Hey Carrie! I hope
everything went well
with the surgery -
here's to a speedy
recovery for us all!
Ain't the loser's
bench something
wonderful!!?
Cheers, Marie
Friday is your day!
Just remember you
are on the journey
of a lifetime. Try
to enjoy every
minute. It may sound
weird now, but know
that you are cared
for and prayed for
here, and all too
soon this will be
but a memory and you
will be an
inspiration to
someone else. I am
waiting for you on
the losers' bench!
~JudyAnne~
Congrats on your
surgery date. I
know it is getting
close and you will
do fine. Take some
deep breaths and
relax you will soon
be on the losers
bench
Amy
Welp, I've got a date! January 11th, 2008! That's good I guess since the holiday season is among us, but that just means I'll have more time to scare the shit out of myself!
I suppose it's normal to be scared before such a big surgery. None of this seemed very real to me before now. I guess that's because of all the hurry up and wait that I've had to endure.
My iron level I believe is finally up to par. After 2 iron infusions I should be good to go. I also just got the approval from work to take the time off. Now I'm just waiting for Dr. Hamad's office to contact me to set a date and whatever else I have yet to do.
Back to being scared. I have really got myself worried. For a while rather than reading about all of the success stories I was torturing myself by reading about the deaths and incidences that have occurred because of wls. Stupid I know.
I need a moment to vent. I am currently waiting for my iron level to rise and see the hematologist for follow up on the 27th. I'm not venting about that. Here's the issue. For months now I have been told by my employer that I am had to wait until mid September to schedule my surgery because my fellow employees would be on vacation. Lucky for them I'm having issues with my iron. Now that I am pursuing ways to raise my iron level I kind of expect to have a surgery date by late October maybe November. So I tell my boss this and now they're telling me that I have to wait until 2 of my co-workers return from surgery. One is going to be out at least 6 weeks starting 10/18 and the other doesn't have a date set yet and there's no telling how long she'll be out. I'm so frustrated! My clearance is only good for six months so I have to have it by February but it's not fair that I should have to wait. One employee is having a hysterectomy and has precedence over me because this is medically necessary (mine is not?) and the other is a comp case so naturally her situation is more important than mine. If it weren't for the health insurance I would be looking for another job now.
I am very anxious about the sagging skin. I know that I will not be able to come up with or be financed for the cost of plastic surgery. I already am not comfortable in my body. I don't want to go through surgery just to come out of it uncomfortable. I know that my aches and pains will go away after the surgery and that should be enough. But I want to be attractive also. I am pretty, no one can tell me otherwise however I want to know that other people will see me the way that I see myself. I want my husband to be satisfied with the outcome of my "new" body. I suppose all of these feelings are normal and that I will learn to cope with the changes my body will go through.
I'm nearing the start of my new life. The beginning stages of wls have been quite rapid for me. I only saw Dr. Hamad for the very first time in May of 07'. Luckily for me I guess, I have been struggling to loose weight with the help of my pcp for years and all of my attempts were recorded. So, I did not have to start from scratch. All of my pre-op testing is now complete, I'm just waiting for my pesky iron level to rise. I've already received approval from my insurance company also. The whole process has been so easy, I almost feel that the decision was meant to be made.