melly37
First Fill
Apr 27, 2010
I weighed in at 189 lbs yesterday morning and at Dr. Acosta's office! Oh well.....nothing I can do about the past. I just have to move forward.
Dr. Acosta only gave me 2 CC's. I am disappointed but, I have to listen to him. He knows best, I am sure. I am on liquids until tomorrow night, so I can't tell how much the fill helped me. I am still feeling hungry, so I know it didn't get tight enough to kill the hunger. I have another appointment in a month, so I will just have to be disciplined and patient. I gained a total of 16 lbs from my last visit!!! That's disgusting!! I had lost 12 lbs at that point. So.......I have gained a NET amount of 4lbs since surgery. I guess that's not TOO bad considering I don't have a tool to help me fight my food addictions at this time. It's still scary as hell that I could gain so much, so quickly!! Yikes!! I have been dealing with some major curveballs in my life, so I will try not to hate myself too much!!
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Dr. Acosta only gave me 2 CC's. I am disappointed but, I have to listen to him. He knows best, I am sure. I am on liquids until tomorrow night, so I can't tell how much the fill helped me. I am still feeling hungry, so I know it didn't get tight enough to kill the hunger. I have another appointment in a month, so I will just have to be disciplined and patient. I gained a total of 16 lbs from my last visit!!! That's disgusting!! I had lost 12 lbs at that point. So.......I have gained a NET amount of 4lbs since surgery. I guess that's not TOO bad considering I don't have a tool to help me fight my food addictions at this time. It's still scary as hell that I could gain so much, so quickly!! Yikes!! I have been dealing with some major curveballs in my life, so I will try not to hate myself too much!!
Almost Time To Fill 'Er Up!!
Apr 24, 2010
My bad eating continued most of the week. UGH. I am stressing on finding a place to live. I was eating everything....from cheeseburgers and fries to pizza. Yesterday was the most stressful day I had in the week, I was proud of myself....I stayed away from carbs. I managed to just say no. I know that it can be done, but I am way too quick to "cut myself some slack" when I am going though something in order to comfort myself. It might comfort me for 5 minutes, but then the guilt and self-hate sets in, making it all worse. I then have stress PLUS the bad feelings towards myself and the extra weight.
I have had to go out and purchase a couple of pairs of pants....I only have 2 size 12's and none of my 10's fit anymore. I am mad at myself for letting it get out of control. I know that Dr. Acosta will be a bit disappointed in my weight gain since seeing him last, but hopefully he will understand and fill my band up. Lord knows I need it!!! I can't wait to go on Monday!!
I forgot to weigh this morning before eating breakfast, so I will go by yesterday's embarassing weigh in of 186! UGH!! Not good!!! Staying low carb until my fill, then being on liquids for a couple of days should help me get back on track. I will update after my fill.
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I have had to go out and purchase a couple of pairs of pants....I only have 2 size 12's and none of my 10's fit anymore. I am mad at myself for letting it get out of control. I know that Dr. Acosta will be a bit disappointed in my weight gain since seeing him last, but hopefully he will understand and fill my band up. Lord knows I need it!!! I can't wait to go on Monday!!
I forgot to weigh this morning before eating breakfast, so I will go by yesterday's embarassing weigh in of 186! UGH!! Not good!!! Staying low carb until my fill, then being on liquids for a couple of days should help me get back on track. I will update after my fill.
Stop The Madness!!!
Apr 16, 2010
UGH!!! I am eating like crazy! I have eaten some bad carbs this week, good carbs and in general just a lot of food!! The scale reflects it too.......184!! UGH!! Auntie Flo showed up Monday night and I have had the complete week from hell!! OMG. It's been a horrible week. So many unfinished items from my failed marriage, and they are all coming back to haunt me now. On top of that stress, I have been acting for my boss, so I have had a ton of extra work and duties this week.
Although my home stress isn't over with, I am thankful the week is over with. I will get to spend time with my boyfriend and try and have a good time. He really is great.
I have to get my eating under control.....I am going to El Paso a week from Monday, and I would HATE to have gained a ton of weight since I saw him last. He was so proud of me. UGH. I need that fill very badly........I hope he gives me a decent amount of saline!! I can't wait!!! I so miss the feeling of restriction and and I hate feeling hunger again. It sucks!! When Journey starts working for me again, I know I can get to goal weight, I just have to be very strong from now until then!
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Although my home stress isn't over with, I am thankful the week is over with. I will get to spend time with my boyfriend and try and have a good time. He really is great.
I have to get my eating under control.....I am going to El Paso a week from Monday, and I would HATE to have gained a ton of weight since I saw him last. He was so proud of me. UGH. I need that fill very badly........I hope he gives me a decent amount of saline!! I can't wait!!! I so miss the feeling of restriction and and I hate feeling hunger again. It sucks!! When Journey starts working for me again, I know I can get to goal weight, I just have to be very strong from now until then!
Ooops! 2 Week Lag Time!
Apr 10, 2010
I didn't update last Saturday, I was busy with my boyfriend. Yep! He is officially my boyfriend. OMG. It's been great. I will probably change the day that I update my blog for now, since I don't see my schedule changing for the forseeable future! ha ha!!!
Well, the scale has gone the wrong way the past two weeks!! I AM staying low-carb, except for the good carbs, but my portion sizes have gotten pretty big. Almost normal sizes *sigh* I am just so damn hungry all of the time now. I hate being hungry. I am back up to 178, which sucks. Aunt Flo will be making an appearance soon, I am sure, probably in the next 4 days, so that could be part of my eating all of the time.
I went to see a gynecologist last week and he ran a scan and said I am OVER hydrated! ha ha!! I have 10lbs of extra water weight according to his fancy machine. Hmmmmm Well, I know that I should be very hydrated. He also said that it is VERY possible to lose or gain 3 lbs in a day, as it is water weight. I know that my body is VERY sensitive as far as retaining water. It's just a fact of life for me.
Two weeks from Monday I will be getting my much needed fill!! Yay!!!!! I hope that I can feel SOME restriction after getting that fill. I need some help!!!!
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Well, the scale has gone the wrong way the past two weeks!! I AM staying low-carb, except for the good carbs, but my portion sizes have gotten pretty big. Almost normal sizes *sigh* I am just so damn hungry all of the time now. I hate being hungry. I am back up to 178, which sucks. Aunt Flo will be making an appearance soon, I am sure, probably in the next 4 days, so that could be part of my eating all of the time.
I went to see a gynecologist last week and he ran a scan and said I am OVER hydrated! ha ha!! I have 10lbs of extra water weight according to his fancy machine. Hmmmmm Well, I know that I should be very hydrated. He also said that it is VERY possible to lose or gain 3 lbs in a day, as it is water weight. I know that my body is VERY sensitive as far as retaining water. It's just a fact of life for me.
Two weeks from Monday I will be getting my much needed fill!! Yay!!!!! I hope that I can feel SOME restriction after getting that fill. I need some help!!!!
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Rio Rancho, NM
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04/03/2012
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Jun 26, 2007
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