I must admit this journey has not been easy but with each day I'm more and more excited... I have lost a who 5 year old Lil person..what a blessing thank you God... I am enjoying my life so much... With very few medical issues... I do get fustrated wEn I really want something I can have but oh we'll all for the best... Hope all my friends journey's are going good... 

So I guess the excititng news is I am down 54lbs. And I can happily say it feels good to do things I use to could not even think of doing . However, I and suffering from some intestinal issues and I can enjoy my weight loss at all :( I have an awesome surgeon though, who is trying to work me back to wellness.... Do I have regrets?? None at all...

So Ive only lost like three lbs since surgery. I feel like this sucks... i cant eat and when i drink i hate it... i hate shakes and vitamins and ...i kinda feel like i made a mistake... i also am extremely constipated... ugh...any my fmily basically throw food in my face im miserable...never knew how much food was a factor in my life...maybe tomorrow will be better..

Omg!! I am not believe I am now four days post op.. I would not say my surgery was bad. I did wake up in a lot of pain but it was not from my stomach but my back. Walking after surgery was not hard I needed assistance only once. I was extremely thirsty out of surgery though. Not having anything after was the pits. Day two was awesome I had popsickles.. and I ce chips nothing else would seem to go down. I walk alot and the my nurse who was mazing was shocked. my only problem was that I could not pee after surgery and they would not let me go home until I did. I did pee on wednesday though they say it was an effect of the anesesia (sp).. I really enjoyed my handy dandy morephine pump.. It kept me mellow.. my mom said it made me free with the lips.. I cursed alot and I never curse.  Lafayette General was the best hospital though.. I had my own room and bathroom.. it was clean, I knew the names of my nurse, my cna, my meal delivery person, my housekeeper., the lead nurse, etc. The were timely and got me whatever I need.. for example a hot pack for my pack and extra blankets. i also had a friend on my floor from pre op education and it was cool. My mom got to interact with his family and I think it made he more understanding.. My first day at home was horrible I was nervous and missed the hospital because I could not get comfortable.. My sister was a doll.. lil my own little nurse so that was a plus but other than that I could not get anything in me.. no water popsickles not ever my meds.  The next day was better I was able to get a popsickles down. Today has been great I got in a 3 oz of a smootie from smootie king.. and I ate 2 popsicles all my meds and vitamin water, i also kinda cheated and sucked on 5 cheetos they were so good..lol.. I also had half a 42 gram protien shot. Over all the worst thing is gas attacks, this drainage thingy and my inability to bathe on my own. Other than that I am completely excited to see how much more I have lost.I dont have a scale at hone because I dont want to be obseesed with it. I can tell I am smaller though I bought some extra large men's t-shirts and they are kinda too big. :)

So I am so ecited!!! Yesterday was my pre-op appointment for my surgery date which is in 5 days and umm I lost 10.9 lbs since my  pre-op education class on 07/17/2012. I started my pre-op diet the very next day instead of on 07/23/2012 and I see my hard work is paying off. I thought it would be so much more difficult limiting carbs for a week and having none for the second week however I am not really having trouble complying and people are already starting to notice my weight loss. I also find that my feet or no sweeling as much and my blood pressure is returning to normal numbers. I did not really work out much unless you count moving, which is much more moving than I am use to. I do plan to work out tomorrow and Saturday though. I am so excited about Monday.. Although I see my life beginning again already. I also was neverous about protien shakes however I tried one this morning and it was great. I was full and had no need for breakfast. I am just oh so excited!! :)