Well finally got a new Computer and this is amazing nothing freezing up. Well this has been a long journey but one I would surely do over. August 4, 2012 will be 3 years for me. I can't say it has been easy. But the first year and a half were the weight just dropped off. Now I am struggling. I turn 50 in September and for some reason my health is just getting me down. I am so tired all the time. We have lived here in Kansas for 2 1/2 years and I still am enjoying it I just miss my family like crazy. This is the part that is killing me. I am getting back on track for me though. I join planet fitness here and bought the wii Zumba fun.  I am glad to be back here so I can ready everyone great story's. That helps keep me motivated. Got to say I am still pretty happy with my weight and size even though I have gained back 25 pounds. I am the size that I married my wonderful husband at. I have went from a size 28 to a 14-16. Now I just need to work on the fitness part of this program. I can do this......

Thank you all for the words of support. It has been great hearing from you.  Well I am back on track and feeling alot better. Had some testing done and found out my stomach has not streached and is doing good. I do have a Iadle hernia near the stomach so the do want to keep a close eye on me. They to said I am doing great and to keep up the good work. Make you feel good to hear this. I have been doing alot of soul searching in myself and have come up with the conclution I will never be a size below 14. The dr. said that my weight is about right I just have to get the lose skin removed and for me that will never happen due to cost and the insurance won't cover it so far. But thats fine. I am still happy were I am at and how far I have came. Thank you everyone for your support and help.  Sometime we just need that swift kick in the butt..  I am enjoying life here in Overland Park, Kansas. I don't want to go back to Michigan. I miss everyone there so much but I do seem happy here.  Thank agian everyone sorry I have not been on but my computer went wacky for awhile.
Hugs Sherri

What am I doing to myself. I haven't gotten this far for nothing. My husband just said something that really hit home and it hurt. I told him to put hit sleep ap mask on cause he was snoring and he said don't worry if you keep going your going to have one too. Then he sad don't be stupid. Wow that really hurt. But it is so true. Why am I going back to my old habits?I feel like every day I take a step backwards.  It it really true what the pych said that it is all in my head? I just don't know where to start. (Is it my job, my life style, am I just not a happy person?)  I just don't know anymore. I know one thing this  is really hard because I just don't have anyone to talk to anymore now that I have move to Kansas from Michigan. Life just seem to be getting harder for me to ajust too. I am going to be 49 on September 29th and still don't know how to take charge of my life. I just wish someone could tell me how.....
There use to be  days I look at myself in the mirror and said wow. Now I look and say why did this have to happen to me.  I lost 130 pounds now I have only lost 100. I have bat wings and elephant legs fat haning from my tummy and no hope of being able to have plastic surgery. So as I look in the mirror I say why keep going?
Sorry I am venting just had a very bad day  today. Knowone to talk to so I write.

Anyone out there have a good recipe for a Caramel Frappe that is low calorie? Help I love McDonald but I found out theyu are 680 Calories each not good. (BAD SHERRI)

I need to get real with this. I have now gained 19 pounds back and am noticing the fat all coming back. Where is everyone at that had surgery August 2009. Is it just me or is it the sleeve changing. Well to tell you the truth I really think it is ME!!!! I am going back to all bad habits and I found a drink I love. Caramel Frappes. If there is anyone out there that knows of a recipe for a low cal frappe HELP!!!  I keep saying I need to get back on track but it is not as easy as it is to say. My life is changing everyday. I get up for work and am baking from 6:00a.m. to 1:00p.m. 6 days a week with only Sundays off. This sucks but the money is very good.  I am not taking care of my granddaughter as much so I do have alot of time on my hands. But it has been do hot outside that walking is just not for me. I have never been one to work out. I always think people are watching me and when I am at home I just don't get motivated. I get bored with the meal plan my Dr gave me. So I just stop. I am in the process of making new menu plans to follow so I can get back on track. But I find I hate  foods that are good for me. So I keep going back to the Sugars and Carbs. I really need some new choices. Anyone with Ideas I would love to hear them. Still loving my sleeve Sherri