Saturday check in!

Nov 29, 2008

My younger brother who lives(ed) in Soutern New Mexico moved away to Illinois today.     On their way out of state they stopped in Abq and had lunch with us.  I'm sad for me, but happy for him and his wife.  They got better paying jobs and are starting a new adventerous life. 

I have been so horrible with my eating.  UGH.  Birthday, Thanksgiving....so many excuses this time of year.  I am think I am going to go on the platuea busters diet with some other people on the board for 10 days starting on Monday.  No sunflower seeds allowed.    Not sure how I will live without them!  I am so addicted to them now!  LOL Oh well.  I need to jump start my weight loss again.  I would like to be down another 10 pounds before I see my older brother at Christmas.  Who knows, it COULD happen!  ha ha ha  The scale was at 192 this morning.  *sigh* I need to get my ass off of the couch and exercise also.  Taking a walk doesn't cost any money....and as broke as I am, I can't spend any money!  LOL 

Thankful Thanksgiving

Nov 27, 2008

First off, the birthday was GREAT!  My co-workers had my cubicle decorated to the hilt!  Balloons, streamers, and tons of confetti!  A couple of them took me out to lunch also.  My DH got me Dance Dance Revolution for the Wii, which I wanted!  I have only played it once, it's hard, but I think it will be a lot of fun! 

Yesterday, I had my "after birthday blues" x 10. LOL  With our finances being in such a mess I just had a mini-meltdown.  I am so tired of being broke and owing money to everyone and their dog.  I am sure we will work things out.....I am just tired and sad about it all. 

Now, today is Thanksgiving.  Despite, the DH being out of a job, and us being broke....I have SO MUCH to be thankful for!  Really, I do.  10 1/2 months ago I had surgery that saved my life.  I was slowly killng myself with my diabetes, cholesterol, high blood pressure and smoking.  It's all under control now, and I am starting to like the way that I look again.  One year ago I got a promotion, which felt REALLY good.  6 weeks ago, I got ANOTHER promotion, which has been even better!  I am proud of myself, and so happy and satisfied in most parts of my life.  My son is great.....best 16 year old boy you could ever hope for.  I mean that truly.  I have three great brothers that more than make up for having some of the worst parents ever.  So, even though I am sad and will probably continue to whine about our financial situation.....I know that I have so much to be thankful for.  I love my band !! 

*SIGH*  Now to the scale......190 this morning.  That's not bad, considering I had been up to 194 earlier in the week.  Too many margaritas over the weekend I guess! 

What a week! UGH

Nov 22, 2008

  My DH lost his job on Tuesday.    Aunt Flo showed up the next day and a co-worker decided to be a big dick to me on Wednesday too.  AAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!  I was so swamped at work, I didn't have time to take a lunch break some of those days so I kind of had to shove my walking routine out the door.  I hate that.  I am just glad it's the weekend and I can try to relax and get a better mental attitude. 

My birthday is on Tuesday.  I have always LOVED my birthday....want to be treated like a queen...LOL  But, ever since my Granny and Mom passed away, it's also a little sad for me.  We'll see what happens this year.  We are broke and I am stressing over Christmas.  It's a good thing I put two gifts on lay-a-way a month ago.  The bright spot is, the scale was at 188.8 this morning.  I was back in the 190's all week long.  I will hold on to that one positive ray of light for now. 

Back to the 80's! Or, should I say 180's?

Nov 14, 2008

FINALLY, my scale says 189 again!!!  Yeah!!  Even though this is a great fill, and I have been eating very little the scale was not moving!  For my body, I just don't seem to lose very fast unless I am exercising.   <== me on my walks at lunch!!  ha ha ha  I am very glad I bought the hand weights.  I think they are helping me to tone my arms a bit.  I still have a lot of flab on my arms....hopefully the flab will go with the rest of the fat! 

OK, let's discuss the new pics.  I have been going to the SBAAWLS board for something different.  Very nice people over there, and let's face it...sometimes the Lap-Band board gets BORING.    Only so many of, "I had my surgery 3 days ago and I am failure..." posts I can take.  ha ha ha  On the SBAAWLS board there is a "Lingerie Friday" post where women strut their stuff.  It's for us women that have felt like fat, ugly pigs.  We felt like we couldn't be sexy, and now that we have lost some weight (some of the ladies are at goal) we are starting to feel good about ourselves again.  This is a playful way to show it.  My DH is fully on board and takes the pictures.  When I was 18 or 19 I always wondered what it would be like to pose for Playboy magazine.  The pictures are usually very tasteful and the women get paid big $$$ to do it.  If I had the perfect body ever in my life maybe I would have done it.  LOL

Now, because I am so computer illiterate, I couldn't figure out how to get the pictures to post in the "Lingerie Friday" post without having them in my profile already.  I have copied and pasted non-profile pics before, but these wouldn't paste unless they were already on my profile.  So, that's why I have them here.  I might delete them out eventually, who knows?  For now, they serve as a reminder of how far I have come and how this surgery has been the best thing I have ever done for ME. 

Oh yeah, baby!!

Nov 09, 2008

This IS a good fill!!!  YEAH!!!!!!!!!   I am sorry for not trusting Dr. Acosta!!  Soooo Sorry!!  LOL  Guess I am just used to a surgeon that doesn't know and doesn't give a crap.  Now, let's see if that scale will start moving again!!!  Onward, and downward I go!! 

Too soon to tell

Nov 08, 2008

DH and I took my son to the dentist this morning.  The office is in the mall.  We had lunch around 2pm in the food court.  This was my first meal after the fill, so I wasn't sure what to get, but wanted something solid to test my restriction.  I ended up getting chicken strips.  I could eat one and part of another one.  It doesn't seem like my restriction is as tight as it was before I messed things up, but maybe it will be a good fill.  I will have to eat a few more meals and different types of food before I know for sure.  *fingers crossed*


Fill #5

Nov 06, 2008

Okay, went to see Cr. Acosta yesterday for him to bring my band up to what it was when I went to see him the first time.  LOL  Confused?  Look at the post done around October 8th or 9th. 

I am very confused now.  He said that the E/R doc took out 1 CC.  Okay...that's what she was supposed to do.  Once I got off of the table he then said that I NOW have 3 CC's.  WHAT????   I had 5.6 CC's when I went to see him the first time.  I said that to him, and his reply to me was, "You had closer to 6 CC's.  There is always 3 CC's that stay in the balloon."  Frezza said that he didn't prime my band......but I am going to have to trust Dr. Acosta that he knows what he's saying. 

I am on a full liquid diet until Saturday, so I won't know for sure how my restriction is until then.  UGH.  PLEASE let me have my good restriction back, PLEASE!!  That's all I am asking!! 

The good news is, I only gained 1.8 pounds in the past month.  Not too bad since I didn't have much restriction and was able to be naughty too often.  I know I lost those two pounds yesterday.  Being on liquids only I had to stop and pee every hour on my journey to El Paso and back. LOL

I was down to 191 this morning.  I'll post tomorrow when I know more about my restriction.  Fingers crossed!!!

What a Fun Halloween!

Nov 01, 2008

EVERYONE at worked loved the costume!  It was a blast!!  I even won the prize for most original!  After work, I went to Wal-Mart to get a few things and I got a lot of looks from men and young men!!  This is fun!  ha ha ha
Next year I hope to be Xena, Warrior Princess.......well, maybe not at work.

Well, Auntie Flo has come and gone.  I am at 193 now, which isn't bad considering how much I let myself go this week!!  Since my restriction is loose and I have massive cravings I really gave in this time.  It was kind of like a "last chance" to eat this or that before I get my fill on Thursday.  LOL  I know that's bad, but I am really hoping Dr. Acosta will put in enough saline to get me to where I was before.  I am confident that with tight restriction I will drop some weight fast at first.  If my body thought it was starving before, it clearly knows now that I am not starving!  Quite the opposite!!  ha ha ha

I got a BEAUTIFUL shell necklace from Linda in the mail.  She purchased it in Hawaii for me....hmmmm maybe I can be a Hawaiian girl next year for Halloween.....

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