I read my blog posts and laugh.  But not really sure why!?   I know that it seems like I am always trying to refocus.  I guess that is keep on trying.  Not letting bad choices one day be a demise.  Even if there are bad choices 50% of the time.  I am working on lessoning them more and more.   Today I feel I can do it!  I know that I can!  To get to goal seems at some times the farthest thing away and like my success will not be there.   But then again... I have been successful and will continue.  Success is every day I breath and make effort and know that I will never be in the same spot I had put myself into at 654 lbs!! 

I have to know that it has been a road of ups and downs all along this journey.  Yes, I am so HAPPY!!!  It has been a lot of work and I have done it!   I can still do it!!

So, journal... you need to hang with me and pen I need to use you!  Sherrie, you need to be honest to you and yourself and not make excuse for crap!  You know when you think about the crap.... it is exactly what it is!  CRAP! 

Fuel good food into your body and burn with exercise and you will continue at some point to see numbers that you want to see! 

Just 140 calories here and 50 there... it all adds up!  Darn, why is it so easy to think that it is just this or that and that it will not all add up.   AGAIN Sherrie.... JOURNAL and keep track. 

Water, we need to like each other!  I drink you and you help me rid this fluid that I so am not liking in my body.  Salt.... you are not my friend and period you need to stop craving it!

Protein... we are going to be mixing a lot more.  You will not be left out!

Carbs... you need to runaway... ok... I am running away from you at least for a while!

Nuts and candy we are not friends so stop calling me!

Ok...

Watermelon, you tasted good this morning.  1 cup was enough.  No, I will be eating 1/2 c oatmeal with protein powder in it in about 2 hours.   I will be eating healthy and good today!  

I will be heading to my best friends house.   She is very dear to me.  I am driving her to her doctor appointment.  I love her.  She is the size I was when I started this journey.  Pretty much homebound.  One day she may be ready to dive into losing weight.  I know that she wants it but not bad enough yet to go through with the journey.  Not saying that surgery is the journey for her because it is not for everyone.  She is afraid of the surgery.  But just the desire to move more and not talking more than getting up to the side of the bed and out and back in more often.   Just small baby steps more often.  Anyhow, I will be helping her get ready for the appointment.   I once was in her shoes.  I care and love her and yes worry, but love to help her and take her to her doctor appointments.  She is after all my BESTIE!! 

I thank God for the abilities that I have regained with the loss of the weight!  My body is so much easier to move and do the things in life that I need and want to do! 

I still have not yet indoor skydived.  I was just talking to my husband about it!   I have been under the weight limit and just been waiting for the surgeries to heal so that I could do it!   I need to do this and set another goal to reach.   

Oh, I road the huge wheel in Seattle this last weekend.  I was really high and so happy that I did not freak out.  I usually do not do well with heights.   Oh, also this last weekend... I did another thing from my bucket list.  I rode the carousel at the Seattle water front.   The weight limit was 250 lbs... and I proudly got on that horse and rode away with goose bumps and all!   I did not care that I was the only adult actually riding the ride.  There were adults there holding their kids on the ride.  lol.   But hey, I was a little tiny girl the last time I say on one of those horses.  I got pictures and video. 

I always recreated a video of a pipe organ music down on the water front.  I pretended that I was playing and was dancing around.  3 1/2 years ago, I was down there with my husband, mom and son.  I was pretending that I was playing it while in my power chair with oxygen.  My husband had posted it to youtube to share it with our family and friends.   There were some people that left extremely rude comments and so he deleted it.   Now we cannot seem to find the video.   I really wish that I had it to go along with this new one. 

So this last weekend was meaning full in several things that I did!

Ok, so I need to get up and get going about this day.  Eat healthy, shower, clothes, husband to work....Besties... Husband to second job... potty dog in between, exersise.  Already got the laundry washed and dried and hung the ones out to dry that needed it.  I love to have productive days.... it really does feel good and worthy! 

I have had some days where I have been a bit down and I guess depressed although I really do not like that word... depressed.   I had not been sleeping good and also had muscle cramps so severe that I needed to take muscle relaxers.  I do not like to have to take them as they wipe me out and then I feel the need to sleep most of the day away.  

Not sure when the cramps in my legs will go away, if they ever will?  I had the issues when I was the biggest I was, although they occurred several times a day.  Now they happen sometimes but still just as severe as before.  Sometimes I will go days and days with out them... then sometimes it will be several days in a row that they happen.  I do nothing different so not sure why? they continue. 

Ok...

Good bye for now and hugs to whoever may have read this and actually gotten to the bottom of this blog!

Just sitting here, was in the over 50 BMI forum as this is where I like to post and lurk.   Tonight weighed and that dam scale said 230... Really earlier this week was 218 the lowest I have been since surgery.   Some days are so easy and some days are so hard.  I am back to the grind with journaling.  Awareness to the fact that the foot surgery is over and a great bike ride to tell be I am so not in shape.   Well at least how I was prior to surgery and fluid on the brain.   Things are getting better with health and exercise is back to happening!!   Eating great choices is so easy and feels so good.... Why do I even allow the crap to entise me!   

Life long journey this is!   I love every day, I know how to focuss and sometimes refocuss!   Equations of success is not full of guilt and the fact that I know to be aware.   Excercise is a must!  Good for me food actually tastes so good to me, it actually has flavor!  

So like everyone in life, I am using my tools and will it lose focuss of them!!  

 

I know where I came from and I know where I want to stay!   I am not done, but I love me and am so very comfortable that in have this in grips for life.   Just keep coming here and staying aware and mindful!!

hugs

and make it a great day!!

 

So I know the scale is slowly going down.... but it is still going down.  I still know that I have the tools and use them.  This is more than just the WLS tool.  I have now had foot surgery and still recovering from this.  Have had some other issues with fluid in my brain and working on that as I speak.  Things are all great though and never for one moment regret my WLS!   It has allowed me to have the tests needed to know things that I was only guessed apon due to my weight.  I will always have health issues but I know that the needed procedures are now options and open for me to live a longer life!  Gentics were not in my favor!   But I am blessed!!!!!  

I love living life and doing things that I have never done in my adult life because of my weight! 

This is a short smidge blog,  I have to go for now but wanted to just post something. 

Positively excited to see others success's and I love my connect to WLS community!   The local groups that I attend are wonderful and I recommend this to any who have opportunity to join up in local meet up!

hugs out to you all and make it a great day!

 

I have been posting in the over 50 BMI forums and guess I have failed to post in my personal blog.  I really love coming to the OH website.   I attend a support group once per month in Seattle WA and I encourage everyone to come to the OH website!  Knowledge is power and also the supports around us can help us in the journey for live with regards to losing and maintaining.   

Since Sept. 2012 I have had surgery.   Oct 31, 2012 I had surgery at the UW Medical Center.   This was to reconstruct my abdominal wall and fix hernia.   They did not remove skin nor make my abdominal area look better.   However I do feel much better with regards to being able to do things with out feeling like my belly is going to burst.   They cut out old balled up mesh and I do not look pregnant now.   

I am working at losing the rest of my weight.  I love going to the gym!  Today my weight is 224 lbs.   This is the lowest that I have been since having the RNY gastric bypass surgery.   I look forward to the day when I am in the 100's......  I know that the day will come because I am determined and I know that it is possible if I beleive in myself and put the efforts into getting there!  I guess I go to the phrase... Where there is a will there is a way! 

I have jeans that are a size 16!  I wear a large to extra large shirts and jackets.  This is amazing to me.... Not so long ago, there was no clothes in even 10x that would fit.   The specialty stores for plus size would not even fit.  So yes this is a great feeling.   I still however gravitate to the bigger sizes thinking that I need them.   That part is hard to grasp on to sometimes.   If the day ever comes that I wear a single digit size clothing, I am not sure I will really beleive it.  Crazy how the changes are so mind boggling and yet I am in my own body.  I am so still the same Sherrie and yet when I see myself in the mirror I look so different.  

Well I will close.   But I will be back.   I will try not to let so much time go by without blogging here.   I usually just end up posting in the forum I go to all the time.

I LOVE WINNING AT LOSING!!!!

 

Hugs,

Sherrie

Ok, I really like having my walking and swimming buddy!  It really is nice to walk and talk and Remy (not sure how you spell his name) he keeps entertaining us with his silly craziness!
 
what else... I am 226 lbs today.   I working on my IFLY now.  rode my bike there last night to weigh on their scales.  I weigh in the morning first thing, and usually naked (TMI).   so on theres last night with clothes and shoes and bike helmet and coat I was 232.  I am on it!  The lady there said I would be fine to go.  I think without the shoes and helmet and coat I would have been 230 or less.  lol.

So that makes me at ease for now.  I did ask about the sizes of the suits that we have to wear and she said I should be fine.... so that is the only worry for me now.  I asked if they were xxl or xl but she did not have an answer....  hmmmm...

I can harldy wait.  I have things in the makings!! 

Trying to stay accountable with myfitnesspal.com on logging there my eating.  I had been using a writing log little books when I was logging.  but now with my Iphone I am trying it electronically.  Also with my walking partner as a friend there.  So I am trying something new. 

Hugs,
Sherrie