Seeing the Brightside

Oct 21, 2014

So... the stall continues. Today was a bit emotional as I asked my brother and cousin to head back home. I'm finding that without food as a crutch, my body is trying to find other outlets for my many emotions. I've been experiencing what I can only assume is an anxiety attack. Periodically when I start to worry about something, I start to get flashing lights in one of my eyes. It stays until I calm down... When it first happened, it scared the bajeezus out of me until I realized what it was. I turned to my brother and said I really need my space back if I'm going to be okay enough to go back to work in a couple days. He said ok. They left this morning.

Since I'm not dropping an ounce of weight, I thought I should count my blessings. With this new tool, I have:

1. Not gained any weight. Which would never happen in my old life, right? You'd stall and then gain 2-3 lbs and have to work to take it off. I just wake up the same weight every morning.
2. I'm haven't had any coffee in over 2 weeks. Guess I can count that addiction as broken.
3. No sugar for 2 weeks. NEVER thought I would be able to do something like that. I'm impressed that I feel so normal.

In the past, I have been able to kick a habit like caffeine or dairy after doing something like a detox or a Juice Fast. But this process does it for me. No gimmicks, no games, no copious amounts of produce to buy and clean. I'm grateful for it's simplicity and the positive affect it's had on my life.

Tomorrow is support group. Thursday, I go back to work and I get to add in Greek Yogurt and eggs to my diet. I'm excited about it all. Today was necessary.

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