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Surgeon TestimonialAndrew Duffy, M.D.Dr. Andrew Duffy is the best!!! He is with Yale University Bariatric Surgeons - a center for excellence and he is in with Dr. Robert Bell. I went to the seminar on 12/8/06 and listened attentively to all they had so say. Needless to say when Dr. Duffy presented I just knew that this is the guy I was looking for to do my surgery - he knew his stuff and he was kind and sensitive to my questions. I was getting frustrated because I could not get an appointment for my psych eval prior to 1/07 and he was kind enough to give me the name of Mark Gaynor, LCSW and I got an appointment right away. My paperwork was all complete and in Dr. Duffy's office by 1/2/07. Since I did not get a call with an appointment by 1/3/07, the very next day, I decided to e-mail Dr. Duffy on our Groupwise system that we use at Yale and I said \"I am hoping God places it in your heart to read this e-mail - I need a date!!!\" and he read it - I got a call with a date four days after. I feel confident and I know that I made the right decision. The staff is great, Jane, his nurse manager was great - she had R&Y a couple years ago and looks great and she used to work as an OR nurse where I work which is part of Yale too. Member Interests
- Artist/Muralist - I paint the most beautiful stills and christian art in acrylics on canvas
- Basketry - I love making beautiful dolls and gift baskets that are unique
- Hispanic/Latino - I was born in Panama, Republic of Panama came to US at age 24.
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Breaking Chains on November 30, 2007 4:32 am
Yup, breaking away from all the mess that tormented me in the past - overcame that last one and today again I wear a necklace - and unless I forget to put one on I will be wearing a necklace. Free of that last bondage I thank God and I count my blessings. This is me today - I do not see much difference these days but the fact that my small clothes are now getting a bit loose especially my pants and I am loving it. I will be 10 months out next week and from my highest weight I have lost over 155 lbs. I am healthy and I am free. I will walk in my promise. God bless you reading my post today.
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Thankful to special friends - showing my Mojo.... on November 29, 2007 5:05 am
Sometimes when I feel troubled or a bit weak I set up that vertical communication real quick and He hears me. Day before yesterday I got this beautiful package in the mail, a dainty necklace with a charm locket sent to me all the way from Texas by none other that my beautiful OH friend Yvonne McCarthy (Silverkatt). I stood there like a fool admiring the beautiful necklace that I won't wear because of the ghosts of my past history of abuse - of being strangled of being unable to put anything around my neck without feeling that I am being choked. Well yesterday I sat at my desk and prayed to get rid of this yoke once and for all - next thing I check my email and there is a beautiful message from another beautiful OH friend Heidi - sending me positive vibes and telling me about her mother's diamond that she had made into a necklace that she now wears all the time - encouraging me - this beautiful lady that rocks told me that I rock (lol) and as I read those words I decided to break this yoke once and for all - to go home and face this last scar of my past to put on my necklace and to wear it because no man had the right to put his hands around my neck to choke me and no man deserves me to hold this horrible event in remembrance in my mind for soooooooo many years - yes the yoke is broken - I put the charm on my necklace, put my necklace on, slept in my necklace, have my necklace on this morning and it is not heavy and it is not bothering me and I overcame this one obstacle with a prayer and a press and a beautiful gift and an encouraging word from my O.H. angels. Thank you Yvonne, thank you Heidi, thank you Cybedonna and Valerie, thank you P. J. Wilsen and all of you (the list is long and you know who you are) whose wonderful support and encouragement have helped me on this my lifetime journey - I love you all and when I count my blessings I thank God for you. Here I am today - one week away from my 10 month surgiversary - with a normal BMI - a few lbs. short of my personal goal and showing my mojo (my big jelly belly all scarred up and wrinkled up for the world to see). Yup, my mojo, all centered in my belly - my jelly belly full of wrinkled skin, stretch marks and scars - but I am not freaking out over it - it shows the battle of a lifetime and until I can fix it - that jelly belly is mine (lol). I am grateful, I am not boastful - I had five co-morbidities and today I have none, I have learned to eat to live and not live to eat, I have learned portion control, moderation and healthy choices, I have learned to love me for me and for all of it I am grateful. I work hard at it and it works for me! Okay this is me today, please do not get offended by my mojo - I posted before about my big jelly belly so here it is - no spanxs, no assets, no bindings - all in all after losing all that weight I don't think it is all that bad - of course it is not a great sight for sore eyes but hey....I have a big jelly belly after loosing way over 100 lbs - in less than ten months.
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THE BEST THING TO SAY on November 28, 2007 4:02 am
Just posting me today and thanking God for all the wonderful things He has done for me. Everyday I look at myself and it is a wonder how I look and feel or feel and look compared to over nine months ago. I don't have much to say today so I will say the best thing GOD BLESS YOU my dear friend - embrace your tool and make it work for you!
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Will it ever go away??? on November 27, 2007 5:13 pm
I am going to work it off! I am going to work it off! I am going to work it off! I am going to work it off! I am going to work it off! I am going to work it off! I am going to work it off! I am going to work it off! I am going to work it off! I am going to work it off! BUT HOW LONG IS IT GOING TO TAAAAAAAAKEEEEEEEE?????? I have been working out like crazy - almost scared my son to death standing in the hallway contorting my face doing the facial exercises I was taught at my psyche eval - so I won't have a turkey neck and I don't - soooooooo - I do pull ups, push ups, situps, hot yoga, yoga, kick boxing, treadmill, weights and jog 3.5 miles so why? why? why? the two Big B's - the belly and the butt - that is where all the remaining weight lies and I soooooooooo want it to go away!!!!! Okay phew! that feels better - so I will try again tomorrow. Here is me - the past three days - in junior size smalls - yup - an old fart like me - turning 50 in 2.5 weeks in junior small clothes, healthy and FREE!!!! When I pull up in my car I have these young men running over each other trying to get the door for me - depending on my mood I think 'where on earth were they 9.5 months ago when I really needed the help' or I would think - 'do these fools know that I have a 24 year old son??' It is soooo funny and I am enjoying all of it and most of all I am remaining focussed on my plan and in my faith thanking God for all He has done for me... OKAY here goes my November and hopefully by the New Year I would fulfill my resolution of getting rid of all the mojo in the front and in the back (lol)
Focussing on losing on November 26, 2007 4:17 am
Yup, working out the belly and the derriere and the legs - it seems there is where the remaining weight rests - so I continue to work it. Just stopping by to capture me today and to say God Bless to all my O.H. family readin my post. This is me today....
AT WORK TODAY - HAPPY AND RESTED on November 23, 2007 4:17 am
After a blissful day with family and friends I am fully restored and rested. My choices were correct - my intake was within my plan -I did not cheat and I did not crave - I sat at a table with a wonderful meal and enjoyed my company 100% while I ate less than the 2 oz of turkey and spoonful of greens that were on my plate - it was delicious but it filled me up quick - so I put my fork down and enjoyed the wonderful conversation. Last Thanksgiving I ate myself into a stupor - what a difference a pouch make. I love my lifestyle and I love making healthy choices. I love portion control and I love eating like a lady. I am blessed! This is me at work today - happy and rested!
HAPPY THANKSGIVING! I AM GRATEFUL! on November 22, 2007 1:03 pm
Spent with my family and my husband cooking all night I had the most wonderful time. My children's friends came over, Al served a banquet fit for a king - I just had a sliver of the Turkey which he stuffed with shrimp, chicken and duck - I had less than 2 oz on my plate and a bit of greens - I got sooooooo full after just a few bites and that was enough for me. Totally satisfied I enjoyed the company of my loved ones and I thanked God repeatedly for all my blessings.
TOOOOO BLESSED TO BE STRESSED AND... on November 21, 2007 4:13 am
I will not let the past dictate my present - so why can't I wear a necklace? Just when I think I am doing fine here come the little demons of the past to try to torment me - it all started with me trying to put a necklace on - been trying for years and still cannot do it without the horrible sensation of being choked or strangled - yes the demons of my past. My mind would travel to those dark places of the past of abuse and strangulation and much worse things, of my teeth being punched out of my head, of my hair being pulled out of my scalp of hands around my neck squeezing the air out of me. It happened again this morning. It happened last week when for a brief moment I wore a black turtle neck sweater that my DH of today snapped my pics in. This morning I tried to put on a necklace, again and again I fail in the attempt - a simple task it may seem. I want to wear one and still can't. I have the most beautiful accessories but there is never anything around my neck, not even a scarf. Immediately the past closed in on me and I felt dangerously tormented. I had to call on His Name and I had to call hard! I thank God for His grace, mercy and favor - I cast them all out in His name. I felt restored and reassured in the knowledge that He will fight all my battles before me and that all my high places He will bring down. I looked around at my beautiful home, my wonderful husband and my precious children and realized that my fire of yesterday made me so much stronger to live in today. I will not let my past dictate my present - I am blessed! too blessed to be stressed with the devil's mess!!! and I thank Him today. I still did not wear my necklace - but I will one day - I will conquer that one last one. God bless you reading my post! This is me today two pics - could not decide what to wear (lol).
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Thankful for the big things and the little things.... on November 20, 2007 5:36 am
He has done great things for me... I am grateful... for all the wonderful things that God has worked out in my life. I thank Him for my sunshine and I thank him for my rain - I was made in the fire and I am blessed. I thank Him for my wonderful family, my job, my home, my friends, my church and for you here on O.H.. I thank Him for seeing another day. I thank Him for health, strength and mobility. In looking over the past nine months I have come from a mighty long way and in the process have had some very daring moments. I will certainly list all of them but it is now busy here so I just want to share with you... Praise the Lord always.. in the good times and in the bad times... even if you don't see Him He is there with you!
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WE GOT WHIPPED!!!!!!!!! on November 17, 2007 4:09 pm
9 MONTHS AGO I WOULD HAVE STAYED HOME - I NEVER EVER WENT TO ONE OF THESE - BUT TODAY I WENT TO YALE BOWL - WALKED ALL THE WAY THERE WITH MY SON AND ALTHOUGH WE GOT WHUPPED BY HARVARD (WE ARE 100% YALIES) I had sooooooooooooooo much fun . It is a wonder everyday how much fun I had missed out on in the past. I did not even know that there is a nature path right behind our house in our neighborhood and if you walk it for a few miles or so it brings you right to the Derby Avenue area right where Yale Bowl is. There is a lake, a pond - beautiful woods and a wonderful nature path. My son invited me to the game of Yale vs. Harvard. Of course we are Yalies - so here we go we walk the long trek to there - our team got whupped - we left when the score was 27-0 (boo-hoo) and walked back home - below in my collage there are a couple pics my son took of me in the Yale Bowl area. My son opened up to me on our walk and told me for the first time ever that he loves to be seen with his trophy mom now - he said that although he loves me sooooooo much always (he is a mommas boy) that he used to be embarrased to be out with me and around his friends. And you know what? it did not even hurt, it just opened up my eyes to what I had been doing to my family with my destructive eating habits. He then said 'mom, although I was sooooooo afraid of you having the surgery I am soooooooo happy you did it for you and for us'. Then of course the fashion show for my DH (it is becoming a ritual (lol) a fun one for both of us) - he just loves it when I put on my 'short' skirts that he loves and I hate (not true I am liking them now) (lol) - now you'll think an old fart like me is just toooo old for this - but I got away with it and am loving it. To think 9 months ago I was squeezing in to 3-4X - check me out today - I just love my pouch!!! I work it and it works for me. I asked for quality of life and mobility and I got a whole bundle of happiness. I have yet to use one of these short skirts out of the house (lol). God bless you reading my post today.
THE NEXT SHOT KENNY TOOK OF ME WITH HIS CELL WALKING SOMEWHERE IN THE YALE BOWL AREA STANDING IN FRONT OF THE BULLDOG.
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WAS DAT ME????????????? on November 16, 2007 2:35 am
I have to look at myself everyday before and after and I can't help but wonder how/why and when I did that to myself -- but that was yesterday, today is today and I am sooooooooo grateful for a rebirth, for life, health and mobility. Anytime I look at my fat girl I have to apologize for the abuse I inflicted upon her with my uncontrollable eating of all the wrong things. I made her sick and I almost killed her but today I thank her for taking charge and getting a tool to help her help herself - her deliverance is my release! I don't hate her I thank her because she resides in me reminding me where I do not want to return to and she pushes me towards my goal. Yes sir, I am sooooooooooo much closer to my personal goal of 115 lbs and I know I can get there, will get there and still have a normal BMI. So gym, Bikram, yoga, treadmill, track, weights - here I come in full force (lol). God bless you reading my blog today. | Leave a comment.
BEFORE YOU on November 15, 2007 4:12 am
Inspirational thought of the day (I am NOT the author)
BEFORE YOU...
Before you speak, listen,
Before you write, think,
Before you spend, earn
Before you criticize, wait
Before you pray, forgive
Before you quit, try
Yesterday is gone - but I have today and today I am so much stronger because of the tears I shed yesterday. In October of 2006 I weighed 285 lbs. In December of 2006 I weighed 273 lbs. On February 5, 2007 the day of my gastric bypass surgery I weighed 241 lbs. Today I weigh much less than half of my highest weight of 285 lbs. I am free of all obesity related illnesses and I have a NORMAL BMI!!! The tears I shed yesterday have made my today so much better!!!!
This is me today - slipping out of my small stuff - my size small belt is on the last hole and it is loose (I am loving it!). That fat girl lives on in my mind pushing me towards my personal goal (115 lbs - can't wait to get there) - her deliverance is my release!!!! Today I am healthy (I beat 5 co-morbidities) and I am free!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Food no longer controls me - it is just one of life's basic necessities - I do NOT dwell on it - I do NOT think about it - my life is NOT centered around it - I now make the best choices in the correct portion and I stick with that - if it is not on my plan I pass - I work my pouch and it works for me - I chew like a lady, I don't hoard food and I do not stuff my face 24-7 like I did in the past. I am content and I am satisfied. I crave for nothing I should not have. I EAT TO LIVE AND NO LONGER LIVE TO EAT!!!! I LOVE YOU ALL MY DEAR O.H. FAMILY - YOU ARE MY INSPIRATION AND ENCOURAGEMENT!
THIS IS ME NAKED! YIKEEEEEEESSSSSSSSS!!! on November 14, 2007 10:02 am
MY BELLY LOOKS LIKE THAT - YES IT DOES - EVEN WITH THE SLOT - ON MY BELLY THE SLOT IS WHERE THE GASTROSTOMY SCAR IS YIKES - I DID NOT SAG NOR HANG TOOO MUCH OR SO I THOUGHT UNTIL THE LAST LEG AND MY BELLY HAS MORE WRINKLES THAN A PUG YUK!!!
MY BELLY LOOKS JUST LIKE MY PIGGY BANK AFTER BUYING GAS YESTERDAY!!!
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JUST SAIL on November 14, 2007 5:19 am
Yesterday someone forwarded me the letter of The Man in the Other Bed and I shared it with you - it is the next post - today my friend who is a Cardiologist in Brazil sent me this and I am sharing it too along with my pic of the day. WE ARE SAILORS - JUST SAIL!!
THIS IS ME TODAY - I WISH UNDER THE CLOTHES LOOKED AS GOOD AS WITH THE CLOTHES (LOL) THE MORE I LOSE THE MORE IT LOOKS LIKE A MACK TRUCK RAN OVER MY BODY - BUT HEY - I AM SAILING!!!!
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THE MAN IN THE OTHER BED on November 13, 2007 4:19 am
Do you feel love today, either for me or for you? Read to the end and holla back at me! Powerful message follows - proceed at your own risk!
The Man in the Other Bed
Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room. One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs. His bed was next to the room ' s only window. The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.
The men talked for hours on end. They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation. Every afternoon, when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.
The man in the other bed began to live for those one hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside.
The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake. Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance. As the man by the window described all this in exquisite details, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine this picturesque scene.
One warm afternoon, the man by the window described a parade passing by. Although the other man could not hear the band, he could see it in his mind ' s eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words.
Days, weeks and months passed. One morning, the day
nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep. She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away. As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone. Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside. He strained to slowly turn to look out the window besides the bed.
It faced a blank wall. The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this window.
The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall. She said, "Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you."
Epilogue:
There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations. If you want to feel rich, just count all the things you have that money can ' t buy. "Today is a gift, that is why it is called The Present ."
The origin of this letter is unknown, you can share it with friends to whom you wish blessings or you can reach out today and make someone happy. I WISH YOU LOVE AND HAPPINESS TODAY AND WHEN I COUNT MY BLESSINGS YOU MY DEAR OH FRIENDS ARE AMONG THEM - DO YOU LOVE ME TODAY????? DO YOU LOVE YOU TODAY???? I AWAIT YOUR RESPONSE! This is me today so close to my big birthday next month and still shrinking - I am on the ride of a lifetime and loving it! MY TOOL IS MY ROLLS ROYCE AND I GET TO DRIVE IT - I WORK IT AND IT WORKS FOR ME!!!! I LOVE YOU MY DEAR FRIEND AND I WISH YOU BLESSINGS AND GREAT SUCCESS ON YOUR JOURNEY!!
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THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH MY EYES on November 12, 2007 4:27 am
For some reason my eyes fade out of my pictures and it seems that there is something wrong with them but there is not - I have big goggle eyes and they are green like my son's and my mom's - I am as blind as a bat - I am sooooo nearsighted I wear contacts and the doctor has adjusted them for both close and distance thank God - that way I don't have to wear reading glasses - vain, vain, vain. Anyway I was fussing about how they look in my pics so Al took a close up so here I am sharing my November collage. I had a horrible weekend because I allowed people's behavior to get to me - you can read it further down - but today I picked myself up and chalked it up as just another experience. God Bless you reading my post.
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THE SCALED MOVED!!!!!!!!! BLESSED IN... on November 11, 2007 5:18 pm
I THOUGHT I WOULD NEVER USE THIS DRESS IN A COLLAGE OR EVEN EVER WEAR IT AFTER THE DISTRESSFUL EVENT SURRONDING ITS PURCHASE - DETAILS IN NEXT BLOG OR I MAY HAVE PMd YOU - BUT AFTER SPENDING A WEEPING NIGHT I AM AGAIN AN OVERCOMER AND THE SCALE MOVED BRINGING ME SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH CLOSER TO MY PERSONAL GOAL - OKAY THIS IS MY SECOND POST I WROTE BEFORE SO I AM JUST POSTING MY COLLAGE - CAME A LONG LONG WAY!!! FROM SIZE 28-30 TO XSML AND SMALL WHO MEEEEEEEEEEE????????? YES, I AM BAD (Blessed and Delivered)!
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OVERCOMING ANOTHER OBSTACLE on November 11, 2007 4:41 pm
Thank you soooooooo very much for your kind words - I was soooooooo down and you picked me up. I cannot believe I allowed myself to cry through the night - more that pissed I was hurt - hurt that so many of us have experienced such similar but different situations - I am relating to all the PMs I received and all the stories of abuse in marriages, of mockery to kids and grandkids of us being the object of mockery. I know I am made of better stock and I know I am strong. However I allowed these idiots to upset me - I gave them the power to do so. As I looked in the mirror this morning there was puffiness and redness and my green eyes that are so complimented were pooled with tears - I must have been vulnerable to allow myself to be still so upset. So I decided to speak life into my situation I stared at myself in the mirror crying like an idiot and shouted in my mind 'GET A GRIP SISTA, TAKE A LITTLE BIT OF THIS AND A LITTLE BIT OF THAT, BEFORE ISAAC DIES GOD WILL PROVIDE, DON'T CURSE YOUR FIRE THERE IS VICTORY IN THE VALLEY, YOU ARE MORE THAN A SURVIVOR YOU ARE AN OVERCOMER, THE GOD THAT YOU SERVE WILL FIGHT ALL YOUR BATTLES BEFORE YOU AND ALL THE HIGH PLACES HE WILL BRING THEM DOWN - GET A GRIP SISTA YOU CAN WALK THROUGH THE VALLEY WITH A PROMISED LAND VISION - TEARS MAY ENDURE THE NIGHT BUT JOY COMETH IN THE MORNING' Yes, I am a survivor and an overcomer and I am going to pray for those two who I allowed to disturb my night - because last night I relived my fire but my tears endured the night but today Joy is my life because it is my strength. I went to church and actually prayed for those two foolish women who were so cruel to a total stranger. I spent a leisure afternoon a home - did not finish sewing my friends wedding gown as I was not in the mood. Instead I painted a canvas of my daughter who was in Dallas week before last nad took this picture sitting atop a bull. Then I played around with bright colors to wear to pick up my moods - the size small sweaters were really too roomy and big so I was playing around with belts and shoes and of course Al started snapping away - so I am copying the dumbest one of all the pics. I have also copied that post of yesterday's incident in case you did not read it you can see what this topic is about. It is after the pics of my daughter and of me.
Repost from yesterday's horrible experience: Unbelievable - that in this century an adult would look at what appears to be a handicapped man and laugh - how pathetic - well it happened to us today - yes - my husband took me to my most favorite little boutique in the whole wide world and he is soooooooo exited and showing me all these things he thinks I am just going to love. He is just like that - the kindest man in the whole wide world - a man whose both kidneys shut down eight years ago - he had to give up his own business and has been disabled since - all his toes have been amputated - he has had several tram flaps was on dialysis for eight years before receiving a kidney transplant just a short few years ago - yes he is my second husband not the father of my children but the only father they have had for years - if you ask him they are his, if you ask them he is their dad - tell me why these women would stare at his orthotic shoes and start snickering, pointing and laughing - loud too - Al is so very sensitive about his special shoes - I am so sensitive where he is concerned - people and their behaviors usually don't faze me but on this occasion it was just too rude - they weren't kids, they weren't teens they were full grown adults and I had to pray my strength in the Lord cause I was about to lose my morals - I started to say something but just as I opened my mouth the store manager who knows me well had taken notice and they were asked to leave. My Al never took notice - it was done and over and he was still trying to get me to look at this or that that would look so nice on me or try that one on see if you could fit it. By this time I had the lump from hell in my throat, I wanted to cry but instead I prayed - I ruined my whole outing but I did not want Al to feel bad - so I took the dress he was showing me I did not even like it, I was soooooo ticked off I was not liking anything right about then - it was a short dress with a jacket in a size 0/S on the label he could not wait to snap my pic when we got back home I kept smiling for him, he is my rock, he is my friend a good man, I also got a beautiful coat and a black and white short jacket that I will wear to church tomorrow - he got me the beautiful handbag also. All I wanted to do was to leave and get back home. How dare people be so rude so mean and so inconsiderate - they better watch it - they just don't know we are related to the man upstairs - we are royalty because our Father is the King. We are B.A.D (Blessed And Delivered). While he lay on his death bed at the very last minute when we thought all was lost and he had received his last rites he was the recipient of a kidney transplant an organ that was transported to Yale all the way from Kentucky at 2 am one morning - I remember hanging on to my last shred of faith and today he is very much alive and well - special shoes and all. He bought his mom her first house when he was 23, on the month anniversary after our meeting he presented me with a brand new car when my ex had driven off with mine and all my possesions, he bought our houses he buys me diamonds after so many years of marriage he still calls me his bride - after the abuse I suffered in my first marriage I have a solid sound relationship with my husband. He loved me all the way up to 285 lbs and five co-morbidities all the way down to my current weight and more to lose - He loved me at sizes 28-30 and he loves me now in sized 0-2-and 4. He is not handicapped he is BAD - Blessed and Delivered!!! and I thank God for Him - sorry for venting - I had to get it off my chest. This is me in that short dress he liked it is a short sleevess dress with a jacket over it - too short for my taste but I will wear it because their laughter and mockery made me realize once again and more than ever just how BAD (Blessed and Delivered) we are - both he and I and you too reading this. Yes, we are B.A.D. (Blessed And Delivered). I can't believe I let myself get upset with the laughter of fools.
LOVE on November 9, 2007 4:18 am
Sending ooodles of Love and positive energy to all reading my post - not much to say today just that I am forever thankful for all of you for your Love, for your support and for your encouragement - when I count my blessings you are among them - you make my journey each day so much easier and yes we are keepers one of another. I am blessed by your wow moments, your rants, your problems your ventings and your encouragement - with it all I grow. So if you ask me today what is Love? I would say having a lovely cyberfamily here on O.H. among all the wonderful blessings I have in my life. Just remember like me you are B.A.D. (Blessed And Delivered) - LOVE YOU - LOVE YOU - LOVE YOU. Okay here is me today, 9 months out - wearing XSml - Size 0, Size 2 and still some Size 4 (jeans) dressed down and looking like something the cat dragged in (lol) but hey it is Friday - another week done and another day that the Lord has blessed me to see - we are blessed indeed!!!! My plans for the weekend are to finish sewing my friends wedding gown - yes, besides painting I am an excellent (I would say outstanding) seamstress like my mom was - I just do it for fun and I have all the high tech machines and sergers to do it with (lol) - just do not ask me how I managed to do all those things before and stuff my face at the same time but I did thank God for deliverance!!!! Thank God for the fat girl image living on in my mind pushing me towards my goal - her deliverance is my release!
IT IS DRESS DOWN FRIDAY SO HERE I AM LOOKING LIKE SOMETHING THE CAT DRAGGED IN BUT HAPPY AS A LARK AND FOREVER THANKFUL (LOL)!!!! COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS FOR WE ARE B.A.D. - BLESSED AND DELIVERED!!!!
I AM B.A.D. (BLESSED AND DELIVERED) on November 8, 2007 4:17 am
Yes I am BAD (Blessed and Delivered) IF YOU EVER KNEW HOW FAR I HAVE COME - THE WHOLE STORY HAS YET TO BE TOLD - suffice it to say that I am a survivor. I have been through heartache and pain, sickness, hurt and loss and I made it - I survived my fire. Just to think three years ago my husband was given his last rites and today he is alive and well with the kidney of a 15 year old angel in his body I AM BLESSED. Just to think over 9 months ago food was my god and today it no longer controls me I AM BLESSED. Just to think I had five co-morbidities and today I have none I AM BLESSED. Just to think my little pouch provided me with a tool to live a better, healthier and longer life I AM BLESSED. The saying holds true "Worry looks around, Sorry looks back, Faith looks up." Yes my friends I am B.A.D. (Blessed and Delivered) - don't curse your fire - there is victory in the valley. When I count my blessings I thank God for my beautiful OH family. Make the best of your tool and remember, like me you are BAD (Blessed and delivered).
I CAN BREATHE!!! on November 7, 2007 3:52 am
I CAN FINALLY BREATHE - IT WAS AWFUL THESE PAST FEW DAYS WITH THIS HORRENDOUS COLD - I STILL HAVE THE HORRIBLE POST NASAL DRIP AND WHAT I HAVE LABELED THE EVERLASTING SNOT (GROSS) SO I HAVE BEEN LIVING OFF LIQUIDS AND PROTEIN SHAKES - I FIGURED OUT A WAY TO ADD THE PROTEIN SHAKE TO THE WALMART CRANBERRY/APPLE SF POWDERED DRINK THAT I LIKE BETTER THAN CRYSTAL LITE - IT WENT DOWN BETTER ESPECIALLY IF I MADE MY MIND BLANK TO THE FACT THAT THERE WAS PROTEIN IN IT - SOMETIMES NO MATTER HOW I TRY I THE PROTEIN GROSSES ME OUT ALTHOUGH I FAITHFULLY HAVE ONE OR TWO SCOOPS OF IT EVERY DAY - GOT TO GET THAT PROTEIN IN. I HAD A GOOD DAY AT WORK YESTERDAY BUT WAS SOOOOOO EXHAUSTED AT THE END OF THE DAY AND WENT HOME AND COLLAPSED INTO BED - I DRAGGED MYSELF OUT OF BED A FEW HOURS LATER AND PURPOSED MYSELF TO WALK/RUN ON THE TREADMILL FOR AN HOUR - I DID MY 3.5 MILES AND I FELT BETTER - SO MUCH BETTER. WENT IN THE HOT TUB WITH AROMATHERAPY FELT VERY RELAXED AND GOT A BIT DECONGESTED. WHEN I WENT TO BED I SLEPT FOR A WHILE THEN AROUND 11:30 PM I GOT A CALL FROM MY EX AND WE SPOKE ABOUT ISSUES REGARDING MY SON AND OF ALL THE FAMILY MEMBERS ON HIS SIDE WHO I HAD BEEN CLOSE TO AT ONE POINT AND WHO HAD PASSED ON - THERE WAS A 20 YEAR GAP IN OUR CONVERSATION EXCEPT FOR THE BRIEF EXCHANGE WE HAD WHEN WE WENT TO NORTH CAROLINA. I THEN WENT TO SLEEP AND WOKE UP THIS MORNING TOTALLY ABLE TO BREATHE, MY AIRWAYS ARE FREE AND YOU KNOW I HAD TO SHOUT OUT A BIG THANK YOU TO THE LORD - NOT BEEN ABLE TO BREATHE HAD ME LIKE A ROYAL GROUCH AND A SICK PUPPY ALL WEEK. I DID NOT FEEL LIKE GETTING DRESSED AND IT IS SO COLD THAT I JUST HAULED ON A JUNIORS SMALL SWEATER AND A SIZE 3-4 PANTS - AND GUESS WHAT - I JUST USED A REGULAR PANTYHOSE - SINCE FRIDAY I HAVE NOT USED MY HANES CAPRI OR BODY SMOOTHER AND I FELT FREE, UNCOMPRESSED AND I WAS NOT LUMPY OR BUMPY (yay). OKAY, I AM RAMBLING ON BECAUSE THERE IS NOT MUCH REALLY TO SAY EXCEPT THAT I AM FOREVER GRATEFUL AND THANKFUL TO GOD FOR ALL THE WONDERFUL THINGS HE HAS WORKED OUT IN MY LIFE, AND FOR PROVIDING ME WITH THIS LIFE SAVING TOOL THAT I WILL CHERISH AND TAKE CARE OF FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. GOD BLESS YOU READING MY POST.
HERE IS ME TODAY.....
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PRESSING MY WAY on November 6, 2007 4:14 am
I HAVE THE PHLEGM FROM HELL STUCK IN MY THROAT, I CAN'T BREATH BECAUSE I AM SOOOOOOOOOO CONGESTED OTHERS HERE WHO HAVE GOTTEN THIS HORRIBLE COLD HAVE BEEN BATTLING WITH IT FOR THE PAST THREE WEEKS AND I HOPE I DON'T FALL INTO THAT CATEGORY - MY THROAT CANNOT HANDLE THE POST NASAL DRIP AND I AM BARFING ALL OVER THE PLACE - GROSSING MY OWN SELF OUT. I CAME TO WORK - DRAGGED MYSELF IN LIKE A SICK PUPPY BECAUSE I AM NO LONGER INFECTIOUS ANYWAY I WILL STAY BEHIND CLOSED DOORS AND WORK ON SOME REPORTS THAT WAY I CAN CONTAIN MY GERMS. I DRAGGED ON A SWEATER AND SOME LEGGINS AND WHEN I JUMPED ON THE SCALE THIS MORNING I WAS DOWN ANOTHER POUND SINCE YESTERDAY - SO I AM GETTING CLOSER TO MY GOAL. I HAVE NOT EXERCISED FOR THE PAST 4 DAYS I HAVE JUST BEEN CRAWLING INTO MY BED AND KEEPING MYSELF HYDRATED. I NO LONGER HAVE A FEVER AND MY MUSCLES NO LONGER ACHE - I AM NOT ACHY AT ALL JUST MAJOR CONGESTED. I AM GOING TO COUNT AND RECOUNT MY BLESSINGS AND BE EXTREMELY THANKFUL FOR BEING ALIVE AND WELL - IT COULD BE WORSE BUT IT IS NOT - AS A MATTER OF FACT COMPARED TO YESTERDAY I FEEL SOOOOOOOOO MUCH BETTER. OKAY HERE IS ME TODAY LOOKING LIKE THE SICK PUPPY (LOL)
JUST THANKFUL FOR ANOTHER 'LIGHTER' DAY on November 5, 2007 4:26 am
WAS UNDER THE WEATHER AND OUT SICK FROM WORK SINCE WEDNESDAY - BOY I FEEL LIKE A MACK TRUCK RAN OVER ME - I WAS ONLY ABLE TO TAKE TYLENOL COLD, HYDRATE MYSELF AND STAY IN BED - IMAGINE ME PROSTRATE WITH AN HYPERACTIVE BODY (lol) - I JUST GOT UP TO GO TO THE BATHROOM AND THE SHOWER. TODAY I STILL FEEL LOUSY BUT I GOT UP OUT OF MY BED OF AFFLICTION, I THANKED GOD FOR ANOTHER DAY, GOT UP, GOT DRESSED AND CAME TO WORK - PRESSING MY WAY. I GOT ON THE SCALE AND LOST 5 WHOLE POUNDS WHILE I WAS DOWN - BUT TODAY I AM UP AND I WILL KEEP IT MOVING. GOD BLESS YOU READING MY POST - I AM GRATEFUL FOR LIFE, HEALTH AND MOBILITY - I WILL SPEAK LIFE INTO MY CIRCUMSTANCES OH BOY! I JUST TYPED THIS AND FELT A BURST OF ENERGY - I FEEL BETTER ALREADY - WHATEVER IT WAS IT IS GONE - WE HAVE POWER IN OUR WORDS - LETS CONTINUE TO SPEAK LIFE INTO OUR SITUATIONS. I KNOW I WILL!!!! THIS IS ME TODAY NOT MY BEST BUT HEY, I AM UP, I AM ALIVE AND I AM WELL - I SHALL DRESS MYSELF CONTINUOUSLY IN MY GARMENT OF PRAISE!!
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