Well someone asked if I had any before pics so I emailed my sister to send me one of my most hated pics of me at 327lbs after doing a day of yard work over at my parents house ( yeaaaa) and then watching 5 kids all under the age of 6 that day............oh yea and breaking up a few spontaneous power ranger fights and pirate of the carribean moments between a 4 and 5 year old set of boys ( they are SOOO  much different from girls LOL)

Im going with my angel Ruth to Jacksonville to a support group meeting tomorrow so i am super excited.  We will take some pics together and put them up on here too :)

Later Tater's 
Margo Marie

Well I took Ambien CR for about a week because I NEVER get enough sleep.  You would think that wouldnt be a problem raising 3 kids alone all under the age of 7 and working full time, doing volunteer work and helping my parents who live right down the road from me ............. but I lay in bed and my mind would still be up and running.........." Did I do this?" " Did I do that?" ect. ect.
Well evidently I was doing things while on the Ambien that I was not even aware of which is very very scary.   I have had phone calls with people I care about and been really loopy with some.   I said something really out of my character and caused someone I love alot of pain.......  I dont know how to rectify it because I dont know what I said.   I finally just apoliged by telling him via phone, email and sending him flowers to his job that I truly would NEVER cause him any hurt or pain and that whatever I said It was not from my heart or mind.... he has no intentions of telling me what I said but it still hurts me just the same.  I asked for forgiveness and he said he does and its behind us now so I am leaving it at that.
Another weird thing is well I found out why I gained 5 lbs that week...........evidently I was getting up and eating alot of toast during the night.  I was actually toasting it, buttering it and slathering it with grape jelly and eating it all while not being aware of a darn thing b/c of the  Ambien CR.    In hind sight well NOW I know why my tummy been hurting so badly in the mornings *sigh*
Well I am not on the pills anymore and not going to find a new one I am going to give it my best shot at battling it out with a more natural route.  I weighed myself today and I am now down the 5lb gain and I am at 190 I have 30 pounds to go to reach my surgeons goal for me and I really hope to hit that mark before my one year surgiversary on October 11, 2007.

Well thats it for now before I get busted bloggin at work LOL.

Thanks for checking out me lil' slice of the net :)
Hugs
Margo Marie