Well, I'm on my way to see Dr. Barker @ the hospital!!  Surgery starts at 5:30pm, and I am more than excited. I'm ready to get this show on the road!!

Thanks to everyone who is going with me, who supports me, or who prays for me.  You guys are the best.

~~Smooches for the Looser's Bench. I'm on my way!

Perhaps I'm the only one, but my nerves are on edge today.  It feels like I have a ton on last minute things to do to prepare for guest and the surgery, and I'm running out of time.

I'm trying to hold it together, and but for my husband and son, I don't know what I would be accomplishing right now.  My son is Mr. I-got-this-mom, and my husband is my coach, although a little impatient sometimes.

I guess things are weird because my mom is coming to visit and help "take care of me" although she is the one who needs to be taken care of...

My favorite aunt is bringing her, which helps calm my nerves. But, dang, I thought this day was going to be smooth sailing, and it''s not.  Instead, it's another one of those opportunities that I get to observe how imperfect I am, and how things don't go well when you don't plan well or communicate well.

So, that's how this day is going-nutz I tell you--lol!  But guess what, I don't have jitters about the surgery tomorrow. It's just getting through this day that's affecting my need to have things in order.

Oh well, I guess we all have these kiind of days sometimes.  Today just happens to be mine.

Well guys, yesterday was day 1 of the liquid diet, and overall, I think it went  well...of course until I woke up at 2am this morning with one of the worst migraines I've ever had.  It took hours to get rid of it. But, I'm still light sensitive!  So I'm in the bed blogging with the darkest sun shades I could find....

The good news is that I'm not hungry!  The better news is that I have my mind and emotions under check so I don't feel remorseful that I can't eat per se--just drink, which is cool.

Against my better judgment, I jumped on the scales this morning (after just weighing myself yesterday at 266).  And wala-- I was 269.  Imagine that?  Water weight perhaps--who knows, who cares, I'm not going to let the little fluxuations get me down, although I know 3 gained pounds in one night is no joking matter. But, you know the saying, let's laugh to keep from crying.

That's it for now. I'm resigned to the idea that today is going to be great because I'm not going to give in to any type of migraine madness. So, I'm off to the races. I'm going to go enjoy some of our Texas heat!

Well, I am one week away from my big day, and I started my liquid diet this morning.  The few selected family members that know about my surgery have been very supportive...especially my husband, mom, & son.  I have mixed emotions today, perhaps in part because work has been stressful.  I have a very stressful profession in general, and the workplace environment I'm in now is more stressful than most places like it...

With that being said, I still have a hint of excitement mixed with a little anxiety, which I'm sure is normal.  I weighed today and I was down to 266, which I feel pretty good about because at the last doctor's visit I think I was 274 (or something really close).

One thing that I wonder about is the tid-bid of forgetfulness that I've been experiencing--which I think is caused by job stress and anxiety about "what happens" post-op...with my body and more interestingly, how I'm going to function at work.

The  liquid diet is going ok so far...it's 2:40pm, and I haven't had a melt-down or major craving for FOOD--lol, which I think is great. I've had to do liquids before. So, I feel kinda like a veteran. 

Fortunately, I like to drink water and herbal teas... I find both soothing to my soul.  So, a couple of weeks of this (pre & post surgery), and I should be chilly-willy.  Perhaps, nothing will bother me at work...which is my guess anyway once I really start loosing weight!

One last thing--I really am thankful to the support from the people who have offered expressions of kindness and understanding on the OH forum.  You guys have been extremely inspirational and encouraging.  THANK YOU!

Let's Dance...


I guess you can tell that I am estactic!