and I'm truely one of the luckiest girls around, I have an amazing supportive husband who loves me more than anything, and I love him more than I can say. He's truely my hero, and I'm so thankful for everything he has done for me. It's been nice to have him by my side through all of this.

and.. I've been thinking...

and I can't wait to know how it feels to have my husband look at me and see every bit of me beautiful. I'm happy that I'm losing weight and I believe that he will be happy earlier than I will be with my weightloss. I have the need to be prettier for my husband. I want him to always want me, and to be around me. I'm ready. So I hope it comes soon, and hopefully soon enough. I love my husband so much. I dunno, I just want to be able to do everything I want to do with him without any restrictions.

Today I'm ten days out, I spent last night in the hospital sipping the CT liquid I needed to get into my body so they could preform the procedure. It was terrible!... My last drink of it, my body finally said enough, and some of it came up jus tot my throte, I was able to reswallow it, but thats when I knew enough is enough. I finally went and have my CT at 4 in the morning. We had been there sense 9 that night. We found out that I have a severe skin infection, and thats all. but they gave me an liquid anti-biotic, which I can't take it makes me sick, so I'm kind of at a loss. The doctor communicated with my surgron, and I'm suppose to check in with the surgeon on tuesday. So we were completell done with the hospital at 5 in the morning, and we didn' make it home until 7 due to waiting for my perscriptions. I';m really disappointed that I can't take the anti-biotic.

Somethings are funny, but thank goodness I have a have a wonderful concience.
My husband was making dinner last night for the family. I walked in the kitchen and saw the carrots, and naturally went to grab one!... Oh my that would have been terrible, I'm only a week out!... Woah!... I almost did the same thing with the cheese. It's so funny how before we were able to lick the spoon when your frosting things, grab a carrot when your cooking, ect. and now it's not an option. It was totally crazy!... and how at times people can literallly forget about there RNY. Anyone accidently did this before with out thinking?...

One Week out Today and This morning I went Crazy!... I was so fed up with having to lay in bed or on the recliner, I got up and Cleaned the kitchen as I was cleaning I was crying becuase I knew in my heart I wasn't suppose to be cleaning, I even did some laundry, and after all of that I cried some more becuase I hurt myself, and I wasn't suppose to be doing any cleaning. I just went crazy, and I cried and cried!... I'm so tired of not being able to go and do my daily life!.. It's super frustrating. I can't even snuggle with my husband, and dog. I can't sleep normal yet. It just sucks!... Anyone feel this way?...
I don't feel depressed more aggervated.

I'm super tired of not being able to do anything. I'm feeling restless. I can't wait until the pain is over. Things are going great though. My husband is amazing. He's been super supportive, and taking care of everything, our house looks amazing inside and out. I truely love him more than anything. I'm so happy that we are making it though this interesting time in our life. I love him so much!...