My younger brother who lives(ed) in Soutern New Mexico moved away to Illinois today.     On their way out of state they stopped in Abq and had lunch with us.  I'm sad for me, but happy for him and his wife.  They got better paying jobs and are starting a new adventerous life. 

I have been so horrible with my eating.  UGH.  Birthday, Thanksgiving....so many excuses this time of year.  I am think I am going to go on the platuea busters diet with some other people on the board for 10 days starting on Monday.  No sunflower seeds allowed.    Not sure how I will live without them!  I am so addicted to them now!  LOL Oh well.  I need to jump start my weight loss again.  I would like to be down another 10 pounds before I see my older brother at Christmas.  Who knows, it COULD happen!  ha ha ha  The scale was at 192 this morning.  *sigh* I need to get my ass off of the couch and exercise also.  Taking a walk doesn't cost any money....and as broke as I am, I can't spend any money!  LOL 

First off, the birthday was GREAT!  My co-workers had my cubicle decorated to the hilt!  Balloons, streamers, and tons of confetti!  A couple of them took me out to lunch also.  My DH got me Dance Dance Revolution for the Wii, which I wanted!  I have only played it once, it's hard, but I think it will be a lot of fun! 

Yesterday, I had my "after birthday blues" x 10. LOL  With our finances being in such a mess I just had a mini-meltdown.  I am so tired of being broke and owing money to everyone and their dog.  I am sure we will work things out.....I am just tired and sad about it all. 

Now, today is Thanksgiving.  Despite, the DH being out of a job, and us being broke....I have SO MUCH to be thankful for!  Really, I do.  10 1/2 months ago I had surgery that saved my life.  I was slowly killng myself with my diabetes, cholesterol, high blood pressure and smoking.  It's all under control now, and I am starting to like the way that I look again.  One year ago I got a promotion, which felt REALLY good.  6 weeks ago, I got ANOTHER promotion, which has been even better!  I am proud of myself, and so happy and satisfied in most parts of my life.  My son is great.....best 16 year old boy you could ever hope for.  I mean that truly.  I have three great brothers that more than make up for having some of the worst parents ever.  So, even though I am sad and will probably continue to whine about our financial situation.....I know that I have so much to be thankful for.  I love my band !! 

*SIGH*  Now to the scale......190 this morning.  That's not bad, considering I had been up to 194 earlier in the week.  Too many margaritas over the weekend I guess! 

  My DH lost his job on Tuesday.    Aunt Flo showed up the next day and a co-worker decided to be a big dick to me on Wednesday too.  AAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!  I was so swamped at work, I didn't have time to take a lunch break some of those days so I kind of had to shove my walking routine out the door.  I hate that.  I am just glad it's the weekend and I can try to relax and get a better mental attitude. 

My birthday is on Tuesday.  I have always LOVED my birthday....want to be treated like a queen...LOL  But, ever since my Granny and Mom passed away, it's also a little sad for me.  We'll see what happens this year.  We are broke and I am stressing over Christmas.  It's a good thing I put two gifts on lay-a-way a month ago.  The bright spot is, the scale was at 188.8 this morning.  I was back in the 190's all week long.  I will hold on to that one positive ray of light for now. 

FINALLY, my scale says 189 again!!!  Yeah!!  Even though this is a great fill, and I have been eating very little the scale was not moving!  For my body, I just don't seem to lose very fast unless I am exercising.   <== me on my walks at lunch!!  ha ha ha  I am very glad I bought the hand weights.  I think they are helping me to tone my arms a bit.  I still have a lot of flab on my arms....hopefully the flab will go with the rest of the fat! 

OK, let's discuss the new pics.  I have been going to the SBAAWLS board for something different.  Very nice people over there, and let's face it...sometimes the Lap-Band board gets BORING.    Only so many of, "I had my surgery 3 days ago and I am failure..." posts I can take.  ha ha ha  On the SBAAWLS board there is a "Lingerie Friday" post where women strut their stuff.  It's for us women that have felt like fat, ugly pigs.  We felt like we couldn't be sexy, and now that we have lost some weight (some of the ladies are at goal) we are starting to feel good about ourselves again.  This is a playful way to show it.  My DH is fully on board and takes the pictures.  When I was 18 or 19 I always wondered what it would be like to pose for Playboy magazine.  The pictures are usually very tasteful and the women get paid big $$$ to do it.  If I had the perfect body ever in my life maybe I would have done it.  LOL

Now, because I am so computer illiterate, I couldn't figure out how to get the pictures to post in the "Lingerie Friday" post without having them in my profile already.  I have copied and pasted non-profile pics before, but these wouldn't paste unless they were already on my profile.  So, that's why I have them here.  I might delete them out eventually, who knows?  For now, they serve as a reminder of how far I have come and how this surgery has been the best thing I have ever done for ME. 

This IS a good fill!!!  YEAH!!!!!!!!!   I am sorry for not trusting Dr. Acosta!!  Soooo Sorry!!  LOL  Guess I am just used to a surgeon that doesn't know and doesn't give a crap.  Now, let's see if that scale will start moving again!!!  Onward, and downward I go!!