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Because we may not be able to do so for a while ... he is scheduled for surgical procedure to the foot tomorrow .. soooooooooooo having had the day off and having had to go in for a couple hours this morning ... left out early and we had a lunch date ... Had an awesome time ... lunch was excellent but I was with limited appetite so I have awesome leftovers for dinner ... he enjoyed his lunch... all is packed and ready for tomorrow... depending on the outcome he can either come home with services or go to inpatient facility for PT and strengthening.   He is in good spirits as is his nature .... and I have his back as is my nature .... so I wore in the middle of the day ask me if I care a sky blue Ralph Lauren long sweater dress and I donned a matching bolero knit jacket ... DH wanted updated pics to load on his screensaver as he takes his laptop to the hospital with him ... and who better to his picture AW-ing dufus here to make that happen LOL....   This are the pics taken before heading out to lunch.... oh,,, I am still in chia pet mode... with my overnight long hair teeeeeeeeeeeeee heeeeeeeeeeeee...   This dress is comfy ... wore it once before about 1.5 years ago...  
Threw a bolero jacket over it ... it is coooooooooooollllllllllllllllllddddddddddd...

It is sooooooooooooooooo warm and cozy in here ...
 
Now I am home relaxing for the rest of the day ... looking like an old fool while keeping up with phone, ferrets, computer, art, kitchen and keeping DH upbeat for tomorrow.... I'mma kicking these boots off though... barefoot in the house for me... in my 'lil ole baby phat dress... 
 
SNIPPETS from my journal A PICTURE A DAY KEEPS THE POUNDS AND THE INCHES AWAY....

Two weeks away from my 5th year surgiversary I AM PACKING IT UP!!!! How? you may ask, or not ask or may not even care ... and that is all OK ... but for me and my maintenance I share snippets of my journey..... 4 years 11 months and 14 days ... I live it ONE.DAY.AT.A.TIME ... with attitude... accountability and a prayer and a press ... I am only human and in the back of my mind I am always thinking .... we fall down ... but we get up ...so I try not to fall ... but if I do I KNOW that I will get back up again....

That was my mindset this morning ... as I enjoyed an awesome breakfast with my spouse who once again will depart for a few weeks while undergoing a surgical procedure on his lower extremity and will spend time in inpatient rehab for some time ... we know the drill .. we have been there... we fought and now it is time to proceed ... AGAIN .. on the used to be 'good' foot... we are braced and brave and ready...

He looked at me and my new Chia Pet look ... I have awesome long flowing black hair 'overnight' and he tells me how much he likes it this way and he asks me .... when last did you fit in your suitcase? HUH? I said it was in October ...right before taking off to the OH Conference ... why? he says ... get in it again... I will take your picture ... 

Now this is my most EMPIRIC Maintenance tool ... who would'a thunk? That almost 5 complete years after WLS

I was sitting in the den just farting around with my iPad this morning when DH says... okay .. lets see you fit in the suitcase again ... huh huh I know I turned a year older last month and he prolly thought my old fart arse would not be able too ... I am thinking LOL


 

So I stood for a standing picture this morning 1/14/2012

 

and stepped into and knelt in MY MOST AWESOME AND EMPIRIC MAINTENANCE TOOL HERE...
MY SUITCASE.....
 
I gingerly squat and laid on my side for a PERFECT FIT with room to spare...
 
He closed the lid....
 
and zipped me in ... FITTING PERFECTLY JUST AS I DID BACK IN OCTOBER RIGHT BEFORE THE OH LONG ISLAND CONFERENCE... 

 
I then went to Zumba Fitness .... and came back home... and am relaxing with two of my 8 ferrets ... my lovely gals Petunia and Chiquitita .... 
 

and I did it all POUND FOR POUND ... being or I should say TRYING MY BEST to be mindful ONE.DAY.AT.A.TIME .... 

Obesity kills.... IT IS NOT ABOUT SIZE ... it is NOT ABOUT LOOKS ... I LOVED LOVED LOVED my big girl me ... but my obesity progressed to MORBID OBESITY... with 5 co-morbidities and now I have none ... where I could not climb stairs I now run every other morning with my running team at 4 am sun rain or snow ... BUT NOT ICE LOL ... I swim, Bikram, Pilates, weights, reformer I SWITCH IT UP ... some days I have to set a mental fire cracker under my arse to get into motion ... but once I am moving I am feeling better and loving it ... just like I loved me ... 5 years AGO... I LOVED ME but HATED my CO-MORBIDITIES ... MY DISEASE... 

I remember me ALWAYS because I am still this woman in a smaller frame ... her release is my deliverance and my deliverance is her release ....
 

I DRESSED BEAUTIFULLY AND FELT BEAUTIFUL AT EACH AND EVERY SIZE ... THE JOURNEY IS NOT ABOUT A NUMBER ON A SCALE OR ON A PIECE OF CLOTHING ... IT IS ABOUT SETTING LIVING MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST AND HEALTHIEST ... ONE.DAY.AT.A.TIME...

I AM OPEN AND I AM HONEST ... SHARP AS A SERPENT AND HARMLESS AS A DOVE ...

Today I embrace phenomenal women ... we all are!!!! men included here too....

Phenomenal Woman

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.

I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size

But when I start to tell them,

They think I'm telling lies.

I say,

It's in the reach of my arms

The span of my hips,

The stride of my step,

The curl of my lips.

I'm a woman

Phenomenally.

Phenomenal woman,

That's me.

I walk into a room

Just as cool as you please,

And to a man,

The fellows stand or

Fall down on their knees.

Then they swarm around me,

A hive of honey bees.

I say,

It's the fire in my eyes,

And the flash of my teeth,

The swing in my waist,

And the joy in my feet.

I'm a woman

Phenomenally.

Phenomenal woman,

That's me.

Men themselves have wondered

What they see in me.

They try so much

But they can't touch

My inner mystery.

When I try to show them

They say they still can't see.

I say,

It's in the arch of my back,

The sun of my smile,

The ride of my breasts,

The grace of my style.

I'm a woman

Phenomenally.

Phenomenal woman,

That's me.

Now you understand

Just why my head's not bowed.

I don't shout or jump about

Or have to talk real loud.

When you see me passing

It ought to make you proud.

I say,

It's in the click of my heels,

The bend of my hair,

the palm of my hand,

The need of my care,

'Cause I'm a woman

Phenomenally.

Phenomenal woman,

That's me.

 Maya Angelou

  .......... NONE! AND 4 POUNDS DOWN WHEN I AM NOT TRYING TO LOSE AND OUNCE ......WOOT WOOT!
My awesome time was spent at home with family, friends and ferrets .... love, warmth, camaraderie, enthusiasm, goals, expectations, forgiveness, charity, support, hope and dreams and more were shared .... 

I met with friends from my running club early in the morning (4:00 a.m.) for an awesome run 5-6 miles along the beach and back home ... totally invigorated ... rested... fit and ready for another glorious day to make of it the best I can ....

I am loving the best decision I ever made in my life ... RIDDING MYSELF OF MORBID OBESITY, OBESITY AND OBESITY RELATED DISEASES ...  I AM AT GOAL ... RUNNING BELOW MY OWN GOAL BUT KEEPING STEADFAST AND LOVING IT....

MAINTENANCE .... is is certainly not easy but I found a formula that works for me ... I look at the particular item that will bring me nothing but a few moments of satisfaction and I say to myself ... I am NOT eating you because I am NOT wearing you .... easy peasy ... I am so NOT wearing that bowl of ice cream on my butt that is genetically big as it is LOL ... I WILL HAVE AN ARCTIC ZERO ICE CREAM INSTEAD OR MAKE MY OWN ICE CREAM TO MY SPECS and eat it and love it and twiddle my toes .... hey, nothing wrong with having ice cream ... I REFUSE to dump needlessly ... so I stick to what is good for me....

Hopping on the scale this morning minus 4 pounds I am wearing a dress that I wore during the 2nd year post-op ... and now as I prepare to CELEBRATE my upcoming 5 YEARS surgiversary next month ... I am rocking the same frock and weighing slightly less than I want to..... maintaining for LIFE ... 
 

 

and this is what I wore the last day of LAST year ... it was a victory sort of keeping that high necked dress on all day ... you who have shared my journey on here on 2007 heard my history of being choked and my aversion to things around my neck even a necklace ... so I won't rehash that...
but on Friday ... I stood steadfast ...
 

I have come a long long way ... and intend to continue on the course ... IF having done all on my part taking FULL responsibility AND accountability of my weight loss journey I should encounter failure of any sort I WILL NOT hesitate to have a DS ... In the interim I am ROCKING my RNY and LOVING IT! it is working for me and I am one to keep all my things in MINT condition ... unless it is out of my hands....

I have come a long long way and I am indeed grateful ... Grateful for the space here to post my goofy threads in an attempt to encourage myself and one other person ... 

I will never forget my beginning ... my fat woman image lives with me in a positive way because I was loved and cherished at my highest weight ... I will NEVER diss her or hate on her ... we walk TOGETHER... her deliverance is my release and my release is her deliverance ... she encourages me to walk the course away from obesity and to stay the course ... today I have 0 co-morbidities ... no more sleep-apnea, no more hypertension, no more gastroesophageal reflux, no more diabetes, no more hyperlipidemia ... OFF ALL MEDS SINCE SURGERY DAY 2/5/2007 ...

  

 

THANK YOU FOR ALLOWING ME TO SHARE... 

 ..."there is misery and joy in equal parts in this world. Misery will find us if we make ourselves a target. Joy is just waiting for us to acknowledge it. I find joy every day in all parts of my life and I just let it happen to me. Misery is there but I'm sure as hell not going to invite it in".....