I am down 1 lbs this week. These last 2 months have been hard and discouraging. I was stalled for 6 weeks sticking to plan and then these past 3 weeks I have discovered that I can eat almost anything. Limited amounts but still put candy, ice cream, small amounts or bread in front of me and what can I do? EAT IT!

I have not been a good VGS'er because I have not been sticking to plan and not exercising as I should be. I am 7 months out and not wanting to have all my hard work thus far thrown in the garbage.

Here is what I am gonna do....

Forget about the past 2 months and not dwell. I will make my goal of losing 30lbs by August 20th! I will use the tools that I have learned here on OH and also from my medical team. I am not going to fail and just look today as if it were day one. I know I still have a long way to go, but the fact is that my ticker is still moving in the right direction which is down!

So back to basics! 

So I have been a bad VGS'er! I have not really been on the blog or on my new lifestyle. Booo ME! I have been eating whatever i want for the past month, in moderation of course because my stomach will not let me fit too much. That is one thing i have not done is try and over eat.=)

Have I:

Taken my vitamins?
Consumed the water I needed daily?
Gone to the gym?

Why go one when the answer is NO!

But here I am today back on track and not looking back!

Body Bugg CHECK
Vitamins CHECK
Gym CHECK
Scale CHECK
ready to see that scale move again!

 

So I joined the gym today. My best friend has been insisting i join the gym so that we can work out together. I have been putting it off because truly i think it is that I am a little self concious about working out with mostly fit people there. I started thinking to myself that I shouldnt care and just go in do my thing and leave. I guess it is the feeling of people staring. So today on my way to run an errand there it was staring me in the face .... 24hr Fitness! This was my experience. 

I go in and tell the lady that i want to possibly sign up for the gym. She has me sign in and gets someone to help me. He takes me on the tour of the gym and all the classes that are available. They were very nice and seemed to want to accomidate my situation. So I joined! I did see several people working out and ofcourse they are all of little body and I saw i think maybe 2 people that were a bit larger. I guess by the end of the tour i started thinking that I shouldnt worry about my body image because I am on a mission. I ended up talking to a personal trainer and I am ready for the next adventure to start. 

Cant wiat!!!!

So it has been an trying week for me. My dad who has been fighting cancer for over 10 yrs and chirosis of the liver for 5 is now officially in hospice care. He is here at home and as comfortable as can be. We finally had Christmas at our house yesterday and it was nice having friends and family around. My brother drove all day from Virginia to be here with us. Having the sibling here together was amazing! Keep us in your prayers. 

 I have not been here in a while and maybe this is exactly where I need to be. I will be attempting to keep my browser on this site vs FB. 

Protein, Protein, and more Protein

I have not been doing so well in getting all my vitamins and protein in. It has been hard to track them and keep them all in line. I am 2 months out and still have not gotten the hang of this. I fear for my hair! I am now down 45lbs but dont see the difference in myself. I have had people tell me that it is falling off but even then in pictures i can not tell. I am going to however begin taking more pictures. 

Food is getting easier to eat but I still have some weird feelings when I eat and some foods still i am not able to eat. Like eggs I just cant do it. They make me gag no matter how they are cooked and every time I try to eat them I throw up!

Well Happy surgaversary to me (Well yesterday)