Well, Saturday I completed the EGD, and today I saw the nutritionist and the cardiologist.  I have to go in this Wednesday night for a sleep study, Friday for a psych evaluation, and next Monday for a stress test.

I don't know why I couldn't just do the stress test today...kinda feels like an insurance milking (lol).

Nonetheless, I am anxious about everything it seems....but especially about the surgery & life after the surgery.  I can  only hope at this point that I am making the right decisions and that things are going to go well.  I would be lying if I said it wasn't a little scary, especially since this is a somewhat lonely journey.

Sure, I have my husband's support. But, no one can take the pre-op test, go through the surgery, or do what it takes post-op to stay healthy, heal, renew, exercise, eat right, etc.  These things aren't group activities when you do a real analysis.  You can't decide you're not going to do this or that post-op just because your husband or kids don't feel like joining you.  And, of course no one will be joining you in the operating room...

Forgive me if I digress. I'm not trying to be negative. Reality is just sitting in, and excitement has turned into anxiety.

I know the bible says be anxious for nothing, but with prayer and supplication make your request known to God.  So, that's the pill I'm swallowing tonight for the pre-op jitters.