FINALLY..my clinic has sent out my medical history and info to my surgeon..and uhmm my surgery coordinator has sent out my request to 1199....woot!

Im so scared..what if they say no? i'd be SICK!!
anywho...still NO job..but i am working on my license..just 4 more lessons then my road test..another obstacle im hoping to overcome..cuz if i fail that road test...HEADS ARE GOIN TO ROLL && some un-godly words are gonna fly outta my mouth.. but let me be positive..

hmm lets see..im still on this site and have about 4 good friends who chat w/ me from time to time on this site..for some reasonn..i just cant get any friends..lol social outcast much?

oh yeahh...i didnt make a video blog in sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo [emphasize on the SO] long..becuz being the good samaritan that i am..loaned my mom my baby [my cam] to record my lil bro's grad. ceremony && go to ATL with it..ugh she returns it w/ NO i repeat NO..SD card..smh alls well..ill get a new one and make a long overdue youtube/OH blog..or shud i say VLOG..
anywho.. more great news!! [drum rolls] i have been losing some of that freshman [50] that i gained in school..lmao..everyone has been complimenting me on how much smaller im looking..pshh i dont see it..but if everyone else does..den pshhh i guess i am..

anyways..nothin left to say..but toodless..

so my fourth of july sucked major balls....i stayed in ALL day LONG..not once leaving the house..
WHY?..hmm well i have NO job and u know the universal rule...NO FUNDS..NO FUN! therefore i stayed inside. I know your thinking.."why dont you just get a job", yeaa i been there done that NOT A JOB IN THE ENTIRE TRI-STATE AREA!!

So anywayss i have been job hunting for a little over 3 months..ever since i was up in college. To no prevail i have yet to find a job, anywho last week i went to this applebees job thing and i went lookin appropriate [ie; slack capris/ flats/ crisp white shirt & a resume in tow] i went in and grabbed an application me nd a friend of mind went right ahead and handled our business..so we leave and go about our business and we see a friend from highskool..we chit chat and toss a conversation around and the topic of JOB HUNTING came up, cuz she too was in desperate need of a job. So being the good person i am..i told her about the applebees job quest or whatever...she goes in and we wait for her, she text's me saying "you guys can go on and leave me..cuz uh i gotta do a personality quiz
"..now that struck me odd cuz they didnt ask me or my friend nish to do one..so whe didnt take to much thought to it..and we left. I got home and my friend from high school tells me that they made her take a drug test on spot..i was shocked shitless..i got sick instantly..i started bussing my brain tryna figure out what me nd nisha [my friend who also is a fatty](inside nickname) was lacking that our friend had..it wasnt presentation cuz we were sorted out fairly well and had resumes to go along with the application and the well put together image we produced, versus our friend who looked like a HOBO seeking reassurance. then it hit me..its not what we lack its what she lacked and that was xtra weight..i dont wanna place the world in the spectrum as a cruel place that judges a person by their fleshy exterior than there sensitive,educated and well organized interior.
so yea this is one of my situations where i was basically denied a job bcuz of how much i weighed and not how much i knew..

 anyways moving along..im still waiting on my two previous pediatritions to send off my old health records to Lennox hill ..but UGH they are moving hella slow..i got the right mind to go to the doctors and kick ass and grab my damn files myself..but patience is a virtue and i shud just take it easy..and stop stressing my self more.