I HAVE NOT UPDATED MY PROFILE IN A WHILE SO HERE IT GOES...  I QUIT MY JOB AT THE HOSPITAL SO I COULD WORK MY RECRUITING BUSINESS FULL TIME.  I HAVE LOST MY INSURANCE SO NO CHANCE OF SURGERY ANYTIME SOON.  I HAVE APPLIED FOR COVER TN INSURANCE JUST TO GET SOME HEALTH COVERAGE AND IT WILL STILL BE ANOTHER MONTH BEFORE I HEAR ANYTHING.  AND NO THEY DO NOT COVER THE SURGERY.....  I HAVE GOTTEN BACK ON THE DIET DOCTORS PROGRAM THIS MONTH BECAUSE I HAVE GAINED 20 LBS SINCE MAY.  SINCE I WORK LONG HOURS AT MY OFFICE I DONT GET MUCH EXERCISE AND HAVE A TENDANCY TO MUNCH WHEN I AM BORED...  I HAVE BEEN STICKING TO MY LOW CARB DIET SINCE I STARTED IT 8 DAYS AGO.  I GET OFF THE DIET ON SUNDAY JUST TO HAVE WHAT EVER I HAVE BEEN CRAVING ALL WEEK.  THIS PAST SUNDAY I HAD THREE BISCUITS.   I FIGURE ONE DAY WITH CARBS A WEEK WONT BE A BAD THING.

I HAVE STUCK WITH STRICKLY ALL PROTIEN AND A FEW VEGGIES.  I HAVE NOT HAD ANY CRAVINGS THIS WEEK THANK GOD....  I HAVE SETTLED DOWN PRETTY GOOD.  I GOT BORED THE OTHER NIGHT AND WANTED TO MUNCH ON SOMETHING SO I WENT AND TOOK A NICE HOT BATH.  THAT WAS A WONDERFUL DISTRACTION... WHEN I GOT OUT NO MORE CRAVINGS...  I WILL UPDATE AFTER I GO TO THE DOCTORS OFFICE AND WEIGH IN.  I WISH I HAD ACCESS TO A GOOD SCALE.... BYE FOR NOW.

I HAVE GAINED BACK TO 291.2 AND I AM NOT A HAPPY CAMPER.  WITH ALL THE HOURS I HAVE BEEN WORKING, I HAVE BEEN GRABBING SOMETHING FAST NOT HEALTHY AND NOT HAVING TIME TOP EXERCISE.


i HAVE FINALLY DECIDED TO TURN IN MY NOTICE AT THE HOSPITAL AND CONCENTRATE ON MY NEW BUSINESS AND MY HEALTH.  I HAVE BEEN AWAY FROM HERE, NOT STAYING IN TOUCH AND THAT HAS CAUSED ME TOSLIDE BACK INTO MY OLD WAYS.  I ONLY HAVE 30 DAYS LEFT ON MY INSURANCE AND I GUESS I WILL HAVE TO GO COBRA TO KEEP IT IF I WANT TO HAVE SURGERY.  JUST PRAY FOR ME.  I NEED THIS NOW MORE THAN EVER.  SO MANY THINGS ARE CHANGING IN MY LIFE FOR THE BETTER AND I WANT THIS TO PROGRESS LIKE THE REST OF MY WORLD.  SOME THINGS I HAVE LEFT ALONE BECAUSE THEY HAVE BEEN COMFORT ZONES. ONE MY RELATIONSHIP WHICH I KNOW I NEED TO END ANDTHE OTHER MY PROBLEM WITH FOOD.  I HAVE BEEN GETTING BETTER ABOUT REALIZING THAT I AM NOT REALLY HUNGRY. BUT I HAVE A PROBLEM WITH OTHERS INVITING ME TO EAT WHEN I DON'T NEED TO.  ALSO IF I DON'T WANT TO EAT BUT I HAVE TO FEED MY CHILD I WILL EAT TOO.  I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO TAKE CONTROL OF THESE ISSUES YET.  MY FAMILY SOCIALIZE AROUND FOOD AND WHEN THEY INVITE ME, WELL I GO JUST TO SPEND TIME WITH THEM. THEY GO OUT TO EAT EVERYDAY AND OF COURSE I FOLLOW. JUST TO BE WITH THEM.  WITH MY SCHEDULE THATS ALMOST ALL THE ENJOYMENT I GET BESIDES MY DAUGHTER. IF ANYONE CAN SHED SOME LIGHT I WOULD APPRECIATE IT.I NEED TO FIND A WAY TO DO THIS WITH OUT BEING TEMPTED WITH THE FOOD.

WELL LOOKS LIKE I HAVE TO LOSE MORE THAN I ORIGINALLY THOUGHT.  I THOUGHT THAT I HAD TO COME DOWN FROM MY HIGHEST WEIGHT WHICH WAS 306 AND I WAS DOING OK WITH THAT.  LOOKS LIKE I HAVE TO LOSE 10% FROM LAST DOCUMENTED WEIGHT WHICH WAS 288 AND I HAVE GAINED FROM THAT!  I HAVE TO LOSE 4LBS AND THEN MY 10% WHICH IS 28. HOW DEPRESSING IS THAT!!!!  I AM NOW DOWN TO 290. WE WILL SEE WHAT HAPPENS.

I got another denial yesterday, they said that I have to lose 10% of body weight. that's 30 lbs.  Doctors office said according to my policy, I didn't have to lose the 10%.  But just in case ...I'm on mostly a liquid protien diet,  I ate a banana this morning and I am nibbling on meal replacement bars throughout the day. I have started drinking crystal light instead of diet cokes now on a regular bases.  I wish they made the powder with splenda.  The already made good is to expensive considering that I would drink a whole one during the day!  i have been using the whey protien chocolate flavor.  The vanilla makes me gag!  Please pray for me that I don't stray.  I need to get rid of those 30 lbs!!! I have 21 more to go.