Wow, this week is going by way to fast! Been a busy week for me. But I like it. So many things happening in the next few months. I wanted to share that I have joined a gym!! I ride out to kent or bus and bike out there. This is a new experience for me to workout in front of strangers! But I am taking it on.... Like grabbing the bull by its horns!! Squats, push ups, bands, step ups, weights, cardio (biking, walking), and steam room. I love the experience so far this week! I know that I need to keep going with ideas for EXCERSIZE and will have to eat and EXCERSIZE right the rest of my life. I have relooked at my food intake. Adjusting and have asked for help on what I need. I am working with a personal trainer Jamie at the Vision Qwest Gym. Figuring out the equation of calories needed to eat to burn fat and not set my body in starvation. I want to know these things and learn all I can. I have been able to do what I have done but have felt a little lost in knowing what I need. Each day is a new day, I am trying to "learn from yesterday to make today better", and "learn from today to make tommorrow even better". Again I have to tell myself, things worth doing are not always easy or quickly done. Patience! I am wearing two binders while I work out and have to be careful with what I do due to the hernia I have. Also find that my right leg makes it challenging for some of the things but adjusting is happening. The process when I started 8-23-10 seemed almost unthinkable. Seemed like it could never happen. I had not really thought about what it might be like in my journey. But now I am more than half way to my goal. Sometimes I still feel as big as I was. I doubt spaces, and doing things that I can now do...trying to plan things to fit or accommodate and realize that I do not really have to do that like I did before. In the next 6 months I will have major changes in life. I look forward to returning back to the workforce, getting married, and still have surgeries to go through. Nothing is as big as for being able to manage my food and EXCERSIZE. I pray for strength for life long success to be healthy and doing what I need to do for myself. I know that it may drive some people in my life crazy, like I am obsessed with my journey, but for me it has to be this way.

I NEVER WANT TO HAVE THE QUALITY OF LIFE I WAS LIVING AT THE WEIGHT OF 654 lbs. MY HEALTH SCARED ME AND COMFORT WAS JUST NOT THERE.

  

 I have finally lost the six I gained a nd lost 2 additional.    It has frustrated me, but I do beleive Sherrie has got this back on track!  I am riding and loving it!!  Going to ride to my doctor appt today!!

My last blog was one that I copied from the over 50 BMI forum I go to here in OH.   I wrote it a couple of days ago... Or maybe just yesterday I do not remember.   So many things are going on in my life right now.   I am however feeling good the last few days about the direction my head and body are going in relationship to my weight and so forth.  Now I am now riding my outdoor bike daily and loving it.   My fiancé wants to do the Seattle to Portland 2013.   I know that I want to do it to...but will need to seriously train for it.   I told him maybe 2013 if not deffinately 2014!   I will be able to return back to the swimming pool within the next few days to maybe a week!!  My incision now has no stitches and is almost completely healed!   I only have one tid bit of a place that is very superficial but I will wait for complete healing before returning to the pool.  I want no risk of infection!  

I went to my RNY surgeons appointment yesterday.   Since I had such a big amount to lose th ey have had me see the. Every 3 months.   It went great!  They asked to use my stats in something... I said it was fine with me.  I will return to see them though in December 2012 now.   That is further than the 3 months now.   Hard to believe it will be 2 years out then for me!  Wow!   

July 4th, 2012 is coming up faster than fast!   This is the day that. Y fiancé and I will be married!   My first time marriage and so nervous.   At 40 years old I should not be nervous but I am!   I am very excited to though!   He has been with me for 4 years and he is a true man and keeper!!   I love my Honey!! 

Hugs it to you all and have a great day!

I wrote this and wanted it here in my blog...

Hello, here I am again. I have had no words that I could sit and type to a page here to post. Discusted with myself in the past few weeks. Nobody to blame but with my own self. Yes, I have reasons that I have not been able to EXCERSIZE until the last week or so. But my eating there is no excuse. I have a 6 lbs gain. The last three days have been better and really working on my focus! I seem to want to hide that I am struggling. I want to stay so positive. I have a ways to go... But do realize I have come along ways! It is so easy to give advice and I can talk myself the advice... Truely I know every bit of the choices I am making at the time that I am making them. 

I have a couple of NSV's that have come about the last three days. This has put me in and on cloud nine. Big for me...ok GIANT for me!

1. I have now removed my power chair from the house. 
It is no longer my power chair but rather now the garages!
This was a major one for me. My power is in my legs now!
It is in my body and mind! (even when I want to hide). 

2. I have now been able to finally ride my bicycle!
Not the one inside my house that I had to ride laying on the floor.
I finally have done this!! Took pictures and videos! 
Last year I fell, but sat on it before putting it away! 
I said then that I would be back to it and I would ride it!!

So each day the last two I did a bit, the. The next more miles.... And today I road with my fiancé! It was wonderful, sunny, and we went 20 miles! I may be a bit sore tomorrow... But tonight I am doing ok! I really know that this whole life altering and changing ways is ways for life! I am going to come in here and post or comment. Just felt I could not lurk any longer, feeling that I just could not say anything to anyone when I felt I was failing my journey. I realize that my self pitty was not going to help. If you do not hear from me.... I have not gone, I may just be lurking and not knowing how to share my failure or struggles. But I know that I am not alone with struggle and excitement... And fear of failure!

SUCCESS IS GOING TO BE WHAT I MAKE IT!!!

 Well I know it has been a bit.   Thought I would get on here to talk about this last weekend.  I got to have my twin brother visit and spend the weekend together.   I have four neices thanks to him.  It was the best time!  He had not seen me in over 4 months.  It started to cry when he saw me and hugged me... Saying ...oh geese sis... I can put my arms all the way around you!    It felt great to see him!  He also said... You know sis, YU are smaller than me now by a few pounds.   I AM IN SHOCK,  THIS ISMTHE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE THAT I HAVE EVER BEEN SMALLER THAN HIM.   NOT ONLY AM I SMALLER THAN HIM, I AM NOW SMALLER THAN MY OLDER BROTHER.   THIS MEANS.....I AM THE SMALLEST SIBBLING in my family.  This feels very very very very strange!!  I still have weight to lose and am diligently working on this.  
There was another NSV this weekend worth mentioning to!   For the first time as being an aunt.... And I have been an aunt for almost 19 years,  I finally got to have a niece sit on my lap!!  My 6 year old niece climbed up in my lap and sat there for quite some time while the adults played games.   It felt so great to get to experience this!   I will not have any more neices or nephews... So I treasured every minute of that time!!  I actually have a full lap!!!  

Well as far as my head aches, they are a bit more mild.  Still having them here and there.   I have not yet had the lumbar punture(spinal tap).  Scared to have it.   I did have another cat scan.  Just had major blood lab work done.  Soon will be the ultra sound of the veins in my knock and head.  Well,  I want to think that the head aches are lessening more and more and maybe won't need to have the lumbar puncture?.    Not sure when I will be seeing my neurologist again?

So this last weekend, I have to admit my eating sucked.  Not enough, to much, wrong kind, right kind... I was not consistent.  I  did get a lot of EXCERSIZE in though and so I feel great!  I have managed to walk and get that done feeling great.  

Still have 16 stitches to getmut.   Maybe this Thursday!!  Looking forward to that! 
Hugs out to you all!!

Sherrie