Lisa H.

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04-02-05
Hey Everyone,
I have survived Easter...lol....I ate so much candy that week...eck.......I gained back up to 174lbs...but then I kicked the candy and I am back down to 171lbs.  I am recommitting myself to protein and water and i am going to start working out. I need to lose this last bit of excess weight. I can't stand how puffy I look with this excess skin.
Me and Sarah are going to start working out together. I know i have said it before.

I was suppossed to go to see a plastic surgeon this past tuesday, but my son had that nasty bug that is going around and was up throwing up all the night before, so I had to call and cancel.  I have to try and reschedule. I called and they said they would call me back, I wasn't home when they called back so now I have to wait until monday to call them back... that just puts it off a little while longer. But I am not sure I can even have the surgery anyway with the clotting thing, I might have to just get used to this body the way it is.

I am still broken up with my boyfriend, well ex boyfriend. Which is still really hard, and I have been trying to not eat over it, which is really hard. This food addiction thing is so tough, especially after the surgery. I am just glad that I don't gain weight the way i used to and that I still dump and that I can lose it easier than before. So i am still grateful that I had this surgery done.

So now to reconcile the way I feel about my body and to try and meet someone new.  It is so hard to start over again when you are self conscious about your body and you feel too old for the dating game. But I guess I am not really too old, and I look young for my age, or so I am told.

I am going to go for now and I'll be back on later, I think I am going to break this page down into another page so it isn't so long.  Like the year before, the first year, the second year...make it easier on reading.
My daughter is bugging me so that she can get online and it is making it difficult to concentrate on what I am writing....darn kids.

I want to keep everyone in my prayers who are pre and post op as well as everyone who is suffering from this horrible disease of obesity.

I have to submit new pics for my before and after....I am smaller than the pic I have on here.  Okay another thing to do....lol.
love ya's,
Lisa  postop 10-23-03  340/170/???  -170lbs

04-13-05
Hey Everyone,
It's been a few weeks since I have updated, been dealing with the breakup of my relationship with my boyfriend, redefining terms and just figuring out my life. Not an easy task, especially since I can't eat my way through it.  But I am learning to deal with my feelings.
I have also been going back to eating/drinking more protein again, I also started taking coQ10 enzymes again. And guess what, I am starting to lose again.

YEAH!! I am down to 168.5..yippie.....never thought it would be happening again...lol..
I am soo happy that I am losing again.
I can't wait to continue on this journey. I am going to do a consult with a plastic surgeon on the end of this month. Can't wait.  Okay the kids are up now so I've gotta go, they can be so challenging, but I love them anyway...lol.
Okay bye till later.
Lisa
340/168.5/??? lap/rny 10-23-03  -171.5lbs

4-25-05
Hey Everyone,
It has been like 2 weeks since I updated last. I thought I broke through this plateau down into the 160's, but here I sit at 171.5 lbs, yet again.  I think this is were my body wants to stop. I don't look bad, I can wear 6,8,10 and 12's, depending on the maker (and what year they were made...lol). So I look okay. I am just trying to adjust to seeing the real me and being happy at where I am at.  I think this is the hardest part, to accept yourself. I am so afraid of gaining weight back, I feel like this is all a dream and I am going to wake up and be 340 or more again. It is horrible sometimes. I gain a couple of pounds and I panic, then it comes back off and I'm like phew!  I just had my period this past week (not to be gross) and I gained like 6 lbs, I was petrified, but it has been coming back off, not that I have changed my food or anything, it is weird. I keep thinking I'll try that getting weighed only once a month instead of daily, but then I think what if I get weighed on my heavy day of the month, I'll freak out I think...lol...I know sounds silly, but boy is it real.  I think as long as I keep doing what I'm doing and not letting the scale rule what I am eating or how I'm exercising, then it is okay.
I have been having problems with my legs this past weekend, just like an aching that wouldn't go away, I think it is from when I had to stop my coumadin earlier this month to have dental work done. I had a really bad headache along with it, so I was a little freaked about that too.  My Grandmom died from a blood clot so I get scared about it. I have an appt. today with my primary, I'm hoping that they can refer me to a hematologist. Thank God my head ache has calmed down. Doing physical therapy has helped my neck, even if it makes me hurt afterwards for that day, overall I think it is improving my mobility. I have to cancel for today though, my pcp appt. is more important I think.
Okay, I want to take a poll, who thinks I am crazy...okay raise your hands...lol...Yeah I agree...lol.
I have my appt. tommorrow with  a plastic surgeon. My friend Sarah is going with me. I am very nervous about it. I want to have the loose skin gone, but I am terrified of another surgery. I am afraid that they will tell me I can't have it done because of my blood problems and I am afraid of them telling me I can have it done. I know I make no sense. Such a quandry.  I don't want to miss the opportunity to at least get an opinion though. Even if I don't chose to pursue it at this time. I have to call my girlfriend Becky today and check up on her, she had her tummy tuck done on the 14th, and I spoke with her a couple of days later, I want to see how she is doing now.
I'll keep you all posted.
Okay as usual, i have to go, time keeps slipping on by. I'll keep all of you pre and post ops in my prayers as well as everyone suffering from this horrible disease of obesity.
Love ya's,
Lisa   postop lap/rny 10-23-03  340/171.5/???  -169.5

4-28-05
Hey Everyone,
I'm back...lol...I went to the plastic surgeons for a consult the day before yesterday.  I was very curious to hear what he had to say...it was a little weird letting a man look at your fat and skin and touch it....but it wasn't too bad, in fact he was very nice and professional.  I really liked what he had to say...he agreed that I didn't need liposuction. He did say that he could give me a bikini line incision from hip to hip, pull the skin down, tighten the muscles up and also he would pull my thighs up. he said that my back didn't have fat so I would not need a circumfrential cut (yippie), and that I had a tiny waist (who Me?). He was really impressed with how well my body actually held up. He made me so excited, I was so psyched, it didn't even bother me to take the pics. Boy would I look good, I even discussed having brachiaplasty done, and how he would pull the skin under my armpit it would pull up the skin flap that is beside my breasts, so I wouldn't even need a breast lift.  Then the let down, my insurance would not cover any of the work, except a pannilectomy and diane (the numbers lady there) said it wouldnt be worth dealing with the insurance company so they would just take the cost of what the insurance company would pay off of the cost of the procedures.  Well I had to automatically take off the arms...and then when we added up the cost of anesthesia, surgi-center, surgeon, surgery, etc. it comes to $11,600.  I know that is relatively cheap for how good it would make me look and feel, and to have the rashes gone and the pain gone....geez I wish I had it. I am trying to think of how to finance this surgery, it isn't looking good.
So now I am looking at using the plastics clinic at the university of penn. I called my surgeons office today to get an appt. to be examined and get a referral to the plastics clinic.  My appt. at Dr. Williams office is June 6th...my daughters 17th birthday.  I asked them if they know of anyone getting approved through medicare, and they said it does happen sometimes. So all hope is not lost. I can so remember how I would look and how great I would feel. So if you are reading this say a prayer and keep your fingers crossed that it can happen for me.  I just want to get the last step finished in this weightloss journey. I also was worried about the whole blood clotting thing, but the surgeon told me I would need to stop the coumadin 8days before the procedure, then the heparin could be started right before surgery (a shot), then a heparin drip until my INR level is regulated with coumadin. So I would get an extra 4 or 5 days of hospital time out of it. The surgery without the arms would be 4hrs and with the arms about 6 hrs. 
Okay, I gotta go. I'll be back later to keep you's posted.
I will keep all pre and post-ops in my prayers as well as anyone suffering from this horrible disease of obesity.
Lisa  lap/rny 10-23-03 340/169/??? -171lbs