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So, I'm a little over 6 months out from surgery now.   I feel really great...I have so much energy.  However, my weight loss has really started to slow down and I know I need to exercise.   I haven't really been exercising like I need to and it's starting to show.  So, I'm thinking about taking a spin class.   They have one at the local ymca during my lunch break and I would love to do it....if I could just make myself walk down there and try it.    I'm just so nervous about being there with all those people and looking like an idiot because I've never done anything like that before.  I'm just going to have to make myself do it.  

My weight hovers between 158 and 164.   Mainly, it's closer to 158 most of the time...it's a very strange feeling to have a fluid weight.  But I'm wearing size 10 and 12 now and medium/large tops.   Not much longer till goal...maybe by the end of February. I still have a while to consider plastics but It's definitely in my future as far as my stomach goes.   Other than that....I feel completely normal again...maybe even a little self-conscious because of all the comments I get about my looks but other than that I'm so great and still never regret this decision not even for a moment.   

 Well - my weight finally moved but I didn't make my goal for the month.   I was 4 lbs away so I'm not going to beat myself up about it.  I wasn't that bad on Thanksgiving.   I didn't eat any sweets but the bread is another story and I also had dressing.  God was it good!  Anyway, it's Monday morning now and I'm back on track.   I went to Belk's on Saturday (also saw Twilight - more on that in a minute) and I tried on several pairs of 14's that fit great and even a pair of 12 in Levi's that fit tight but they still fit.  I'm still wearing a Large top but that's okay.  I think I look way better than I use to...also, I feel a lot better....tons more energy.  I'm still noticing the moodiness but it's not so bad this month.   I'm definitely taking more care with my appearance when I go out but I'm still lov'n my PJ's at home.   It's funny, actually, because my 12 yr old son tried to pick me up last night and he actually did.  Picked me right up off the ground. I couldn't believe it.  He wrapped his arms all the way around me and picked me up and that's the first time he's EVER attempted anything like that.  He also  commented that I was getting too thin (whatever!).  It was sweet of him to say that.  So, I guess my kids are noticing the weight loss even if they don't ever say anything about it.   

Now, back to Twilight.  Saw the movie - let me just say that I'm in LOVE with Edward.  I thought he was awesome.   Bella was not so great but overall the movie was good and I'll probably buy it when it comes out on DVD.   I'm going to have to read the second book again just to see what's suppose to happen next.  BTW, I'm going to try to post more pics of me when I get a chance.   It's so difficult for me to do that for some reason on this site.  

 I have hit my first stall.   It's making me a little crazy.  I've rotated between the 172-175 for the past 2 weeks with no loss.   I'm slightly loosing my mind over it.   If I could exercise better I know it would fade away but I've been so busy with work lately that I don't have time exercise more.   I think my hormones may be going crazy because my periods have started back on their own and it's been awful.   I used to have periods like 3 times a year but since I've been 4 months out they've been coming pretty regular and I've been pms'n like crazy.   First I feel like I'm starving, then I don't eat anything all day.   I'm trying hard to stick to a routine but IT IS DIFFICULT.   When I'm not pms'n, I'm perfectly fine and eat like I'm suppose to.   I'm in a terrible rut.   

 You can't imagine how different I feel about this birthday compared to last year.   I'm excited, energetic and upbeat.   I'm wearing some size 12's but mostly 14/16 and size Large tops.   It's great.....incredible, really.   Last year I was depressed and exhausted.   While I still get tired easily, I come back strong and don't have to lay down for hours to feel better.   I can walk faster and more efficiently.   I'm able to keep up with my kids better and I haven't even gotten to my goal weight yet.   I'm excited and optimistic about reaching my goal weight by the end of December.   I need to lose 15 lbs but the end of November and 20 lbs. by the end of December and I will have reached my 100 lb. goal.  I'm really excited about it and hope that it happens.   

 It's rather incredible because I got on the scale this morning and this is what it said.  I almost peed on myself I was so excited.   I'm so glad that I had this surgery!