I really need to keep up with this blog because you so quickly forget the things you are thinking in the moment.  Where do I start...well, I went to the doctors on Wednesday 3/26/2008 and to no surprise, weighed exactly the same as I did at Decembers appointment exactly the same, even in ounces...the truth of the matter is, I had gained about 6 pounds over the holidays and it took me the last couple months to take them off.  So, I decided to get a small fill .5cc I was on liquids for a couple days and it felt tight but I had no idea how tight until I tried pureed,  it was a no go,  by Saturday, I was having trouble swallowing my own spit.  I had a funeral Saturday and I had to work Sunday so I suffered with no food and very little beverage until Monday,  well when I went back, my blood pressure was only 90/6o mind you It's usually high and I had lost 6 pounds in 5 days....call it starvation...I was starting to dehydrate....so I got the .5 fill taken back out...what a relief....I never want to feel like that again.  It was a wake up call that's for sure. So I'm back on the wagon...eating much less, healthier and exercising more....anything not to get a fill like that again.

I can't believe it.  It's been a year already.  It's been a wonderful journey so far.  Some days have been tough.  I'm so grateful for this website and for the lap band.  I was hoping to lose a little more wieight but I have my whole life to work on this.  What is more important to me is what I've gained by losing weight.  I can walk up numerous flights of steps without getting winded,  my thighs don't rub together,  my feet are no longer wide width, clothes shopping is more fun.  I've went from a size 22/24 to a size 16.  I have absolutely no regrets about my decision to have the lap band.  I have no doubt I would have continued gaining weight if i didn't.   From my first visit to the Surgeon, to now, I have lost a little over 60 pounds 50 of that after surgery. I'm looking foward to another great year.  I'm hoping to drop the remaining 40 this year. 

It's very difficult to believe but 10 months have passed since I had this lap band surgery.  I started this journey a year ago when I visited the surgeons office for my initial consultation.  Is it everything I thought it would be?  I don't know.  I guess even though I was told weight loss would be slow, I was hoping mine would be quicker.  I'm not sorry that I did this.  Without this surgery, who knows what I would weigh now.  I certainly wouldn't have lost weight and kept it off for a year I know that from past experience.  As I look towards the future, I can only hope that things continue to go well with this band and that I don't suffer any ill effects from it.  I haven't had a carbonated beverage in over 10 months now.  To be honest,  I don't miss them.  Most of the time I am able to eat a little bit of everything.  Some days are better than others.  I'd be lying if I said I don't miss the occassional pig out.  Pre band I could eat large quantities of food and rarely feel full.  I can only eat a small portion of what I could before.  Pre band I was a 3-4 slice pizza eater now If I can eat pizza, I'm lucky to get down 1 and that is without the crust.  Food is no longer that important to me.  I eat what I can.  It there is food left on the plate, I throw it out.  I'm still learning to put less on the plate.  My mind is still thinking like a overeater but thanks to my band, my stomach isn't.