http://www.obesityhelp.com/member/lj1972/blog/LJ1972's Bloghttp://www.obesityhelp.com/member/lj1972/blog/2013/04/14/where-i-am-today/Sun, 14 Apr 2013 20:10:00 -0700http://www.obesityhelp.com/member/lj1972/blog/2013/04/14/where-i-am-today/ It has been over a month since I have posted on this blog.  In that month I have run myself past the breaking point of fatigue and exhaustion - mental, physical, emotional.  And I don&#39;t know how to slow down.  I am terrified of slowing down.<br/> Today I have had FOUR ... http://www.obesityhelp.com/member/lj1972/blog/2013/03/03/well-hey-there/Sun, 03 Mar 2013 20:28:00 -0800http://www.obesityhelp.com/member/lj1972/blog/2013/03/03/well-hey-there/ Ok... been a while.... :)<br/> Staying insanely busy and tired. Working out with the trainer, my department at work changed locations and I have a longer drive. My team is performing horribly.  I have more "hawngry" days than I do "normal" (even by my standards!).  Tomorrow morning I have bloodwork at ... http://www.obesityhelp.com/member/lj1972/blog/2013/02/25/habits/Mon, 25 Feb 2013 20:27:00 -0800http://www.obesityhelp.com/member/lj1972/blog/2013/02/25/habits/ I am finding just how much of my life is made up of habit.  Coming here is (was?) a habit and I have gotten out of it. I am thinking that is not necessarily a good thing.  Another habit is my eating compulsively - not a good thing.<br/> I weighed at ... http://www.obesityhelp.com/member/lj1972/blog/2013/02/18/what-it-all-means-to-me/Mon, 18 Feb 2013 20:37:00 -0800http://www.obesityhelp.com/member/lj1972/blog/2013/02/18/what-it-all-means-to-me/ I spent all of my high school / adult life as an obese person using food as comfort, punishment and anger management.  There were no expectations placed upon me, so I didn&#39;t live up to anything.  I did try to be active and do stuff for my niece and nephews ... http://www.obesityhelp.com/member/lj1972/blog/2013/02/16/vitamin-b1/Sat, 16 Feb 2013 20:14:00 -0800http://www.obesityhelp.com/member/lj1972/blog/2013/02/16/vitamin-b1/ I am so glad I have Dr. Friedman and his staff watching over me.  Even though my B1 numbers come back fine consistently, they had me start supplementing with B1 injections and oral B1 because of my drastic memory changes (as in I have no memory!!).  It helps so much! ... http://www.obesityhelp.com/member/lj1972/blog/2013/02/13/speaking-of-being-selfish-/Wed, 13 Feb 2013 20:30:00 -0800http://www.obesityhelp.com/member/lj1972/blog/2013/02/13/speaking-of-being-selfish-/ Ok...another "all about me" post.<br/>  Monday was a horrible day.<br/>   First - I called teh cardiologist office about the test I had done the day after Christmas and they finally had the results. the nurse called me back after a few minutes and said everything looked fine. My lowest HR was ... http://www.obesityhelp.com/member/lj1972/blog/2013/02/10/is-it-selfish-to-be-tired-of-folks-being-selfish-/Sun, 10 Feb 2013 21:59:00 -0800http://www.obesityhelp.com/member/lj1972/blog/2013/02/10/is-it-selfish-to-be-tired-of-folks-being-selfish-/ My mercy.<br/> I know I whine a lot here. It is just me and the occasional passerby.  In real life, nobody knows when I am having a bad day unless it is a BAD day, and then it is only fair to notify them to stay out of my way.  Generally ... http://www.obesityhelp.com/member/lj1972/blog/2013/02/07/rest-wee/Thu, 07 Feb 2013 16:03:00 -0800http://www.obesityhelp.com/member/lj1972/blog/2013/02/07/rest-wee/ This has been the craziest "rest" week on record, I think!  Extreme stress at work, sleepless nights over the "anniversary" of the death of a co-worker I performed CPR on for over 15 minutes, no gym, no food journaling.... crazy.<br/> Monday was the most infuriating, stressful, drama filled day I have ... http://www.obesityhelp.com/member/lj1972/blog/2013/02/02/double-bridge-15k---my-first---/Sat, 02 Feb 2013 20:12:00 -0800http://www.obesityhelp.com/member/lj1972/blog/2013/02/02/double-bridge-15k---my-first---/ WOOT! Wow... I can NOT believe I did a 15k this morning! Not only did I finish it, but I actually ran all but maybe 3/4 of a mile of it and I have only ever run (jogged) a 10k!<br/> It was the Pensacola Double Bridge Run.  I think it is ... http://www.obesityhelp.com/member/lj1972/blog/2013/01/30/shaking-things-up/Wed, 30 Jan 2013 21:41:00 -0800http://www.obesityhelp.com/member/lj1972/blog/2013/01/30/shaking-things-up/ I have been in everyday contact with my counselor and frequent contact with my dietitian.  So here&#39;s the deal. My trainer thinks I am overtraining and wants me to take a week off from hardcore workouts at the gym.  The most she will grudgingly agree to is my doing yogalates ...