This last week flew by!  Now that I am working 4/10's the work week seems to be a blur.  I had a bad day at work though.....UGH.  To make a long story short, I basically got told that I dressed inapropriately one day.  I was wearing a cute sundress that I got at Wal-Mart.  I had already wore it a few times to work and got many compliments.  It's a halter dress, so I had to wears a strapless bra underneath it.  . 

I had a meeting to attend on Tuesday.  Since I am lead where I work I get lumped in with the supervisors and management.  Leadership wanted a meeting to go over upcoming changes.  I was wearing THE dress.  The next day, my supervisor pulled me aside and said someone in leadership voiced concerns about my dress.  My boss conveyed this in the nicest way she could, and struggled with having to tell me. 

After her talk had a little while to sink in, I was mortified.  I was so emarrassed.  I don't dress provacitevly.  This dress isn't sexy, it's cute.  But, the damage had been done.  I am hoping to get a supervisor slot, in fact I am working on my application now for an open position in my area.  Was this going to ruin my chances?  UGH!!!  I started crying and feeling sick about it all. 

Before I left work, I talked with my supervisor and manager and felt much better.  They assured me that everything was just fine.  I really love my job and didn't want this to ruin it!  So, hopefully everything will be fine. 

Other than that, not too much else going on.  I weightloss seems to be at a standstill again.  I was down to 202.8 last Saturday, and this morning it's at 203.  I had yo-yo'd back up to 205 this week and have been eating very badly....so, to see 203 on the scales this morning made me feel better.  I know I don't need another fill.  I don't know what it's going to take to kick start this weight loss again other than maybe really going low calorie and trying to find time to exercise more. 

I weighed in at 202 this morning!!!  Well, TECHNICALLY 202.8 but hey, I'll take it!!!  Getting closer to ONEderland!!  YEAH!!    
I went to see Dr. Liljestrand yesterday.  I just adore my PCP!  He is a cutie, but he's very sweet and always listens to me.  I hadn't seen him since I thought my incisions from surgery were infected.  So, it was about two weeks after surgery.  He was really blown away with my progress.  He said I looked VERY GOOD and that I looked completely different.....didn't look like the same person.    LOL  See why I love the man?   He was voted one of the best general practitioners yet again in Albuquerque this year.  When I mentioned that to him he just blushed and said he didn't know that until another patient mentioned it to him. 

I had to go see him because my insurance company is switching my surgery after-care to a new surgeon!!  YEAH!!  No more Dr. Frezza!!  Before I can meet with this new surgeon, I have to have an upper GI done.  Dr. Liljestrand had to order that for me to be done, and it was time to have all my numbers checked.  So, next week I will have to have blood drawn.  I REALLY hope my diabetes looks better.  I quit taking my meds over a month ago and probably shouldn't have. I just felt like the Avandia was holding my weight loss back and the Metformins are just WAY TOO BIG.  And YES, I did confess that to Dr. Liljestrand.  LOL  He said he will soon find out if I will need to start taking them again.  ha ha ha ha Hopefully not!

I am very glad that I'm getting the upper GI done.  Unfortunately the first available appointment wasn't until 08/17/08.  I have to wait a month.  Sometimes I just feel like my band is way too tight still.  I wasn't able to eat too much this week, hence the 3 pound loss I'm sure.  Monday I had a bad stuck episode.  Sometimes I think I am having problems because I'm not drinking enough fluids and not staying hydrated enough, but at  other times I really fear a problem with my band.  So, I am committing right here and now to get all of my fluids in.  Within a week or two of getting in at least 80 ounces of fluids in I should be able to tell whether or not it's hydration or too much saline. 

My week wasn't too bad.  Auntie Flow came to visit on Monday, and she brought a few extra pounds with her.  My band wasn't quite as tight this time around when she was here.  I think the fat pad around my stomach must be shrinking a  little.  There are times that I still have trouble eating, but hopefully I am okay. 

On to the NSV's.  I got called in to Mary's office (the manager) on Wednesday.  For some reason I always think the worst.  LOL  Turns out she just wanted to ask me how much weight I have lost and to tell me that I look great!   The very next day, my supervisor did the same thing!!  It feels so good to be noticed!!  I think a lot of it was the fact that I was wearing shirts that actually fit me, an XL vs. a 3X.  ha!  I weighed in at 205 Friday morning, but back up to 206 this morning.  So, we'll see where the weight loss is going.  Hopefully I can get to ONEderland by the end of the month!! 

I am applying for a supervisor position at work.  It's making me nervous, but I think I have a chance.  It will be a lot of extra work, I believe, but more money!!  Cross your fingers for me!!  The vacancy announcement closes in early August. 

 

I took my son to the movies yesterday for the holiday.  It was fun, but I ate way too much popcorn!   So much so I was up a pound this morning!  UGH!!  Oh well.  I know it will come back off, but I am gettin frustrated again.  I have been stuck right around 206 for at least 3 weeks now.  I want to get to ONEderland already!!  

I was cleaning out the office this morning and stopped to look at a bunch of photos.  It's so weird to see myself at different weights, at different times in my life.  I have been my weight at surgery for several years.  I am now down to about the low point I got when I was first diagnosed with diabetes.  Well, I will probably be there in another 15 pounds.  I haven't been at a normal weight since probably 1992 or 1993.  15 or 16 years is a long time to carry around this extra weight.  

I went to my consult with Frezza almost one year ago.  My journey hasn't been quite what I expected....some Frezza's fault, and some mine.  It's been hard to eat healthy foods all of the time.  When I didnt have good restriction I could eat almost anything in moderation.  Now that I am very tight I can't get much solid protein in.  Tonight I grilled out steaks.  Mine was very tender and I measured out a piece weighing 4 ounces.  I was only able to eat 1 or maybe 1.5 ounces.  I had a couple of bites of beans and 2 small bites of mac-n-cheese.  Calories-wise, I am sure that isn't much.  Most of my meals go like that.  I think I get my calories from my protein shake in the morning, cashews and sunflower seeds.  ha ha!  Yes, I have still been eating those.  Well....I have cut back.  Thursday we had a pot luck and I went wild.  I had banana cream pie, brownies, chips and a hot dog.  I couldn't eat this all at once, but I did eat it all!  Oh well.  Guess I can see why the scale went back up a notch, eh?