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WOW... 3 months already under my belt and it's a smaller belt   The week has been filled with lots of appointments... starting with they eye doctor on Monday (need reading glasses); ortho that afternoon to check my knee (arthritis & worn cartilage) so I gotta put the reading glasses on to read the tylenol arthritis bottle - LOL!!!! It's all good.  Nutrition on tuesday... got an A+ need to add some carbs and a 2nd protein shake.  Post op with Colleen on Friday and right on track.  Need to follow up with PCP on the anemia & whatever is causing my dry mouth at night.  It feels really great to know that I am doing "this" right.  Hoping that I will be able to take a step back and breath and enjoy (Colleen's advice too).  Don't want my tool to become my job.  My life is fabulous and so am I   I am so blessed -- 44 is coming up and looking forward to it

Muah!!!!!

I finally decided to clean out the closet.  Being the super organized person that I am... bought storage containers and had labels ready.  At this point, I'm not sure what I will do with the clothes but I wanted them out of my closet (so I could spread out my new stuff).   I had already gone through most of my winter stuff which was way too big (26/28 & 30/32) but still had bundles of spring/summer stuff that is already too big.  As I began the process, I ran across of few exciting things that I bought late this summer size 22/24 and became pissed.  Not upset... just out right pissed.  I felt like I was packing up actual dollar bills (and lots of them).  I am truly excited about the new me BUT truly did not like packing up the clothes.  It's not just the money it also felt like I was packing up my security blanket and there is no turning back.  Makes me start feeling lots of pressure to make sure this is a successful journey and that I cannot go back.  Not that I want those 100 lbs back but this feels very final and I cannot seem to let my brain move forward.  I think this is the first time since I began the process last April, that I can actually say that I am scared and afraid of failure.  I need to find Adrienne real quick because I don't like these feelings
Who would have thought that clothes would bring on these emotions.... it's the little things that can get you