• Username: Michelle_2975
  • Location: Canada
  • Member Since: 7/26/2009
  • BMI: 29.2
  • Post Op
  • Surgery Type: RNY (01/17/11)
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Start exercising at least 3 days a week for atleast 30 minutes.

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Stick to my pre-surgery diet with NO cheats

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Not to start smoking... again.

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  • Comment by LisaBee1964 on 1/17/11 11:52 am
    best wishes ! lisa in ohio
  • Comment by boogyshoes on 1/14/11 1:41 pm
    Good luck to you as well - it looks like we are surgery budies! See you back here soon :)
  • Comment by Priscilla V. on 1/11/11 6:14 pm
    Good luck Michelle on your upcoming surgery. I wish you patience and my thoughts and prayers will be with you. I can't wait for my date!!!
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2 Weeks, 2 Days
on May 15, 2012 8:12 pm
Well I am not perfect but it is getting better. I am happy to say that my weight has gone from 174lbs to 165lbs!!  I feel like my weight just might start coming off again. I am trying not to get too excited about it just in case that isn't the case. Regardless I am happy that I have lost my re-gain. YAY!  I have really lowered my portion sizes. I have started drinking protein drinks again. I have been drinking some-what proper amounts of liquids every day. I am not beating myself up everyday anymore :).  I also have bought myself some new clothes and was pleasantly surprised that some of my picks were too big. I bought a couple of items that are too small right now to give me some incentive.

My friend's daughter is living with me. She entered a Mother's day contest that was opened to moms (of course), guardians, aunties, etc. She entered me as her God-Mom. We won! It is for VIP at Essence night club. Even get a bottle of wine, ooolala, lol! My brother in law will be in town this weekend and I really like partying with him. He is a riot. I can't wait to go out. I have been able to go out a couple of times the last couple of months. I'm still enjoying the dancing.

Today I exercised. I have been really lax in that department. I rode that bike for 52 mins. That is when my music list ended on the ipod. Now that I was able to lose just a bit in a few weeks I feel like some motivation has come back to me. I think that I have been keeping my calories under 1000/day. I don't log my diet everyday, but, when I do my cals are under 1000. I just want to make my personal goal. It isn't even a number anymore. I have always just wanted to be a large sized top. I have always been top heavy and had to wear very plus-sized shirts and blouses. I have always wanted to fit into a large to be able to shop at any store. If a store has a small fit I want to wear the XL.  That is my goal.

'Till next time
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6th Day
on May 4, 2012 5:25 pm
I have been watching what I eat for 6 days now. I have made some ready to grab items (chili) and have bought healthier items to be able to grab when I want to eat and don't want to wait. I am finding the hardest time to resist grazing is when I am wanting food and am too impatient to wait for it to cook.  I have been drinking more water too. Some days I would hardly get 750ml in and it wasn't all sugar free. I have stopped drinking Timmies as well. I really hope that I can do this. At my work there is a cookie jar on the counter, it used to be on the other side of the counter. They rearranged the counter and now the cookiess are within arms reach. I did not have one. I had a couple of weak moments, especially today when I kept getting pissed off at a co-worker, who wasnt even at work, but I did not have one. I am very happy with myself that I didn't even eat one :D.  Well I'm getting into a program on tv. 


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5DPT
on April 28, 2012 9:44 pm
So tomorrow I start.
I am really happy that I am going to be doing this. I have gotten all that I think I may need for the next couple of days. I think the only thing that I may miss is my Timmie's coffee. Obviously I am not happy that I have put on a couple pounds but I think it has given me the motivation to get back on track. I think that I am fat now but I don't want to become the fat pig that I was. I do not want to go back to people treating me like shit or less than human because of my weight. Working the midnight shift sure gives me time to think about stuff. I am tired of not being able to fit into regular sized clothes. It does bother me that I can't go into any store and buy their largest size. I did have a weight goal for myself but my biggest goal was to fit into clothes from all stores not just select ones. Clothes from the Garage and Le Chateau still seem so tiny to me. I want to be able to wear the tiny clothes even if it is their largest size. Not necessarily from those stores but from all store. I really did think post-surgery would be easier. I read up on so much and everything before I went for it, thought I knew it all. Hahahah! They warn you about the mind factor towards this procedure and how it could affect you. I thought I had it all figured out. And then I am living it and I know that everyones journey is different but I didn't realize it would be so challenging.  What I am going to try to do is have a better attitude about everything weight related including body image. Last summer after loosing so much I thought that I was the bomb :) not so much now. I have to get those good feelings back. I really have to look at my accomplishments and take pride and rejoyce in them rather than looking at how I feel I have failed. My little weight gain will only be a fail if I don't do something about it. The past couple of days I have had a few food funerals. Ate pizza and oreo cookie desert today. It was good but not as good as I thought it would be or as good as I remember them being. Especially the pizza and I love pizza. I am happy that it wasn't as good as I thought it would be. It makes me feel like I am not missing as much as I think I am. Anyways I can always have wrap veggie pizza when I start to eat bariatrically normal again.  I am also going to make up meals in advance again so that I can just open up the freezer and pull something out rather than having to wait to make something and snacking while waiting for my food to be ready. Mini meatloaves and crustless quiches here we come. I have really taken a liking to eggs. Eat them almost everyday. I buy those egg whites in the milk cartons. Also mushrooms. Yummy, egg with mushroom and red peppers. Healthy protein. I am so happy that I have a couple days off to get my shit together :)

Till  tomorrow
Peace out!
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Next Day
on April 25, 2012 4:51 pm
I am so happy that I feel better today. Yesterday was rough! One day at a time. I am still going to do the 5dpt. I can't wait!
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Same Theme, Different Day.
on April 24, 2012 2:40 pm
Well I suck, or at least that is how I feel. I can't believe that I have gained some weight. I am so upset with myself. I was always scared right from the beginning that I wasn't going to be a long term success with this :(  I don't understand why I can't get on the program and stay on it. Why does it have to be such a struggle? Why couldn't I be the person that has bad dumping? I know that I wasn't loosing any weight and I told myself as long as I can maintain this loss I am okay. Well I have put on 4lbs and my work pants don't fit anymore. HA! I went to go and get them hemmed and I couldn't get the button done up. Granted it was a tight fit to begin with but.... Joke is on me.  I can't believe what a difference 4 pounds can make. Before at 270lbs a couple of pounds didn't make any difference. This time the extra weight has kicked me out of being over weight to being obese. My doctor is willing to fight for me to get plastics but even he said that I have to loose 20 more pounds. Well that number is now up to 24, let's just make it an even 25lbs. I have to lose 25lbs. Why is it so hard? It seems me that if I can lose (almost thanks to my weight gain) 100lbs I can lose the last 25 that I want. I went for some counseling but felt that I was being judged. I have been to counseling before so I know that it wasn't me but how the lady did her job. I do not like it when what I am talking about doesn't seem important enough to discuss. She was too caught up in my smoking habits to look at the reasons why I use food as a crutch.  I didn't want to tell her that I smoked nor that I drank but she wanted to know and like I thought Judgment!

I have found that with the little added weight I have been super bitchy. I just can't stand myself and have been taking it out on others. I am surprised over the years that my Homer hasn't left me. The past week or so I have also been forgetting to take my antidepressant at night. I asked Homer today to help me remember to take it. He thought that I have been. He said that it makes sense now why I have been so bitchy. I was sitting on my couch crying today trying to figure out why I have been feeling so shitty other than the weight gain and realized that I have been so tired at night that I haven't thought about taking it. I also have been working way too much for me. I am not a full time worker. It gets to me. Not that I am not physically able to but it gets to me emotionally. I get burnt out so quick. I can't wait until Sunday to be able to recharge emotionally as well as physically, although I know that the days will fly right by.

I do enjoy the met and greets but I get jealous when I see how much better everyone is doing. I feel like I am the only one that struggles with this. Everyone has been way more successful in the losing part. Some days I don't even feel like I should be sitting on the bench.

I have been getting really pissed off at Homer. He is off work. This will be the third week. He sits around and doesn't do anything constructive unless I yell. I can't stand the way he doesn't listen. I hate his selective hearing. If there isn't a problem with his ears there just might be after I box him in them. I swear to god next week if he brings shit food into the house I am going to leave him. He can have everything. I just told him that maybe next week when we see the specialist that they may give him a couple weeks of antibiotics and he may have to go back to work. He said that all he heard is that I want him to go back to work. I can't stand it. I feel like I'm going to go crazy. I feel like the amount of support I get in my everyday life is zero. I can't even believe that I am venting on line about him. Boy do I like the anonymity here :)

I can't wait for my days off!!!!!
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Well, I have been wanting WLS forever and it is finally coming true.  I am having my surgery  on  January 17, 2011!!!