Excuses? Who, Me??

Jun 12, 2012

This past weekend, I really did some soul-searching.  Why am I stuck at 175?  (Which by the way, I weighed in at 175.0 this morning

Is my body THAT slow at metabolising food? 

Are the few extra carbs I get in when I am not perfect in my eating REALLY effecting me that negatively?

Am I soooo over WLS after having the band for 4 years, even though my sleeve is brand-new?

Am I a weak person that just gives up too easily? 

Hmmmm.  That's a lot to think about.  Blaming myself will get me nowhere, but finding excuses will DEFINITELY not help me lose weight.  It's true that WLS is old hat to me.  My "honeymoon" period is long gone.  I have a brand new tool, and am VERY thankful to have it, yet I am not putting 100% effort in to my weight-loss journey.  Why is this?

I do feel that my metabolism is slow.  I know that my body is ultra-sensative to carbs.  All that means is I am probably just like 60% of the people in the WLS community.  I am not unique.  So instead of using my excuses as to why I am not a smashing success, I can instead realize that there are thousands of people just like me that are experiencing that amazing weight-loss.  I can be like those people in many ways. 

I lost the bulk of my weight with the LapBand.  I am thankful for that.  I truly am.  My sleeve should get me to goal, FINALLY, if I work with it.

While soul-searching, I think I found what the crux of my issue is.  I am happy.  I am so unbelievably content and happy in my personal life, it's hard to see weight-loss the way I once saw it.   Back 2007, when I was pursuing WLS, I of course, imagined my life would be so much better when I was thin.  Somehow, just by shedding fat, my life would magically be so much better.

When I lost weight, I did go through many changes.  Not all were fun or pleasant, but most of the changes ended up leading to a much healthier and better place for me.  I shed a bad marriage, got a promotion at work, and eventually found the love of my life. 

So, today, I stand before you a very happy, content and calm girl.  Am I still broke all of the damn time?  Yes.  Do I have day to day issues that everyone deals with?  Of course!  With all of that, I also have someone in my life that loves me deeply for who I am.  We connect on a deep level, and share so many passions and life attitudes.  I am in a job that I love.  I am confident, yet find challenges every single day at work, which keeps it fresh. 

So, what is there to gain by losing weight and finally getting to my goal weight?  Will my life magically become a fairy tale?  No.  We all eventually realize that life is what you make of it.  I didn't make much of it at 260 lbs and lacking in self-confidence.  I find life so much more enjoyable now at 175 lbs, but I know that being 150 lbs won't be life-changing. 

So, for me.....I have decided to show myself that I CAN DO THIS.  I am not racing towards goal weight to see a better life, I am going to dedicate myself to my sleeve life BECAUSE I have it good.  Everyone needs goals in life to shoot for.  I think I finally have the right motivation for my goal, and that's simply to be in the best physical shape that I am capable of.  If I feel good now, being 25 lbs lighter can only be a bit better, right? 

I am making the commitment to go to the gym 3 nights a week.  I am going to stay under 50 grams of carbs a day.  I will stay away from processed foods, EXCEPT during my sanctioned cheat day.  Hey, I am good, but I am no angel!!

I hope that everyone finds their inspiration and gets to a great place in life, goal weight or not!!
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Stalls.....ARGH!! Enough Said!

Jun 05, 2012


So, I am just getting over the period from hell.  Seriously.  If information like this is TMI, please skip.  ha ha  I started my period last weekend, which gave me my two official "cheat" days, when it comes to eating.  I had a miserable week the rest of the week.  I stayed on track PRETTY MUCH....with a few bites of here and there that weren't on plan or the best choices.  I felt like total crap.  Everytime I ate ANYTHING I would get pains in my bowel area and end up running to the bathroom and promptly evacuating everything in liquid form.  I know.....gross. 

I had menstrual cramps, headaches, tiredness, and then had to deal with the faucet that wouldn't quit.  Really?  My period sometimes effects my bowel movements, for some reason, but never like this.  I was starting to think I might have gotten food poisoning or had a bug.  I don't think I did,  however, it was just a bitch of a period. 

I felt like I would at least see a nice drop on the scale.  After being stalled for a few weeks, I was sure that my body was letting loose, and would see rewards on the scale, at least.    I won't usually torture myself by weighing in while my period is here, so I waited until Saturday.  Yep, it was a long drawn out ordeal, this time.  Anyway........I got on the scale, and WOW.....could it be??  Uhhhhhh, what?  175.  175!?!?!  ONE STINKING POUND GONE? 

Now, I am the first to admit I am not 100% perfect with my eating.  I am probably only making good choices about 80% of the time when you average the week.  Some days I am perfect, others, I nibble on a few "bad" things.  However, I don't go hog wild and would expect to see the scale moving a bit better than it is.  So, for me, this means I need to come up with a better plan. 

The cheat days didn't really ramp up my cravings.  *whew*  I didn't feel like a junkie looking for a fix last week.  That was a relief.  This past weekend I was a bit more relaxed with my eating, as my boyfriend and I went to see two different movies, and I indulged on popcorn both times, and we ate out a couple of times.  I think part of me was rebelling since I didn't see a too much of a weightloss on the scale.  Smart, huh?  Wow, I am really showing the weightloss gods whose boss now! 

Well, I am not quite sure what my plan of action will be.  I know I need to get more active and really commit to the gym again.  I went last night, after work.  I took my buddy, AnnMarie.  We worked on arms and abs.  Strength training won't burn a lot of calories, but it's a start. 

I am also logging my foods on MFP, even the bad days.  Hopefully, I can come up with a good plan and get to my goal at some point.  I would like to get to my goal of 150 by the 1st of September.  There.  I just challenged myself!!  ha ha  Have a great week everyone!!
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