One Week ago today I started my journey to get back on track. The support group meeting last week was great. I've been using the health tracker and have been keeping track of all I'm eating. Trying my best to not go over 1200 calories. Keeping my protein high and fats and sugars low.  I also bought a Wii Fit and the Dance Workout game on Saturday.  So much fun and I'm trying to do at least 30 minutes everyday and gradually keep building it up. Just little steps but all in the right direction. No weight loss yet but not giving up.

I can't believe how much I forgot. I'm so ashamed of myself.  No more then 5g of sugar. No more then 2.5g of fat. HIGH HIGH protein. How could I have forgotten the basics????

So here I am getting back on track.

Step one: Go back to a support group meeting. 
     So luckily my support group meets the 1st Monday of the Month and luckily the dietician was there last night. OMG the things I forgot!!! I can't believe it. But it was so good to hear the success stories and new ideas for food. So Shannan (our dietician) says 'ok lets go around the room and tell ideas of how we've modified our foods to make them more healthy" OMG what am I gonna do???? I have no healthy ideas for food, hence why I've gained weight back. So it gets to me....well...wth....I admitted I had fallen off the wagon and why I was there. I wanted to run as fast as I could out of there. I was so embarrassed to admit to be a failure.  But I did it and I stayed and no one judged me and instead was so supportive and encouraging. As I was commended by Nurse Kathy that I had the guts to return and seek help. Even as I type this I want to cry. Having so many people there supporting me who truely understand the struggles we each face as we all continue this journey together was truely an inspiration. 

Step One is complete.

Well its been quite some time since I"ve been on here and gave an update on how I"m doing. I'm getting close to being 4 yrs post op and have no regrets about having the surgery. I started at 409 and got down to 217. Yeah me. But my head never had surgery and unfortunately I learned to cheat and hence I'm up 60 lbs. I hate myself for letting this happen. So here I am trying to get back to basics before I hit 300lbs and completely lose control. So here I am begging for help.

I want to hit my goal. I will hit my goal. I can do it. I will do it.