Post Date: 2/28/10 4:24 pm
I haven't been on the OH boards much in the past few months. The holidays came along, then I had some personal distractions. My brother who's had cancer for the past 5 years had to get a colonostomy right before Christmas and ultimately passed away last week. I made two trips to my hometown 800 miles away within a 3 week period. My brother was only 53 years old and his illness and passing really took a toll on me.
I have really been in the dumps about my progress since November. I was stuck in a rut, and weighed 5 pounds more than my lowest weight since surgery. My plan was to have lost 90 lbs. by this time, and I was only at 60. The problem was that I was on a carb rollercoaster... going way overboard with my snack choices (mostly salty/crunchy foods like potato chips and tortilla chips.... and desserts). I was making sure I was getting enough protein (since the thought of my already fine hair falling out freaks me out just a little!) but I was also eating a lot of crap in-between. I thought I had completely turned off the switch that was making me lose weight so easily the first 6 months and I didn't know how to get out of the cycle I was in.
So on Monday I decided to do the 5-day pouch test diet to see if my band did actually still work. I am pleased to say that it does. I managed to lose almost 5 pounds in the process. It got me back to my lowest weight thus far since surgery.
Now that I'm back to the point where anything else will be "new loss", I'm psyched again and I really want to stay on track. The 5-day diet helped me kick the carb cravings for the most part, though they're still in my head. But I'm trying to stay strong!
I just wanted to publically announce my rededication, and share my frustration with anyone else who might be going through a similar disappointment. This weight loss thing is a b*tch, and I know that I for one can use all the help and encouragement I can get!
Thanks for "listening"! : )
"So don't be anxious about tomorrow. God will take care of your tomorrow too. Live one day at a time." Matthew 6:34