mahofl
Merry Christmas to Me
Dec 12, 2006
I am approaching Christmas, struggling with all of the food around me. I wish that I still dumped. All that I have to do though is look in the mirror and remember how good small feels.
I am going to try and concentrate on friendships this coming year. I have spent so much of my life trying to be a friend, but I end up being very co-dependent and hurt because I set myself up to have people disappoint me. I have got to get past all of that. I am worthwhile and deserve to have people in my life that give as well as take. I am not talking about material things, but emotions. I will plan to do something with someone, and when it falls through I react like a kindergartiner, mad because my feelings are hurt. I've got to get rid of the baby side of my personality.
On the plus side. I comfortably wear a size 14, will probably be a twelve when this stomach stuff gets done. Life with my husband is much better. He loves to pat my butt now.
I am going to try and concentrate on friendships this coming year. I have spent so much of my life trying to be a friend, but I end up being very co-dependent and hurt because I set myself up to have people disappoint me. I have got to get past all of that. I am worthwhile and deserve to have people in my life that give as well as take. I am not talking about material things, but emotions. I will plan to do something with someone, and when it falls through I react like a kindergartiner, mad because my feelings are hurt. I've got to get rid of the baby side of my personality.
On the plus side. I comfortably wear a size 14, will probably be a twelve when this stomach stuff gets done. Life with my husband is much better. He loves to pat my butt now.
