Well, the therapist I wanted to see (yes, I got two names, but I prefer spilling my guts to a woman... no offense, guys) is booked solid through to the end of November -- I took the first spot she had available on 11/30.  In the meantime, I'm being more midful than I have been lately, but still not 100% back on the wagon.

On the upside, I've dropped a few pounds in the past week even though I haven't made too many changes, so now I'm wondering if maintaining all this time was because I wasn't following the program to the letter, or if it was a 2 month stall that would have happened regardless of what I was eating.  I mean, I did lose about 80lbs with just a few 2-3 week periods of not losing... maybe my body just needed a breather?  I've heard of people running into stalls that last 6 weeks or more (even talked to someone who had a 5 month stall... 5 months!!!!), so maybe that's what it really was?  Even when I wasn't eating what I should, I still wasn't eating much if you compare the volume to what I was doing before.  If I had kept up with journaling, I'd have a better idea of what my calorie/carb intake was, but you know how it goes.  When you're "being bad", you typically aren't so concerned with those accountability measures ;-p.

I guess if the loss continues despite my not being hyper vigilant like I was before, then I'll have my answer (and I'll be PSYCHED!).  I'm not going to back off from my attempts to get a handle on the out of controlness, of course, I do still need to be making smart nutritional decisions, but it would be pretty damn cool to find out that I'm still able to lose even when I'm not being as strict as I had been from January through August of this past year.

Okay, that's all for now.  I just wanted to check in and give y'all an update... hope everyone's doing well! :)