I'm a 38 year old divorced mother of a 20 year old son...............and today, I'm starting a new life! I have been struggling with my weight since my early 20's and always found an excuse in my need to take care of everyone around me. Two years ago I started researching my options after battling myself and the Weight Watcher's program for the last time. I haven't been overweight all of my life, but at this point I can barely recognize myself any other way.  Looking at pictures I know that I was thin, but I can't REMEMBER it. I was never overly talented when it came to sports, but I loved to ride bikes, swim and play volleyball. Growing up on a farm meant that we were never "right next door" to our friends. I didn't even think twice about walking more than an mile or more just to "go play". Who was that? I got pregnant when I was 16 and on my first doctor's visit I weighed in at 130 pounds..........and thought that I was FAT! On the day that I delivered my son I weighed in at 180 pounds. I remember thinking that I would NEVER get THAT heavy again. I guess that age and "luck" were on my side because despite not doing a damn thing about it I was able to get back to the 130's. And someplace between then and now I lost myself. I don't know what age, I cant name a date and I cant remember a year when I was first considered obese........but I remember my first Weight Watcher's meeting. I weighed in at 180. That damn number I swore I would never see again! Since my first Weight Watcher's meeting I have gained and lost several "people".  I fight my way down the scale only to get burned out and gain it all back and then some. So, two years ago, weighing in at almost 260 pounds I decided It was time to find myself again. I've done alot of research, I've don't alot of soul searching and made alot of difficult decisions. I've always put everybody else first and now I'm learning to put myself first instead. I'm excited and scared, but most of all.........I'm READY!