well they said it would happen and it did. now I am 183 and I can eat more than I thought I would ever eat again.....old habits dont die they have to be killed...!!! well if I go to the gym and burn 400 cals  a day and eat 1500 cals a day for more than 5 days in a week I can get down a half a pound that week...but i build muscle so quick I can jump up 2 lbs that week as well but the tummy will feel flatter...however as soon as i miss the gym four days in a row the pooch comes right back....I have found my stuggle zone... i would like to be down to 165 thats nearly 20 lbs not sure i can get there. i was 170 for a  week in early january and its been going up since then. I quit throwing up three days week back then as well... i havent thrown up in quite  while now but i dont eat the things i know make me sick. i find it real hard to stay at 1000 calories a day.... i cant seem to stay under 1400 unless i am on the run all day and into the night. i must find a way...

Well I had a bounce up  3lbs not sure why it went up.. I didnt change anything so I cut back and its not coming off. I can see how you can put it on after this surgery and its still not easy to get it off. 110 lbs came off so easy but now its not easy.... so if I  dont put too much in.. I wont have to stuggle to get it off. I need to add more exercise for sure and cut out 300 calories a day.. in 11 days thats one pound by the end of the month it should be 3 lbs... we will have to wait and see.

What a great year so far and its only 25 days old. my weight has stopped dropping and I now have had my hair growing back in and I have a closet full of clothes. I have had such a good time going to the 2nd hand shops and goodwill I wont be shopping at the mall anymore...I am now in a new career, new body, new frame of mind... lifes good.

Where do I begin. with all that has happend to me in the past year nothing prepaired me for the way i would think... my life has truely been renewed.. The mental blocks of the past are gone and all doors are now open I no longer see or feel the road blocks in my life that weight once had one me. People see me as a different person. I am still the same its them that are different towards me. I make it a point to look people in the eye to go out of my way to talk with people especially heavy people. I didnt realize how much i was ignored until I lost 110 lbs... wow. for those of you who have lost be kind to those who havent yet. help someone else in this process and talk with thru the hard days. I am so thankful for what I have now. My life will be a new adventure everyday in 2011 and I cant wait to live everyday...

oct 5th 2009 i had RYN Bypass. 275lbs my highest was 286. today I am 178! I will be in Maui Hawaii on oct 5th 2010... what a great anniversary gift... It will be great. my whole life is different. I no longer focus on dying...but rather living. I will graduate beauty school very soon. life is all new. cant wait to get off the last 25 lbs... comming soon.