS ARE ON! YOU NEED TO TAKE THE PROPER VITAMINS OR ELSE TO CAN DO SOME SERIOUS DAMAGE TO YOUR BODY! YOU NEED A COMPLETE ONE A DAY VITAMIN, CALCIUM CITRATE, IRON(50 MG), AND A B12 THAT IS SUBLINGUAL OR INJECTED NOT SWALLOWED!!! PLEASE IF YOU EVER DO ANYTHING RIGHT DO THIS. I WATCHED MY MOM DIE BECAUSE SHE DIDN'T!