on July 13, 2007 5:08 pm
I am going to be really honest here and admit what's been going on with me. I was all gung-ho about getting this surgery and even though everyone says "it's just a tool," I was still hoping it would help me behave better. Well, it hasn't. I wasn't able to stick to a diet pre-op and I'm still not able to. I basically went off the diet plan at about 4 days post-op, and haven't done all that great since. My surgeon said I could eat solids much earlier than his nutritionist told me, so I followed his advice, not hers. I did this because I was HUNGRY, and full liquids were just not doing it for me.
Anyway I was pretty good with focusing on protein & fluids for a while, but I think I bought my first back of M&M's at about a month out. The good news is that it took me days of grazing to eat what I normally could have eaten in one sitting. But still, I feel so guilty! I fell off the wagon so soon after surgery!!!!
I also have been using the hot & humid weather as an excuse not to exercise. So with no exercise & eating candy I have not done great with weight loss. I'm really so ashamed. I feel like a failure. Others who had surgery AFTER me have already lost so much more than me so it's so hard for me to go on the forum & act happy right now...
I recently stopped weighing myself, too. I did this for 2 reasons... one is that I have no scale right now. I had been using my mom's but she wanted it back so I gave it back. I do have a really nice one but it's packed away somewhere & I have no idea where. I refuse to go out & buy another one, so I guess that's that. It's okay though, because this just means that the next time I get around to weighing myself, wherever and whenever that may be, I surely will have lost some weight. BTW my surgeon is happy with my slow weight loss, so that makes me feel better.
Anyway, I have a lot of very serious stress in my life right now... I'm in a transition period in a lot of ways (not necessarily related to surgery) and I feel very depressed. I was avoiding going on anti-depressants but after seeing how many of the people on the forum use them, I think that I will give them a try. I hope that will help me to kick-start my energy and motivation, because right now I have very little of either.
I know I usually go into more detail in this blog but I'm just going to leave this entry as is for now. I'm so happy for all the people who are doing so great with their VSGs, and for all the new people who keep popping in & deciding to have it done... I am still very glad I had this surgery & have NO regrets at all.











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