And I want to shoot myself.  This is effing horrible.  I know, I know, it could be worse-- and it has been.  But this is very difficult.  I'm actually a bit nauseous from not eating and drinking nothing but liquids.  Feeling a little lethargic, too.  Oy.  Oh well, you've always got to go through the hard stuff to get to the good.  Here's hoping this part flies by! 

You know, for most of the day, I'm totally fine until I see a food commercial for a new fast food that looks really good.  For months, it has been the White Castle chicken rings that I have kept seeing over and over again.  So today, I got a small order of them because I was hungry and had been dying to taste them.  And you know what?  They were terrible!!  

As I get closer to having this surgery (pending insurance approval, of course), I am starting to notice how disappointing a lot of food is.  I had been shoveling it down my gullet for so many years, that I'm not sure I tasted a lot of it.  And now that I am starting to do that, I am noticing that a lot of food doesn't really taste that good!  I am hoping that this wil help me along my journey to realize that I don't have to eat everything.  Really, I don't.  And most of it will be terribly disappointing anyway.  So, instead of eating everything and anything, I'm learning to save the calories and be more selective of what I put in my body.  God knows this isn't an easy transition, but this must be done.

P.S.: For anyone looking for some good fiction on WLS and weight loss in general, read "Conversations with the Fat Girl" by Liza Palmer.  I couldn't put it down!  It was great.

All for now.