Emotional eating returns

Feb 01, 2013

Over the past few weeks I have been dealing with some old demons.  It started @ Christmas when I was tempted with chocolate and found that not only did I NOT dump but I did not get migraines when I ate a little chocolate.  So everyday for a period of 2 weeks, I would eat a little chocolate.  Best of all, I did not gain any weight.  I was on cloud 9.  

Then January approached and by mid January I was down to 119....I felt great and very cocky about my eating habits.  I felt I could eat anything and I would not gain weight.  I started to eat potato chips, sun chips, granola bars, cookies, crackers, rice cakes and @ work, there were jubes and jelly beans at the front desk that I would grab a few of every day.  I am now up to 120.5.  

I feel huge and my body image is suffering.  I feel out of control of my eating and the emotional eating has returned. Last night I ate a bag of rice cakes, half a bag of crackers, some ice cream and I felt ashamed of myself for the lack of control.  I hate that I have allowed myself to walk down this dangerous road again.  I hate that I do not dump when I eat something that I should not.  I am disgusted with myself that I have worked so hard to change my eating habits and I am allowing all this poison back into my healthy body.  I should know better - but the emotional eating has returned.  I risked my life for this surgery and I am throwing this gift that I was granted away.  

I love being able to go into regular stores to buy regular size clothing and I am letting food win this battle

I will WIN this battle .......today the insanity will STOP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

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Whitby,
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10/14/2011
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Aug 07, 2011
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