Lisa H.

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01-03-05
Hey Everyone, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
I can't believe it is 2005! Geez, I feel old...lol.
I am so glad that I was able to have this surgery, i would do it over again in a heartbeat. I feel that I would not be alive now to see this new year if it weren't for losing this weight.
I will be forever grateful.

Hmmm...how has my weightloss journey been going...I am back up to 180.5lbs...I was down to 179...now back up...up and down the same 2-5lbs..I am so glad the holidays are over. I hope that I can get back into losing weight.  I am so glad I am down to where I am, but I wish I could lose more. I am so afraid I will not be able to lose all that I need to, or worse yet, to gain back more of what I lost.
I am 5'4" and I weigh between 176 and 181.  I would like to weigh like 140ish.

My boyfriend was so afraid that I would not be able to stop losing weight because of how fast I was losing at the beginning. Now look at me. I have been stuck FOREVER. Now he is trying to convince me that I will still lose more.
Okay I'll be right back....lol....telephone. bye.

01-17-05

Hey Everyone,
It has been alittle while since I have updated. Well my girlfriend sarah made it through surgery okay. She had it done on friday and she is getting better everyday. She was not expecting it to be so painful.  She doesn't handle pain real well, but I think she is doing fine. It happened really fast for her, from when she first called and had her consult to surgery was like only 3months. Crazy.  She is trying to remember that she is lucky that she can have this surgery done and done so fast. When others have been waiting like years.
She is moving around and hopefully will be feeling alot better soon. I saw her today in the hospital and she looked good.  Please say a prayer for her.

I went to Dr. Williams office today, I have been having heartburn and backpain for months. It has gotten alittle better since I started taking prevacid otc 2 times aday.  So they want me to call them when I get my INR next week, then we can schedule to have a scope done.  Just to check and see if I have an ulcer and to check out the condition of my esophagus. I'm nervous but I think it will be okay.

On weds I got hurt at work and I have whiplash and my left side is hurt. So I am hurting from that as well as my stomach stuff. I am on flexerall and I was worried about hurting my pouch even more. They told me not to worry.

So I guess now I'm back to were I am trying to lose more weight. (aren't we all) But I am going to work on my food plan more and I am also going to start walking and working out with Sarah, as soon as she is up to it. Hopefully that won't be too long.
 
I think I am settling more to the post-op lifestyle. I remember to take my supplements, but the food is a daily choice. I am lucky that even though I screw up some (especially over the holidays) I haven't really gained much (not like pre surgery). It is also easier for me to lose the little I gained. I am down to 177, when I had gotten back up to 182.
I sooo much want to be 140, oh well we'll see.

I just wanted to update and wish everyone a safe journey, no matter where your path is leading.
I will keep all of you pre and post ops as well as anyone suffering from this horrible disease of obesity in my prayers.
Lisa postop lap/rny 10-23-03  340/177/???  -163lb


01-21-05
Hey Everyone,
So here I am 3 lbs heavier again, well actually I weighed a hair under 180lbs. I cant seem to get below and stay there.....I want to get lower before my window closes.  If I could figure out how to get below the 170's then I think that I could make it to my goal.  I am starting to look at food addictions. I am going to pull out my trusty book, "food addictions: the body knows" by Kay Shepard. I know that I have food addictions and I need to eliminate the stuff that is triggering my eating.  I know I have to be careful that I don't cut out too much stuff, I don't want to be unhealthy. Well actually I think I will be eating more things, I don't think I eat enough now. I am stuck in a rut. I make sure I get enough protein through protein powder mixed with hot chocolate and coffee.  I also like to eat detour bars.  I eat carbs too, that is my problem. I have been eating crackers and pasta, rice...of course I eat some protein with it, but not enough. I gotta get back to the basics and eat more balanced.  I still have my trusty pouch so I know it can still work for me. Even though people tell me I look great at my weight, I feel so fat.
I know I have lost alot of weight, I just can't see it. I know that sounds weird, but I really see fat when I look in the mirror.  And if I have my clothes off, boy do I see fat. I hope that I can get past this. I may not be a skinny minny, but I  think that I am thinner than what I can see.  I also would like to look into maybe plastics. But before that step, I really am going to start exercising.  If I can tone up some, I really don't think I would look that bad. Hell I am not 20 and trying to get into a bikini. I just want to feel better about my body.

My friend Sarah, who had surgery last week, is home and doing good. She was so afraid and wasn't prepared for the pain she had after surgery. But I think she is adapting better now. We are going to try and exercise together, maybe walking and the gym, once she has healed more and is cleared for exercise. That will be a little while since she is only a week out today.

I know I am rambling. I don't mean to. I just try and write down my thoughts as I try and figure this journey out...I don't know if others are reading this, but I know it helps me.
Okay well I am going to go...I've got to get ready to take my sister Denise to her one year WLS check-up. I can't believe its been a year since she has had her surgery. I know that she didn't lose what she wanted to, but I also know that she has pcos and was diabetic and I wasn't, so our weight loss has been different.  I have been looking into pcos and wls, and I notice that the women who seem to be able to lose more and even get to goal are the ones who still take glucophage, so she is going to talk to her primary about getting some, to see if that helps.
Okay well until later. I'll be back.
I want to keep all of you pre and post ops in my prayers as well as anyone suffering from this horrible disease of obesity.
later,
Lisa  postop lap/rny 10-23-03 340/180/???  -160lbs (oh yeah)

01-22-05
Hey Everyone,
I took my sister to her one year follow-up appt. Yesterday.
It went pretty good. She has lost 75lbs. She was a little disappointed, but I still think she did great.  They gave her some ideas to break her plateau. I know i've gotta exercise and eat more.  I'm gonna try it this week.  I've already lost some weight, yesterday I weighed 180 and this morning I weighed 177.so that's three pounds down already. I hope this keeps on going. I'll make goal, yet.

I hope that I can make it to goal...have I said that before...lol...I know I have. I just keep thinking that i'll still be stuck at being fat. I mean I will never be as heavy as I was...I won't ever let that happen. But I was hoping that I could make it to a normal weight for my height. I guess I just have to put alot more effort into it.
I am rereading my journal and getting my inspiration back...remembering more of what it was like before surgery and why I did this. Trying to recapture my excitement and commitment.
Okay well I am gonna go. I'll be back later.
Lisa  post op lap/rny 10-23-03  340/177/??? -163lbs

01-31-05
Hey everyone,
been a couple days since I updated. I have been sick...iiiicckkk....I had strep and it takes so long to clear up now, because of the malabsorbtion. I hope I never get sick again.  I have to have an endoscopy done because of the heartburn I get everyday. They want to make sure I don't have an ulcer or if I do that it can be treated. I am already taking prilosec OTC 2 times a day, so I guess we will have to try something else out.  My only problem with getting the endoscopy done is that I am still on coumadin. I have to be off of it for 3 days before I can get scoped. If I can't be off of it, I have to go into the hospital so that I can go on heparin IV, then get my INR levels straightened out again. So it would be for a few days. I hope I can just go the 3 days without the coumadin. I won't know until the day after tommorrow and they want to scope me on monday the Feb. 7th. GEEZ.
well I gotta go pick my kids up. I'll be back later.
Oh, btw, my girlfriend Sarah is doing just awesome after her surgery. She is learning through trial and error what to do.
Okay till later.
Love yas.
Lisa postop lap/rny 10-23-03  340/174/???  -166lbs