First things first! Today is Troy's Birthday!
Thank you my wonderful husband for being there for me and supporting me through all of this. I love you!
Now, onto the other stuff...
Want to know how I feel about my scale?
I WISH I could shun my scale. A lot of people think that you should put the scale away when it isn't moving, but I think that is a mistake. Oh, and it didn't move, by the way. Still sitting at 209.5. At least it didn't move in the wrong direction. But, anyway, the reason I think it is a mistake to put the scale away if it is pissing you off, like mine is now, is because it gets you into trouble. Your clothes still fit and you still look great and so you don't get on the scale for a month and then, when you do, BLAMMO - you could be up 5 or 6 pounds. Personally, I want to know what the number on the scale is every day. I know about water weight and how it affects the scale. I know about stress and how it affects weight loss. I know I am not eating an extra 3,500 calories in a day so if it fluctuates up a pound I know it isn't fat. And even though I still get pissed that the number on the scale just isn't moving because of all these things, it is still a much better number than it was a year ago. Much, much better. I think NOT having a scale in the house for the last 10 years is why I got so fat in the first place. That is why I will always, forever more, step on that scale every single morning and face whatever the number is. That way I know I will never go back to where I was.
So, I went back to the personal trainer. Hooray! And I HURT today! Boo! But it is all good. I think it will help to elevate the stress I am under and maybe get the scale moving again.
I am under a lot of stress right now. I am not sure about this real estate thing and I hate that I am doubting myself. The open house on Saturday sucked. Not one person came. The open house on Sunday was a little better, but only one person who came through was not working with a Realtor and, although she gave me her info to send her properties, she has a lease on a house until this spring and won't be buying anything till then. *Le Sigh* Plus, I hate not having group health insurance and having to send a check to COBRA my benefits for $688.00 every month. I have a friend who is working for The Hilton selling timeshare. I sent him my resume. The only thing is that it is phone work. And I like being out and about and talking to people face to face now that I am not fat anymore. But the hours are 12:00 - 6"00 Monday - Friday and there is health insurance, a minimum wage salary, and the opportunity to make big commissions. According to my friend the average income is 80-90K / year. So, I will check it out. My personal trainer sells timeshare face to face for Wyndham Resorts and they might be hiring out by Disney. I am also going to check that out. Maybe I am the kind of person who is better off going to a job and then not thinking about it when they are not there. I dunno. I do know that I worked 8 hours on Saturday and 8 hours on Sunday this past weekend and didn't get much from it. I am very social - I always have been , just more so now - and I like to have my free time. This whole real estate agent thing does not seem to allow for much free time. Anyhow, I am rambling on. I will let you know what happens.
I see Dr. Kim tomorrow for my year check-up. I know, it has really been 12 months - but the trip to Africa and his moving to new offices pushed back the time. I really wish I was going in there under 200 pounds for that visit. Oh well.