majestikbutterfly
Worst summer ever!!
Oct 22, 2014
Shortly after I posted my last entry, I lost my job!!! What that meant was I would not be having the surgery.
I deeply sobbed and wept and mourned not just because I lost my job, but because I came sooooo close and worked soooo hard to prepare my body and lifestyle for this surgery again.
Then my knee started giving me problems. It basically caused me to constantly limp and quit working out. I maintained my weight over the summer, but in the past month, I gained 15 lbs back. I was able to get another job, but no benefits and no bennies on the horizon either, so that 6 months of prepping all went down the drain!
I am more tired every day, I ache more, I hurt more, I am internally miserable. I feel trapped with my life, I just want to run away but where. This will follow me everywhere. I felt like I am slowly dying and no way to survive.
Then a friend of mine asked me, challenged me, to join this contest at my gym called Extreme Weight Loss Challenge. I didn't even think too hard about it, I just did it and signed up.
Ok, so I am hitting the gym again, I remember the things I use to do and avoid using my knee on doctors orders. I feel like I can do this and I feel like I could actually win!!! (probably wont, but I feel like I could!)
We shall see.......
