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Wow!!!  I am down to 162 lbs now!!  Yeah!!   Two more pounds and I can OFFICIALLY say that I have lost 100 lbs!  That's amazing.  I am only 12 pounds way from my goal of weighing 150 lbs.  I am going to get below that, but I will consider myself a huge success when I get there.  

The road to here hasn't been easy.  I have blogged weekly, and so glad I have.  I can always read to prior posts and remind myself that I have come a long way.  

Since there are two other ladies that got banded at work, and three that I talk to here on OH that are local, I decided to put together a support group.  We are going to meet for the first time this afternoon.  I am very excited about it!  I will be sure to take my camera! 

This was a busy week, work-wise, so glad it's the weekend! My band has been pretty good...but if I have the money or the chance at getting in to Dr. Acosta, I will take a little of my fill out.  I really don't want to chance losing my band forever, by being too tight, too long.  

 Every store has school supplies out, front and center.  I am starting to have to do some things to prepare for my son's Senior year of high school.    I am a little sad that he will be flying from the nest in  the next year or two.  He is my only child, and is turning in to such a wonderful man.  School will start in about 3 1/2 weeks.  I have been so relieved that he was able to do for himself, drive for himself, etc., and while I am still relieved, I am a bit sad.   I got the proofs for his Senior Pictures in....they are so good......and there is no way I can afford to purchase them.    It really breaks my heart.  If DH doesn't start earning money soon I will probably worry my band right through my stomach.  

Speaking of my band....this week he was pretty much on good behaviour.  The only big problems I am having is the fact that I HAVE HAVE HAVE to quit eating ANYTHING 2 hours prior to bed and can drink no closer to an hour of laying down for the night.  That gets annoying, but I sure pay for it if I don't follow those rules now.  For instance, I got up at 4:45am this morning to go to a bike rally with a co-worker.  After I had showered, and while applying my make-up, I drank about 1 1/2 mugs of coffee.  Aunt Flo showed up yesterday afternoon, so there are cookies in the house.  I had about 3/4 of a cookie.  .  I then get a call from my friend, Brack...."uhhh I was on my way to your house and my bike broke down.  There won't be a ride today."  What?? No ride??   I look at the clock, 6:20am.  Now what?  I have drank coffee and ate a little bit of food.  I can't lay down no matter how sleepy I am!   I drove around the neighborhood to see if there were any good garage sales, nope.  Came back home, and tried to lay down.  It hadn't been 2 hours since eating anything and ....   This sucks.  

I never heard back from Dr. Acosta's office, so, I emailed the nurse that I had talked to the week prior.  She said she would put my on the cancellation list for his visit in August...but she didn't mention if the doc wanted to run any tests to see if my band was okay.   I emailed her back and asked and I am waiting for her reply.  I am feeling more secure now though...I think the band is probably okay just a smidgen too tight.  Hopefully he can take a smidgen out and now more.  

My weight really stalled and inched back up this week.  As of this morning I am at 168 again....but as I said, Aunt Flo is in town.  She will torture me with some extra pounds this week.  Damn her.  

Yesterday was my official 18 month bandiversary!    I was also at a new low, 166 lbs!!  Yeah!!  Inching closer to my goal!  I was having some problems again this past week with reflux so I made that call to Acosta's office.   I left a message for the nurse, Debra, and she called me back that day.   I explained to her what was going on and how things were MUCH better now then they were a couple of weeks ago, however, I was still not comfortable with having any reflux.   She mentioned a possible slip..........UGH  .  Debra said she would relay the information to Dr. Acosta on Thursday (clinic day) and call me back.  She hasn't called me back yet.     She thought Dr. Acosta might want to do a swallow test or an upper GI.  I am all for that.  I would love to know that my band is sitting properly and that I am just a tad over-filled.  

To me, it's just weird that I can pretty much eat okay....when my band wasn't as tight, I had more trouble eating it seems, but never had reflux or heartburn.  I still can't eat huge amounts, but I can eat a good 1/2 cup of solid foods and sometimes more.  My body has been craving food every sixty seconds for the past few days....I can pretty much chalk that up to PMS symptoms.  Aunt Flo will probably be here in a week or so.  Because of the constant cravings I have given in to eating some slider foods, like chocolate!  LOL  Oh well.  It was a very stressful week at work also.  

I am seriously worried about my band....what IF something is wrong?  There have been several people posting lately about losing their bands or having a slip.  Can I have a revision if the band needs to go?   By BMI charts, I am still considered obese....not morbidly obese though.  I do have diabetes, but it's under control with the weightloss.  I would beg to get RNY if my band has to come out.........would my insurance agree?   I would definitely do my best to maintain my weightloss and lose more, however, my food addictions would be completely uncontrolled without my little tool.  UGH.  Well, let's just pray that I don't ever have to face those decisions.  Hopefully my band is just fine...might be a little overfull at the moment, but fine nonetheless.  

Wow, okay, I think my band is okay....it's just very tight restriction.  I can eat solids just fine and not having reflux at night.  I do have some heartburn at times, that is usually when I haven't eaten or have tried to eat too much.  I am struggling now to try and get in calories.  LOL So hard to believe, but it's true!  I have been trying to keep track of my consumption, mainly worried about protein and I rarely get in over 600 calories.  I am working on getting more in, good healthy calories, but this is a fun challenge.  I have never had to do this with my band yet.  

My personal problems continue....all I can do is take one day at a time.

The scale stalled out a bit this week since I was getting in very few calories but for the last two days I have been down to 167!!  Anoher new low!!  Yeah!!  I had promised myself back in January that I would be at my goal weight of 150lbs by the 4th of July.  The way I look at it, I am still very much a winner.  I am only 17 pounds away from my goal!  When I made that pledge, I had no idea that my best friend would die suddenly, and that so many other horrible things would happen in my personal life.  Despite all of these roadblocks, I have still been able to lose some weight an stay sane.  I will make another promise....just that I WILL get to goal, no date certain, but, I will see those numbers on the scale!