• Username: luv2lw
  • Location: hinton, WV, USA
  • Member Since: 7/6/2008
  • BMI: 60.5
  • Hoping to have surgery
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June 29, 2011
on June 29, 2011 8:46 am

Had my psychological done, and guess what, I have some issues like being highly critical of myself, self-esteem issues, repression and isolation are my most used defense mechanisms.  Go figure, a fat lady that is critical of herself and has poor self esteem, who would have thought that.  I wonder if a skinny person ever thought about sitting in a booth in a restaurant, taking a plane ride, sitting in rides at the amusement parks, or anything similar to those things. I would reason to bet they hadn't ever considered the amount of shame involved in doing any of those things.  I know I have issues, and I know my weight plays a large role in those issues.  That is one of the biggest reasons I want to lose the weight, that and the fact that I am tired of being so tired, and hurting all the time. 

My husband, lord love him, once asked my why I was so tired.  His words were "you sit at your desk all day, how come you are so tired in the evening?"  After calming down, and explaining to him that my job was more than just sitting (I am a social worker), I further explained to him that every day I carry another person on my back with me with each step I take.  He said he had never thought about it like that.  I told him to carry around 200 # of anything on his back all day, and then tell me how tired he was at the end of the day.  Of course he wasn't willing to do that.

Well, I guess I will discuss some of these issues with a therapist and try to work them out before surgery.  I know that this surgery is going to be life changing, and I am determined to do it successfully.

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June 8, 2011
on June 8, 2011 5:15 pm
Met with Dr. Shin yesterday for my initial consult.  Got measured weighed and all that good stuff.  Medical history and finally met Dr. Shin.  He seems to be a very kind hearted caring surgeon.  Lays all the facts out and which helps you with the decision as to which procedure to have done.  I have chosen to have the Roux-en-Y. 

Today I met with the psychologist and started that process.  Boy the steps you have to go through for this procedure.  If they made new parents go through some of this stuff before having children we may have a whole lot less abuse and neglect, but there I go digressing again.  I don't think there will be any problems with the psychological, I think I am pretty well adjusted, just fat.

Dr. Shin does want me to lose 20 pounds, and I am going to do my best.  I just need to get out there and move more.  It seems more like a reality now, so I have a better chance of losing that 20 pounds.  The process takes so long and you start to give up, so this has jump started me on the weight loss kick.  Well that is all for now, as always, I wish everyone out there that is in the beginning, the middle or on the final steps of this process the best of luck on your own weight loss saga. Remember we didn't put this weight on overnight, it surely will not come off over night.
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Weight loss saga!!
on June 2, 2011 12:52 pm

I am meeting with my weight loss surgeon next week, and then going for my psychological.  Hopefully all the pieces I have been working on will start falling into place, and this long awaited puzzle will be solved.

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  Where do I begin, I guess at the beginning.  I was a normal sized child until I was 6 years old, and from that moment on I have grown and grown.  Of course, like most overweight individuals, I have occassionaly lost weight, only to put the weight back on with some additional pounds thrown in for good measure. 
   I remember being in second grade, my mother in her infinite wisdom, sent me to school with celery sticks and some carrots.  Well needless to say, I guess I was crying or something and my teacher felt sorry for me and bought my lunch for me.  So my first diet was at 7 years old.  Even though my mother was embarrassed by her fat little girl, and placed me on a diet at that tender age, she was also sort of like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, when I got home from school she would have goodies there for me to eat.  I never learned good eating habits and have gotten to the point that now my body goes into "starvation" modes.  No matter how little I eat, the weight continues to pile on.
   I found this site in 2008, started doing some research and found the name and location of Dr. Shin who is the bariatric surgeon I hope will be doing my surgery.  With much tredipdation, I attended the initial seminar in August of 2010.  There I learned what a process you had to go through to get insurance approval.  For my insurance, which is PEIA, I have to be on a diet for a year with monthly contacts with my general doctor.  My GP also has to write a letter of recommendation for the surgery, and I have to lose at least 10% of my body weight. 
   Now, I realize insurance companies have to set controls and checks up for procedures, but you would think that if my GP and my bariatric surgeon feel that I would benefit from this surgery that would be sufficient.  However, I will play the game the insurance company has set up and I will be the victor.
   Wow, I got off track there a little, I just have a slight problem with insurance companies making medical decisions concerning my health.  After attending the seminar with Dr. Shin, who I was highly impressed with, I realized this is what I want to do.  I always said that when my weight started keeping from doing things I wanted to do, I would do something about it.  Just didn't realize it was going to be this hard to lose the weight.  
   I want to lose the weight so I can go for long walks with my husband, and do some of the things we both used to enjoy, but since the weight has ballooned, I can't do anymore.  I am sure he will be there with every step, and pound just as he has been there through every other thing in our life.  Girls, if you can't tell I married a good one.  He is my rock, and also my cheering section and my defender.  He has loved me and I him for over 32 years, and hopefully with this surgery, we will have another 32 years to enjoy each other. 
   I have now been going to my general doctor since last September, making my monthly contact as my insurance requires.  I have also given up caffeine (for the most part), and stopped smoking.  The one crucial thing that I have been unable to obtain is the requried 10% weight loss.  I have been following weight watchers point system, and being pretty faithful, but I am unable to lose the weight.  I go for my initial consultation with Dr. Shin next week, and then I go for my psychological evaluation the following day.  Hopefully everything will start falling into place and I can have the surgery before Christmas of this year, but of course I am not getting my hopes up about that.  
   Well that is where I am at this point in my weight loss saga.  I wish you all out there that are struggling with the same saga the best of luck in your quests for a healther you, and I will continue to pursue the final goal of surgery along with the rest of you.