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Surgeon TestimonialAlfonso Torquati M.D., MSciDr. Torquati is a very good surgeon. He has a heavy Italian accent, so he is sometimes hard to understand. You have to listen closely! He was very patient in answering all questions I had before surgery and the ones I have had since surgery. I had one problem and called the Duke office. They called his cell phone and he called me from the hospital. He reassured me and also told me that I could call him anytime and have him paged and he would personally talk to me (instead of a \"fellow\"). I also have his email address if I need anything. I would definately recommend him to other people. He isn't afraid to go against \"regiment\" if it is best for the patient (for example he let me start semi solid foods earlier than \"protocol\" dictated because of problems I was having.) |
I think my weight loss is bi-polar on August 27, 2008 5:19 am
Ok, here is my disclaimer: If you are bi-polar, I am in no way trying to make light of your condition.
Ok, having said that - as I stood on the scale this morning, CURSING LIKE A SAILOR, I thought - "my weight loss is bi-polar". UP and DOWN, UP and DOWN. You never know when it's going to suddenly stop, change, go UP (God forbid but it happens) or start losing again for no reason. It's like walking on egg shells. Right now, I am at 258.8. On the 16th, I was at 257.8. What the hell is that all about? I did eat out quite a bit the week after my birthday, thanks to a bunch of friends (and I enjoyed every lunch thankyouverymuch because I like being with friends). But I still don't think that's it. I'm taking vitamins, tracking food - blah blah blah. This is just one of those stalls that happens but damn - do they have to happen so often lately? I read some of my friends blogs and think - why can't I be like that? Yes, I know, this is a whine but I don't care. I just hope this stall breaks soon. I just feel like I'm on a roller coaster lately with this weight loss and all of the emotions that go with it. And I always get that nagging thing in my head - IS THIS IT? God I hope not. I look at other people who STARTED their journey where I am now and suddenly I get filled with regrets of why didn't I do that?? Why did I wait until I was 350 to start this?
Ok, enough of the pity party for today.
Now, here is my goal for this week. I will NOT STEP ON THE SCALE UNTIL MONDAY, 9/1. Do you hear me people??? Keep me accountable! I WILL NOT STEP ON THE SCALE AGAIN UNTIL MONDAY 9/1!! Let's see if I can do it.
Ok, on to more happy news. Despite the fact that I was obsessing the morning over the lack of weight loss, as I was walking across the parking lot at work, one of my co-workers drove by, rolled her window down and whistled at me!! I had to laugh at that! And then I walked in with another woman who, as soon as she saw me, said omg, you are wasting away to nothing. Now those kind of comments keep you going!!!
By the way, I have been taking my vitamins regularly now but no difference in the weight loss. I'll still take them because I need them but darn, it didn't make a difference in my stalls/losses. Oh well, it was worth a try to experiment.
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Today is my 40th Birthday! on August 18, 2008 12:36 pm
It's my 40th Birthday today!! I threw myself a birthday party this past weekend (Saturday). We had about 80 people total (including the kids). It was a blast! We rented the "Woman's Club" building in town and had it catered (bbq & chicken & all the fixings). This was the first time in a LONG TIME that I actually didn't mind having my picture taken! I have posted a few on the blog for you to see. I tried to get pictures with a lot of friends. It was so much fun. And I was 92 lbs lighter at the time of the party! I'm 93 as of today. I need to update my ticker!
I got SO MANY compliments on how I looked and on the particular outfit I had on that day. It was great. Ken said people kept coming up to him and talking about how great I looked too!
Today at work, my cubicle was decorated - but not in black, it was in pink. They told me that my personality was too cheerful for black. What a sweet thing to say! I will upload a picture of that after I finish this blog too. My hubby brought flowers by work to surprise me and then a friend sent me flowers with a sweet note. I even got a tiara today to wear - I am loving this turning 40 thing!
Life is good!
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Maybe vitamins are the key? on August 10, 2008 5:26 pm
I was reading Ang's post about taking her vitamins religiously and started thinking. Mmm. She's been doing so great with her weight loss and I keep losing and stalling. Maybe that is the key? I know it's important but I know I've been slack about taking them. I take my blood pressure and thyroid pills FAITHFULLY but for some reason I just can't seem to take the vitamins. My nut says I have to wait 2 hours after the thyroid meds to take the multi. Then 2 hours after the multi to take the FIRST calcium citrate, then 2 hours after the first one to take the second one. Then 2 hours after the 2nd one to take the 3rd (and last) one. He says I can't take them all together because they will "bind" together. And, he says I can't absorb all of the calcium citrate at one time so that's why I have to space it out. I think that's why I'm slack on the vitamins - so much work! I do ok during the work week when I'm sitting at a desk for 8 hours. The weekends are the worst.
I wonder what is worse - skipping them because of the hassle or just taking them all at once and taking my chances on them "binding"? If you're reading this, send me a message and tell me what your nut said to you about taking vitamins.
I think I should try it for 2 weeks at least - faithfully - every day - just to see if it makes a difference. Now I know I should do it every day regardless but what I'm talking about it is doing an experiment to see if this is has an effect on my "stalls"?
It's worth a shot.
Do you think it makes a difference?
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Ok, this pissed me off. My first negative comment. on August 7, 2008 6:03 am
I have a friend from work that has always been very supportive and very complimentary since the surgery. I saw him this morning. He asked if I wanted a cookie he was having and I said no, I had already eaten breakfast and wasn't hungry. He said oh, what did you have? I told him that I normally have a South Beach Cereal Bar but this morning I was in the mood for eggs so I had a Sausage Burrito from McDonalds. His comment as he laughed? "Oh, well that's the way to lose weight."
Ok, that PISSES ME OFF!
This is my first "negative" comment from anyone in 5 months. Maybe that's why I'm taking it so hard. Combined with the fact that it's coming from someone that is usually my biggest supporter.
I don't have to defend my food choices to anyone. However, his comment has left me feeling bad about myself today and in my mind I keep saying over and over - well I don't do this very often - maybe once a week I have something other than a Cereal Bar for breakfast. But then again, I haven't been happy that I'm not losing so maybe that wasn't a good choice today, it's all my fault - I am a pathetic loser who will fail with this surgery!!!
Ok, that last part was just me being a drama queen but you get the jist of what I'm saying, right? I know I am not a loser, etc but still you have those fleeting thoughts that like to creep up in your mind sometimes, don't you?
Ok, enough ranting. I'm still pissed but I'll get over it.
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5 Month Update! on August 4, 2008 8:00 pm
It's so strange to think that it's been 5 months since surgery! On one hand, it seems like it was just yesterday but then sometimes it feels like it's been 5 years!
I've almost lost 87 and I'm feeling good. My weight loss has really slowed down ALOT which concerns me a little. I feel like I can eat a lot more now and that concerns me too. I am snacking way too much and I need to cut it out.
I am happy to report that my hair loss is finally slowing! YEEHAW! I think that was bothering me more than anything. It's still falling out but not at the rate it was a month ago.
I'm still getting comments at work, which is nice, especially since they see me every day and sometimes it's hard to tell when you see someone daily. Just today someone said "Hey skinny" as I was walking down the hall. Comments like that make me smile and keep me going.
Still no problems eating and I have now tried everything - carbonation, sugar, etc etc. Nothing at all makes me sick. That is a good thing and a bad thing at the same time.
I'm still working out at the gym twice a week. I'd like for it to be more but it's just not possible. I have lost 47.5 inches since I began this journey which is amazing to me!
I posted 5 month pics! I can tell a little bit of difference from 3 months to 5 months (I got busy and didn't take 4 months). I wish I could tell more of a dramatic difference.
I read about others who have lost 100 plus lbs and continue to lose rapidly and I'm disappointed that that's not me!! I'm still shooting for 100 by the 18th of this month!!
It's the little things that amaze me on a daily basis. For example - being able to bend down in the floorboard of the car and pick up something. I was driving last week and something fell in the drivers side floorboard. Before surgery I would have had to leave it there and get out of the car to pick it up. I reached down (at a stoplight of course!) and picked it right up. I'm not as tired all of the time, I don't run out of breath, my knees don't ache every day and I'm actually even COLD sometimes! LOL!! I was ALWAYS HOT and sweating before surgery. Not anymore. Like I said, it's the little things that matter!
I still have that occasional nagging in my brain "Is this it" when the weight loss fluctuates so much. But I'm hoping to overcome that and have another jumpstart of losses. It's really up to me now to make the right choices since I can eat or drink anything I want. Oh, there is one thing I still haven't tried - alcohol. I'll try that soon. I've never been a big drinker anyway but I'm curious as to how it will affect me now.
Enjoy the pics!
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