As I sit here tonight I guess a little reality is setting in. I hopefully have only one more week of tests to complete and if all is well Dr. Frezza can schedule my surgery. I know that getting the lap-band is the right thing to do, I know that it would be nearly impossible for me to lose the 110 pounds I want to lose on my own. I guess some of the posts on the board lately have gotten me slightly worried. For about 2 or 3 days in a row someone posted that they lost their band due to complications. I am hoping that if I obey the bandster rules religiously my stomach and band will stay healthy...I guess the worry is, what if it doesn't? I would be devastated if I did something bad and caused it, but very upset if it was from nothing I did on my own,
Maybe my inhibitions are coming from a place of being very tired and not thinking straight? I have been so busy for the past few weeks I haven't gotten enough sleep. Next week will be busy also. It all ends with the sleep study, and for some reason that test is the one that is really bothering me. I'm not sure why, maybe it's because you are so vulnerable in front of a bunch of strangers?? I am not usually a baby about things, but this one is bothering me. And if it turns out that I do have sleep apnea, I will have to go back for another test before they will schedule my surgery. UGH! *Crossing my fingers that I dont have it!!*
On a lighter note, my son won a Guitar Hero contest last night, so he got tickets to see Korn and Evinescense and possibly win a guitar and play on stage. I am very happy for him, he absolutely LOVES playing the guitar, whether it's real or a video game. He is a good kid and desrves something like this, what a thrill!! He's fifteen and just started driver's ed....man I feel old!! LOL
I have a lot to look forward to, and I am happy....just very tired. I have my band to look forward to, my Cowboys are fixing to start another season, and fall is coming....I love fall. I guess you would have to be crazy not to have the smallest of doubts when you undergo an elective surgery and one that will change your life forever.