June 23, 2006
Went to a class at Dr. Eibes office today. It was great. I now KNOW I can do this. Made my Consult appt with Dr. Eibes and contacted all the Dr's that I needed to get records from.
My husband and I have talked and we are not going to tell our parents until it is scheduled. My parents will be shocked and then I think they will be supportive. Clark's mom will NOT take this well and will try and talk me out of it. She is a CCU/ICU nurse where I will be having the surgery. She is a "glass is half empty" type. Always see's the worst case scenario in everything.
July 3, 2006
We were with Clark's family tonight and his mom started on us about our weight. Clark thought this would be a good time to bring up the subject of WLS. She freaked. His brother said that Clark wasn't trying to diet hard enough. They all think that Clark wants to have it done. Both mom and brother think you are eating 2 ounces at a time for the rest of your life. Clark explained about all our research and what we are finding out and his mom made a comment that because she is a CCU nurse she knows more then we do. We left it at that. We decided that when we tell them we are going to give them a copy of the info and ask them to go to a support group meeting with me.
July 5, 2006
Received a call from the therapist today and insurance is going to pay for their part of the psych testing.
July 6, 2006
Had my appt. with Dr. Eibes to see if I was a candidate. He thinks I am a good candidate and because I do not have high BP or diabetes I have a better chance of no complications. They have all my records and are just waiting for my psych test before they send it into insurance. I have my testing done on the 11th. They told me to start sampling my proteins so I know which one I want to use after the surgery.
July 11, 2006
I have my Psych eval. today. I don't know if I am supposed to be crazy to do this or sane? I can not wait until it's over. The Dr. is just waiting for the eval. so he can send in the paperwork to get the approval.
Just got back from my eval. I didn't get my test done. The therapist told me on the 5th that it was covered and now after going in I find that they don't know if it's covered or not. I told her I would pay for it and she said she wanted to wait to hear back from the insurance company because if I took the test and then they did call back and say they covered it I would be out of luck because I took the test before the authorization went through.
Scheduled for the test again on Monday.
July 14, 2006
Just heard from the Therapist and Ins. will not cover the testing and she cancelled my Monday appt and told me to call when I wanted to continue.
I wasn't real sure where I was gonna get the money for the testing since she won't take payments.
July 17, 2006
With the help of a friend I am having my test on Thursday the 20th.
July 20, 2006
Did my psych testing today. It only took about 20 min. and now i have to wait until August 7th to get the results. How frustrating. I want to know if I am crazy now!
August 7, 2006
Got back from vacation yesterday. I told my parents about my decision while we were there. I thought that would be a good place so they could ask questions.
When I told them both were very supportive. My mom said they would stand by what ever I decided and dad was happy. He wanted to know all the details and see the book I received from the surgeon.(He is always been fascinated with medical things)
My psych eval was completed today and sent off to the Dr.s and they sent it off to the insurance company so now begins the real wait.
August 12, 2006
Hy husbands Aunt was in town this week-end. She is a nurse in South Dakota. We were all sitting around the table and like normal our conversation worked it's way to losing weight. My husband asked his aunt what she thought about gastric bypass and she said that she takes care of a lot of the patients after they have it done and she said they did well. At that point I asked what they would say if I told them I was having it done. Sandy said" Good for you" but Clark's mom was not as excited but she did much better then both Clark and I thought she would do.
August 14, 2006
Called the Ins. company today and asked about the status of my case and she came back on and said it had been APPROVED.
APPROVED!!! I couldn't believe it! I am so excited. I called my husband and then called the Dr's office. (I couldn't wait for them to call me). Katie said I would get a call from Nova either today or tomorrow to set up an office appt. and then they will set the surgery date at that time. I asked her about how far out he was scheduling and she said that he still had a couple spots in August and most of September. I can't believe this. It is happening so fast.
August 15, 2006
I have a tentative surgery date of August 28, 2006. The Dr has not received the letter yet but I they made my pre-op appt. for the 22nd. And they told me to go ahead and make my H&P appt. with my family Dr.
Called the family Dr and I have my H&P on the 23rd.
Called the ins. company and was told they hadn't sent an approval letter yet because they were waiting on a surgery date. So I told them the date and they documented it and then they had me leave a message for the case manager so she could call me back and get info for the letter so they could get it to the Dr. by the 22nd.
August 17, 2006
Things are crazy at work. Trying to get people trained to do my work and tie up loose ends before I have the surgery. I am already having trouble sleeping because I keep thinking of things that need to be done before the surgery, not only for my self but for my daughter. Daddy will be there to help her but there are some things that daddy doesn't think about ahead of time.
My husband is being really good about this. He's done the support group meeting with me and he is reading my book to know what I can eat and do. His work is being really good also. I think it helps that his boss had this done 2 years ago. She's letting him change his hours for a couple weeks so he can take our daughter to school everyday.
I don't know why but I thought of something today that makes me glad I made this choice. When we were registering for our wedding almost 6 years ago I took the scanner back to the counter and told her I was finished with my wish list. She asked me "when is the baby due?" Excuse me?
Well, since I was pregnant i have worn my old maternity shirts. I even got another one for my birthday in May. (I asked for it) They seem to be cut just right for my big stomach. I can't wait until I can wear regular shirts. I am so looking forward to shopping at Lane Bryant and getting some of those cute clothes. Right now I can only buy clothes from Catherines or Lane Bryant catalogs.
August 24, 2006
Well, surgery is in 4 days. I thought I was doing well but I think I only slept about 3.5 hours. I can't wait but if I have one more person come up to me and tell me that they knew someone that had problems or died or that I am not making the right decision, I am going to scream.
I had my pre-surgery meeting with the surgeon on the 22nd. It went fine. Just like I expected.
I had my history and physical yesterday with my family Dr. He kept telling me how proud he was of me and that it was a hard decision and he thinks I made the right choice. I was amazed considering he didn't want me to do it at first.
My husband and i have been talking to our daughter about the surgery and the different things in her schedule. She understands that mommy is going to be at the hospital to have surgery to lose weight or, as she says "get skinny" but she thinks when I come home I will automatically be skinny. She asked me if the Dr. was going to cut me open and i told her yes, then she asked if there would be blood, I told her yes. Then she asked if he was going to cut me with a sharp knife, I told her yes and she said, "oh no, he can't that will hurt you" all I can say is it better be a sharp knife!!!
September 2, 2006
Well, I am now 5 days post-op. I am feeling okay but I am having a horrible time getting all my water and protein in. Yesterday was my first full day at home and it was kind of tuff. I can't get comfortable, I can't get my water in, my daughter is trying but she doesn't understand. I need to get to a support group meeting and just found out that there is one this next week-end so that will help I hope.
September 8, 2006
Had my staples removed yesterday. Things are going well except that I may have a hernia. The Dr. said that we will recheck it in 3 weeks. I also found out I am down 23 lbs. 23 lbs in 10 days. It's unbelievable.
I am getting out and walking more everyday.
September 29, 2006
I went back in for a recheck yesterday and I am down 41 pounds.
I do have a hernia. I thought it was a little one but the doctor thinks it is big. I go in for a cat scan on Monday to see how big it really is.After he gets the results then he will decide what he's going to do. To add to it, though, I have a sinus infection and he wont do surgery again until the infection is cleared up. My family doctor is being pretty aggressive and thinks I should be cleared up by the middle of next week.
I've been watching the numbers go down but haven't really been able to see the weight loss. I put on a pair of my biggest pants the other day and had to change because I couldn't keep them on. I also put on a pair of 32 elastic waist jeans and I had about a 2 inch gap in the waist.
I got up today and just for grins tried on a pair of regular size 28 jeans and I zipped them up without holding my breath. I was so excited that I almost cried. Especially since they look baggy.
October 3, 2006
I went in yesterday and had a CT scan to see how big my hernia was. The test went okay but later that afternoon I got a call from the nurse and I DO NOT have a hernia. They see a spot and think it is an abscess.
I went in this morning and had blood work done and I go see the Dr. this afternoon to see what the results are and what is going to be done. I still have pain in my belly and it gets worse when I walk.
We'll see what he says this afternoon.
October 16, 2006
Well, I am 7 weeks post-op today and down 52 lbs. The Dr. found my labs were all good and he is just going to watch and wait. I'm not concerned because the pain is getting less all the time.
Things are going well. I am supposed to be trying actual meat right now but I am scared. I did pork and it sat in me like a lead balloon and I was light headed so now I am leery of trying anything.
I came back to work last week and it has been good for me because it keeps me on a schedule. The problem I am having is finding clothes that fit. I work in a mostly casual atmosphere so those clothes just look really baggy on me but this week we had tours coming through so we have to dress up 3 out of 5 days and that is interesting. My dress shoes are slipping off every time I step and most of my dress clothes are baggy. I have gone down 4 pants sizes. I hate to spend a lot of money on new clothes because I won't be in them for long.
I have tried the clothes swap but it's hard because I am so tall.
My husband is finally losing weight. He was supposedly going on a protein diet when I came home from the hospital but that only lasted 2 days. Then he went on slim-fast and that only landed a couple of days also. He started on Weight Watchers on 10/5 and in his first week he lost 8.5 lbs. He seems to be sticking to it.
I can't wait until we both lose more weight. Our romantic life sucks right now because we are usually both so tired but now that i am losing big weight and he's not, we are on total different levels.
Skylar (my 4 y/o) and I have been doing walks after dinner and it is great. We are spending good time together and I get my exercise and she gets to blow some energy before bed so we all benefit.
This Saturday is our 6 year wedding anniversary. Clark keeps asking where I want to go for dinner but since I can't eat that much does it really matter? I would love to have some wine but I am thinking that 7.5 weeks out is to soon to do that.
October 24, 2006
Well, here I am 8 weeks out and down 61 pounds. It feels great.
Today at work we had to dress up in costume for a motivation thing and I wore my wedding dress. It was a size 24. When I started this I was wearing 32/34. I am sure the style helped me get into it but I don't care, it still felt good putting it on.
I am really excited to go to a Halloween party this week-end. I am going to see some people that i haven't seen since last Halloween and the couple that are having the party haven't seen me since I was about two weeks out. I am trying to find a costume that will help show my weight loss.
I finally got my "BEFORE" pictures developed. I can't believe how horrible I looked. At the time of the surgery I weigh 366 so that is what I am going by.
At this point I am giving away a lot of clothes. There is a woman here at work who was bigger then me and had her surgery a month before me so I am giving her a lot of my things. I guess this is one way to clean out my closet. I think I am going to have to get rid of shoes soon.
My husband is doing good on his diet now also. He's doesn't have nearly the amount to lose that I do though. He will hit his goal long before I do.
I am going to go and reclaim my Air-Walker from my mother-in-laws house today. She borrowed it and then when I was getting ready for the surgery I asked if I could have it back since she was not using it and it was just sitting in the basement and she said "No, it's mine." and I had to tell her that it was mine and I had it before I ever met my husband and she still insists it's hers. I don't know what to think but I wondered if it is her way of trying to keep me from being successful. This is the same woman that didn't want me to have it and would tell me every horrible story she could think of from her Nursing experience but then would lecture my husband and I for being overweight.
I hope things are going well for everyone and have a GREAT Halloween!
November 7, 2006
Well, the Halloween party did not go how I thought it would. The costume I had planned on did not fit so I had to come up with something at the last min. and it didn't show any of my weight loss.
I weighed in an Saturday and I am down 68 pounds. I am under 300 pounds for the first time in 6 years. I went to the support group meeting Saturday and was able to share my news with a group that would understand my excitement. It was a really good meeting. I meet several people that are trying to get the surgery done. I love sharing my story. I know some people don't want others to know what they had done but I know I made the right decision for me and love telling people about my journey.
I am at the point where I think it's time to buy some new clothes. I am probably gonna go to Wal-Mart and see if I can get some transition pieces. I don't want to spend alot of money because I will be out of them before long.
I hope you all have a great week and happy weight loss!
November 30, 2006
It's been a few weeks since I have written. Right now I am down 82lbs. Only 89lbs to go to goal weight.
I did go to walmart and buy a top and a pair of size 24 jeans. That felt really nice.
Since I last wrote we have had a couple things happen in our family. One of my brothers came home from Napa to surprise me for Thanksgiving and my daughters cat escaped from our house and got hit by a car and then last night we adopted 2 kittens from the local rescue league.
My grandmother took me out shopping yesterday to buy me a new outfit for the holidays. It was fun. We went to CJ Banks. I love their clothes but haven't been able to get into them since right after the store opened. The clerk was helping us and I couldn't find a pair of tan pants in the 24T size and automatically went into the old, fat, disappointed attitude. The Clerk went in the back and found the 24T and I tried them on and they were to BIG. I dropped another pants size. That makes seven pant sizes since the surgery 13.5 weeks ago.
The bad thing is I could really get addicted to this clothes shopping thing. My husband better go get a part time job ( I can't, I will be to busy shopping) :) hee hee
Saturday is our support group Christmas Pot Luck. It will be interesting to see what people bring.
Better go for now,
Have a great week and Happy Weight Loss!!
December 12, 2006
Well, I didn't make it to the support group potluck. Friday night I ate something that didn't agree with me and felt like poop on Saturday.
At last check I was down 88lbs. I won't check again until Thursday. I am the patient speaker at the info meeting for my surgeon so I am going in early to get weighed before the meeting starts.
Shopping is really addictive! I haven't bought any new clothes since Grandma and I went out but I did buy (on line) a pair of winter white dress shoes to match an outfit I have and because I bought them I got to pick from 4 different items to get at half off. So... I bought a pair of knee high black leather boots. I have always wanted some but they were always so expensive and the ones in the stores were never big enough. After all the discounts and coupons I ended up getting $7.00 off the dress shoes and 65% off the boots. Both the shoes and the boots were under what the boots would have cost by themselves. They are supposed to be delivered today. If they don't fit I am gonna cry.
Sorry to bore you with this but it's exciting to me considering it's been years since I bought shoes. Before surgery I wore a women's 13W and now I am back into a 12W. Kind of hard to find beautiful/sexy shoes in those sizes.
Having our Christmas at the MIL's on Saturday. If you have read my other entries then you know how excited I am about being there all day and night. Going out to dinner for my mom's birthday on Sunday. (her day is actually Monday)
Hope everyone has a great week and Happy Weight Loss!
December 19, 2006
Hey everybody! Hope you all had a good week-end.
Christmas with my MIL went okay. Pretty predictable.
Got on the scale today and I am down 93lbs. 7 more pounds to my hundred and trying to get there by Christmas. Right after Christmas will be my 4 month anniversary and it would be so cool to be down that much in 4 months.
My husband thinks he wants to get the Lap-Band done. He has been dieting for years also and hasn't had much luck but then last week he saw his Dr. and had lab work done and had his blood pressure checked. He will be 37 on Saturday and he has had high blood pressure for years but he thought he had it under control but when he was there Tuesday it was something like 160/140 or some unbeleivable number like that, then on Thursday he got his lab results back and now he has high chol. and his trig. were way out of wack so he has decided he is ready to do something.
He told his mom and his brother last night and his brother started quoting bible versus and preaching about gluttony. Which is really interesting since his brother is bigger then he is.
My husband invited his mom to the educational class that he has to go through, thinking that might have been why she freaked out about mine but she just went off and then started talking about how thoughtless I was and didn't think anything about anyone else. It was basically what I thought she would do. This is all coming from the lady that loves to complain about how fat we are and are gonna die.
I hope he doesn't give up on the idea because of his mom's reaction.
Well, more later but time to run for now.
Have a great week and Happy Weight Loss!!
December 29, 2006
Yesterday was my 4 month surgery anniversary and I am down 101lbs. I can't beleive this! I have 70lbs to go to hit my goal.
I go see the Dr. next Thursday so that I can get released to start exercising. I am really excited about it. I want to be able to start working on toning my new body and getting rid of the other 70lbs.
I told you all before that my husband was looking into the lap-band but ever since his mother had her little tizzy about it he hasn't said anymore about it. He's signed up for a class on the 12th so hopefully he keeps the appointment.
I hope everyone has a great and safe New Year's Eve and we'll tallk more next year.
Happy Weight Loss!
January 5, 2007
Yesterday I saw Dr. Eibes and officially I am down 105 lbs. He released me to exercise yesterday. I have been walking but wasn't able to lift weights or do sit-ups or anything like that. Now that I am released I have an appointment with the trainer at the YMCA to set up a work-out. I am really excited.
Now that I have dropped so much weight the old jock in me is starting to come back. I used to play all kinds of sports and love being outside playing. When I gained all my weight, it was next to impossible to get me to go outside because I had no energy.
I can actually look in the mirror now and see the possibility of being able to wear sports tops and shorts and be seen in public.
I want to update you on my husband. He was with his brother (who is really large) at their dad's on New Years Day and my husbands brother started talking about his resolution to lose weight and their dad started talking about how proud he was of me and how much I have lost and told both my husband and BIL that he thought they should have RNY. Since he made that comment my husband is now talking about the Lap Band again and seems really excited about the info class next week. I guess it just takes one parent to be supportive.
Have a great week-end and HAPPY WEIGHT LOSS!!!
February 9, 2007
A little over 5 months out and I am now down 116lbs.
I was thinking of my accomplishments the other day. Only fat going thin people will appreciate.
1. Sit in the bathtub and my body doesn't touch the sides of the tub.
2. Can zip up my "skinny" coat and it is baggy
3. A dork parks to close and I can slide in my door without polishing my car and theres too.
4. Run around the yard chasing my daughter and not feel like I am going to have a heart attack.
Th eone thing my doctor has told me is that the surgery will not fix the problems already existing in your life. It is so true. It hsa actually developed some new also. My husband and I have been pretty rocky for several years and we saw a therapist for a while but he wouldn't go back because he was getting "picked on". Well, we went into this surgery with the understanding that this was what I needed to do to lose weight and he was going to do something else but as you all know from reading this that hasn't happened. He is trying to have lap band now but in the mean time things are pretty rough. He has only told me I am doing good or looked good two or three times in the past 5 months. As I lose I am wearing more fitted clothes, wearing make-up, doing my hair, more out going and just happier in general. This apparently is not making him happy. He hates it if someone gives me a complement. If it's a guy he thinks they are hitting on me.
I wouldn't normally share this but I always read how wonderful husbands or significant others are but I know there has got to be people out here that are facing the same problems I am. If, God forbid, it doesn't work out and we end up seperating, I know he is going to blame it on the surgery. His actions after the surgery will have nothing to do with it.
Sorry to end on a bummer,
Have a great week-end and HAPPY WEIGHT LOSS!
February 28, 2007
6 MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!!
As of today it has been 6 months and I am down 125lbs and feel great! I have a tummy tuck, breast lift and hernia repair to look forward to but nothing scheduled as of yet.
I can't wait for it to get warm out. I want to start wearing cute summer clothes.
I did finally get some pictures taken. I am submitting them today. They are not very clear or very flattering but it is all I have. One is from a month before the surgery, 1 is the night before the surgery and two that my husband took last night.
Have a great week and Happy Weight Loss!
March 9, 2007
Well, broke down and went to the doctor yesterday and I am having hernia surgery on Wednesday March 14th. He was not real happy with the fact that I waited almost 2 months before telling him about it. I know I probably should have but I kept thinking that I would wait until my normal follow up appt. in April.
I am glad we are getting this taken care of now.
Have a great week-end and Happy Weight Loss!
April 3, 2007
Sorry it's been so long since I last entered. A lot has been going on.
I did have my surgery on March 14th and it was painful but all went well. I spent the night so I could stay on the morphine.
I went in to get the staples out on March 22nd but I had a bulge right under the staples, Dr thinks it's a fluid pocket so my he decided to wait and see if it would reabsorb into my body. I told him I was also having problems with diarehha. He said he thought that was because my intestines were sensetive because of the surgery.
All that week-end my diarehha continued and I couldn't eat anything so I went back to the liquid diet to get my protein in. I also started blacking out and getting light headed.
Monday morning when the office opened I called and they said that because it was surgery day if I felt like I really needed to be seen to go down to the hospital and Dr. would see me there in the ER.
I waited for an hour and was never taken back to a room. I saw Dr. Eibes and Joel (his PA) go by and open door. (they were in back looking for me) They finally came out and talked to me and did a mini exam and said that he thought I should be admitted. He said he thought the diarehha was dehydrating me and that I couldn't take in enough to make up for it. He and Joel guessed that I was 5-6 liters low. He ended up sending me straight to a room. I spent the night just getting rehydrated and they did blood work also. My fluid pocket under the staples went away and so my staples were removed on Tuesday before I was released. They ended up giving me antibiotics for the intestinal problem so I feel like I am on my way to recovery.
I am now 7 months out and according to my scale, I have lost 140 lbs. I'll have to double check that with his scale when I go in this week for my recheck. I'm sure being sick did a lot to help me lose 15lbs in 1 month.
Well, hopefully I will be back to work next week which will make it easier to update.
Have a great week and HAPPY WEIGHT LOSS!
Happy Easter, Amy
p.s. my husband found out Friday that insurance has approved him for the Lap-Band. Just waiting on the Dr.'s office to call now.
April 20, 2007
This was my second week back at work and things are going much better. Now that I am back into a routine my proteins and water are back on track.
I am having clothes issues right now. I have been buying clothes for warm weather and then we went trhough a cold spell and I don't have many clothes that fit for cooler weather and I do not want to spend money on any now. I am wearing some of my capri's and things and just wearing sweatshirts with them. Can't wait for really warm weather. I need to be able to show off my tan from the tanning beds.
My husband is scheduled to have Lap-Band on May 2nd. He is pretty excited. I am excited that we will finally be on a closer eating level. It won't make meals as hard.
Have a great week-end and HAPPY WEIGHT LOSS!
Wednesday May 9, 2007
Things are gong pretty well. Last check I was down 150 lbs and today is the last day of my exercise restriction from my hernia surgery so I can start working out again. I have got to get some things toned up.
Can't wait for summer to be in full swing! I have always loved summer but then it was to hot for me to be out but now that I don't have a "fat" coat on all the time I really think it will change. We bought a family pass to the city pools so we will be doing that all summer.
Don't forget to check with your city to sign up for the "Walk From Obesity" that takes place in September, nation wide.
Happy Weight Loss to everyone!!
May 30, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me!! Well, today is my 40th birthday. I got on the scale I am down 160lbs. 11 pounds to go until goal. Last Monday was my 9 month Anniv. also.
I was really bummed when I got to work today. We always do balloons and some kind of food for peoples birthdays. They didn't do anything! I don't even think they remembered my b-day.
Well, Happy Birthday to me anyway!
Happy Weight Loss,
June 28, 2007
Today is my 10 month anniversary. I am down 165lbs. I have 6 lbs to go to my goal. Things are going well, diet wise. Trying new foods, some work, some don't.
My daughter and I are leaving for vaction tomorrow morning at about 3:00am. I like to leave early so she'll sleep most of the way. We are going way up North. Our family has a cabin up there and that is where we usually go for vacation. I can't wait now! After years of being to fat I am going to waterski again. Our whole family has been waterskiing since we were little and then I was so heavy I couldn't do it but now that is the first thing I want to do!
I hope all of you have a great and safe 4th!!
Happy Weight Loss!
July 9, 2007
We came back from vacation yesterday. It was great, I skied for the first time in about 10 years. I got up on the first try and it was a ball but I never realized the muscles you use when skiing. My back and arms were killing me. I was also able to go tubing with my daughter. I hadn't been able to do that because the tube wouldn't hold me.
I have pictures and I will load them as soon as I can.
Only lost a pound while gone but that puts me at 200lbs. Now my goal is to break the 200 and 5lbs to go until my personal goal.
Happy Weight Loss!
July 23, 2007
Well, I can't seem to break my 200lbs. It is frustrating to be this close to goal and not get any farther.
I had two mile stones this week-end:
Saturday I played volleyball at my cousins wedding shower. I sucked but a year ago I wouldn't have played at all adn probably wouldn't have even gone to the shower because of my size.
Sunday I played softball on a league team. I had signed up several months ago to be a sub player for the city rec league and last Friday a team called and needed me for Sunday. It was a ball. I was not MVP worthy but did pretty good for someone who hasn't played in 10 years. I got on base everytime I was up to bat. I must not have sucked to bad because they have asked me to come back and play next Sunday.
Between the volleyball and the softball I have discovered muscles that I forgot I had. My thigh and butt muscles are cursing me like you wouldn't beleive but it was definitly worth it and I had a great time.
Have a great week and HAPPY WEIGHT LOSS!
July 27, 2007
I finally did it! I broke 200 and am now at 198lbs. This is the first time I have been under 200 in over 20 years. I am only 3 pounds away from goal and tomorrow is my 11 month Anniv.
I have talked about this in the past but it is time to revisit. My husband is not being supportive at all. We are not getting along. I ended up moving out July 13th. He keeps telling me I am a bigger "b--ch" now then I was before the surgery. He was always threatening to divorce. Well, Friday he pulled that crap and I was tired of it. I packed up our daughter and myself and we were out in less then 30 min. He didn't think I would do it I think that is what he counted on. After being away for a few days we finally talked and it turns out he doesn't like the fact that I am confident and outgoing. I told him I wasn't going back to the "fat girl".
The bad part is this is the real me. I have always been athletic and outgoing but when he and I met I was dealing with some depression and had put on weight and become more sedentary. That is how he knew me. I don't want to be that way again.
It sucks that I finally feel so good about myself but my marriage is in the crapper. I am back home now but sleeping in my daughters room for now. He hasn't figured it out yet, that I am doing it to be away from him. This week-end will be tough because I won't have my daughter as an excuse because she is stay with her grandma all week-end.
I finally feel sexy and want to be touched and loved and I can't get that from my own husband. Don't get me wrong, he will have sex with me but I don't want sex with someone that doesn't love me or even like me. Our last big fight, I told him how surprised I was that he was so unhappy and that we have had more sex since my surgery then we had in the two years before the surgery. I then asked him, "so your telling me that we have been having sex and things weren't okay with us?" He said that was right, he wasn't an idiot and going to turn down sex. We haven't done anything since then.
We start therapy Aug 9th. Hope some miracle can happen.
Oh, I almost forgot, he is now saying that I did the surgery against his wishes and he doesn't know why he ever had the surgery. (even though he is now down almost 70lbs)
For all of you, I am glad I had the surgery!!! I would do it again in a min. My husband and I had problems before the surgery, it was not the surgery that caused the problems! I am strong, I survived being fat, I survived the surgery, I will survive this!! (with out food)
Happy Weight Loss!!
July 31, 2007
YEAH!!!!!!!! I did it!!!!!!! I have hit goal! I am down 171lbs. I now weigh 195. It took 11 months 3 days!!!!
Happy Weight Loss!!
November 12, 2007
I didn't realize it had been so long since I have written.
I am down 177lbs and feeling good. Wearing a 14 or 16 depending on the style. Thats a great feeling since I started in a 34. I have even been told by several people that I am too skinny. I am not buying that though. The people that say that are pretty heavy and I think it's an image thing because I used to be bigger then them and now I am smaller then them.
I went out with a girl friend of mine a couple of week-ends ago. It was a ball. We went to the place we hung out at back in the day. We saw people we hadn't seen in years. Some didn't have a clue who I was and a couple recognized me and were just amazed at how much I had lost. When my friend and I had gone out years ago I was always the fat friend. The guys would talk to me just to get to her. Well, she quit smoking and had put on a little weight and I was working it so it was a first for me to have guys go past her and come talk to me. I had a couple hit on me and when I told them I was married they were like..."...so!" I wouldn't do anything but it does make you feel good especially when your not getting the recognition at home.
Ready to go out again!!
Happy Weight Loss Everyone,
February 4, 2008
I can't believe it's been so long since I have updated.
Still maintaining my 177lb weight loss and still feeling good. My daughter and I have moved from our house and now are in our own place so mentally I am finally feeling well too.
Checked into plastic surgery but the one I want will cost me $8,000 for my tummy and $8,000 for my new chest. And that is with insurance paying for some. I about had a stroke. The new chest thing is not that I want stripper boobs. I just want boobs. I went from a 48D to a 36A and the only reason I am an A is because of the skin. I am a pretty big girl to have no boobies.
Hope everyone is doing well and .....
Happy Weight Loss!
June 16, 2008
Well, hi everyone. Sorry it's been awhile. Lot's happening.
My husband and I are now divorced. Official 06/06/2008. It has been okay.
We still have issues but we get along much better and talk more now that we
are not together. We both finally came to the conclusion that we made good friends
just bad spouses (to each other).
I am down 181lbs. Skin is still an issue but I don't see anythng happening about that
any time in the near future. 3 lbs away from high school weight and half my original weight.
Went to California a couple weeks ago and did my first marathon. It was the Bay To Breakers in San Fran. I ran part of the way and walked part of the way but I did it. If you had told me two years ago that I would do that I would have told you to go see a doctor cuse you lost screws.
Hope everyone is doing well, hang in there and....
Happy Weight Loss!
August 28, 2008
Well, Today is my 2 year Anniversary! I feel great!
My ex and I are handling things better. He has a girlfriend now and leaves me alone more. SHe seems to treat Skylar very well and Sky loves her. I have figured out one of the problems was the weight loss. He never said it but apparently he likes his women bigger. His new girlfriend is shaped like a diamond and is at least 100 pounds over weight. If that is what he wants that is fine as long as she treats Sky right.
I have boyfriend now also. A women at work introduced us. He is her husbands best friend. We met and have been together ever since. He is divorced with no kids and is 12 days older then me. He is taller then me and is thin. It's really stupid because the lady that introduced us, now will not talk to either of us. We think that she was hoping we wouldn't work but things are going great.
I am still staying active and the boyfriend is very active so we actually do things together and he is not a compulsive eater which helps also.
Hope everyone is doing well!
Happy Weight Loss!
November 4, 2008
Still doing well. Still learning new things. I think this will be a learning experience for the rest of my life.
I was an EMT during my "fat" years. I loved it but it got to the point where I couldn't do anything and I was always worried they would end up working on me at a scene because I had a heart attack running to the scene. Well, I had to put the skinny body to the test. My boyfriend and I were at teh food court at the mall and we were walking by one of the counters and a 19 y/o girl dropped as we were walking by. The guy next to her caught her head on the way down so we didn't worry about a head injury but everything else was a crap shoot. She was having a full out seizure. I ran over and started doing my thing. It turns out that the guy who caught her was the son of a patient I had and the two Des Moines cops that were there that day happened to be ones I knew from working at the hospital. I took lead on the whole thing until she came to was able to deny care. It was bad for her but it gave me the adrena line rush that I have missed for so long. I was able to perform the way I should and not have to worry about my size or health getting in the way.
I have been looking into different ways to get bck into it but it is kind of hard since I am now a single mother and the hours for that type of job are pretty hard. Still lookin.
Happy Weight Loss!
August 12, 2009
I can't believe it's been so long since I have posted.
So many things have changed. In January my daughter and I moved into a house my friends own.(they moved from one to the other but then could never sell this one so I am renting.)
My boyfriend and I are still together and are going to be married in a few months.
My daughter is tall and beautiful and is doing very well.
I have been fighting with 10lbs and have got to win this battle! Have not had any plastic surgery yet but really need to as the sore are adding up.
Happy Weight Loss!
January 2, 2011
Wow, can't believe it's been so long since I have added anything.
I was remarried October 24, 2009 and we are living in a duplex, with my daughter, in Windsor Heights, Iowa.
2010 was a rough year! March 31st I was in a tanning bed and felt something weird happen and the I started choking on fluid. I sat up and bllod started pouring out my mouth and nose. The spa called my mom who came and took me to the walk in clinic. I was treated for a bloody nose and sent home. The next morning I took my dog outside and as i went to go back into the house it started bleeding again. Between the 31st and April 2nd I was in the Urgent Care, ER or specialist 7 times. Was finally admitted into Methodist Hospital on Friday the 2nd transfered to Mercy on the 3rd and was in ICU from the third to the 6th which is the day they fianally figured out where I was bleeding from. I had ruptured an artery in my face and the only escape for the blood was through the sinuses. I was in the hospital a total of 12 days.
After I was released I was home on bed rest with no lifting. Two days before I was to go back to work I was having severe chest pain and was talking to a friend that was a nurse and I was telling her how it felt like I had pulled a muscle but I couldn't figure out how since I hadn't done anything. She told me to get to the dr. NOW! I told her I would wait until the next day, she said I needed to go right now so Iwaited for my husband to get home and weloaded up the kid and went to the Urgent care where I used to work. They took me straight in and when I told the nurse my symptoms she grabbed the dr and I told him and he told me I had to go right down to the ER.
We met my parents at our house so Sky could stay with grandma since it was after 9 on a school night. When we got to the ER, the dr had already called down and told them what he suspected but I still hadn't been told what they thought it was. I was taken straight back to a room and then taken to cat scan. It hurt like hell! As the tech wheeled me back into the exam room she yelled to the dr that it was "positive". At that point, things went crazy. Nurses running around, the dr came in and said the scan had shown 5 blood clots in the right lung.
Apparently when most people have surgery they are given blood thinners but when I had my surgery on my artery in my face they couldn't do that because I was there for uncontrolled bleeding, then was sent home on bed rest and was on birth control. About three days before the chest pain I remember having cramps in my legs. I was in the hospital for 4 days this time.
Happy Weight Loss!
January 3, 2011
I have been having issues on and off for several years with getting light headed and vision issues. I kept putting them with my blood presure drops but in June and July they started getting much worse. Went to the dr a couple times and his comment was that he wondered if my sugars were dropping but the only way to tell was to have a sugar monitor to test it right when it happens. I was talking to my boss and it just happened that she had several monitors that were not in use at her house so I started checking them.
My levels are dropping really low and have now been going to an endocrinologist. After some testing they have found that my pancrease is not working. This is a side effect to my gastric bypass. I am on meds but they do not seem to be working. We are increasing meds in two week incriments but have not had luck yet. We are in process of getting approval to go to Mayo Clinic as they are the ones doing the research on this. The endocrinoligist says they will test to see how much of it they have to take to get it to start working again. Will get more info on the 4th of Feb.
Happy Weight Loss!