Well two weeks ago last Friday I went into work and was told my contract has been terminated. (that would be the bad)

The good part is I was able to teach my son how to ride a two wheeled bike. We have went for many bike rides and he is doing quite well. 

I am afraid of being home again. Chris my hubby says that he would prefer me to stay home with Spencer and try to find a job that is working from home. I am frustrated. I went to college got a degree and now I am stuck at home. The thing that scares me the most is that the kitchen is two step away.  When I was working I would only bring the amount of food I am suppose to eat with me. That way I didn't over eat and I could control the intake of food better. Now that I do not have a job that is almost impossible.  ( this would be a bad!)

A good note I have lost 139lbs since June 26th 2007 and my one year surgi-versary is coming up. I wanted to have a big party and Hell I still might. 

This has been a good and bad note from MEL

Love ya all

I went in for my nine month appointment. She said I am doing great!! I told her I was concerned I was eating too much. She said I am eating the right amount of food for someone at my level. I have lost a total of 119 lbs and feel great. I told Amy (my PA) that I felt like exercising. I told her its like an erg I told her I haven't yet because the weather is so bad but my body is telling me to get up and do some sit ups. She said that’s normal. She told me my body is feeling better and my brain is trying to keep it that way. She said once I start exercising the rest of my weight will melt off. 

I am excited! I went out and bought a new bike seat for my bike and can not wait to start riding it. I feel like a new person. I can't explain it more than that. 

The bad side is because of my rapid weight loss I have released some bad hormones and feel like I am pregnant. I told Amy I am having hot flashes, mood swings, and other hormonal feelings. She said it was normal and put me on an antidepressant for a couple of months to see if it helps. Chris was happy to hear that. He says he was about ready to refill an old Prozac order and force it down my thought (he was kidding).

Other than that I am doing great. I am thinking about holding a big party around my one year mark to celebrate my recovery and my new future. I have people who have told me I took the easy way out. If that’s the case then I am proud of my decision to take care of my body and my health this way. My family and I eat healthier and enjoy our lives more now than ever. 

My wonderful husband has also been studily lossing weight. More so now. We are now losing at the same rate. I am 230 and Chris is 232. I told him I am in the lead :) We kid like that all the time. 

Chris says he is ready to have more children. I told him he will have to weight until I have lost all the weight this surgery will allow me to loose. I think having a baby right now would be very hard on me and my body. I don't know how I will be able to keep my protein up and vomit down during the first couple of months. Plus I want to get into shape and tone up before I get pregnant I am looking forward to having a nice round pregnancy belly with out the apron to hold on to. 

Plus the extra cost of fertility drugs deters me away. We were paying 175 dollars a month before to try to have a kid and it didn't work. I don't want that extra cost right now. With Spencer starting school and so forth I feel I should let him have his year of glory. Even though Spencer wants to be a big brother so badly. He sees Gus and Marissa (his cousins) and gets jealous that Gus is a big brother and he is not. I know when its time for us to make our family grow God will tell us. 

I am also scared of getting pregnant. I have lost so much weight and am very very happy with where I am I am afraid to gain more weight back. That is something I will face in the future right now I am happy that God has blessed me with my wonderful family and friends. 

I am glad I am able to provide support to other bariatric patients and help them along their journey like so many are helping me along mine. 

God Bless All 
Mel