Well today is day 2 and let me tell you, this is rough.  I don't know why but it seems harder on this one day liquid protein day then the 2 weeks I had to do before surgery.  I know its all in my head cuz I am not hungry but I just keep telling myself what I am trying to do and I struggle through it. 
The bad part of the day was my grumpiness.  WOW can I be moody but I didn't yell at anyone or fight with anyone, I just felt agitated.  Today may be a little harder due to the time-line of my day.  I am trying to lay out my liquids for the day and when I drink them.  My other issue was the fact I had to go to the bathroom 867 times a day.  That protein shake just goes right through me and it seems I spent more time in the bathroom yesterday then I have in total since I had my surgery.
The good part of the day is that I have lost some weight.  I'm sure it was all water weight but it was weight and I will take it.  I started off yesterday at 211 and this morning I weigh 208.  All those trips to the bathroom really helped.  LOL
So on day two I am preparing all my shakes and stuff while dreaming of day three when I can move on to my next stage.  I am determined to do this so off to work I go.  Hope everyone has an awesome day!!!

Well I am about one month from my surgerversery (probably just butchered the spelling of that) and I am happy to be smaller and more healthy then a year ago but I also kinda wish I had gotten a little smaller.  I got off track awhile back and haven't gotten back on, so I believe if I had paid more attention to what I was doing, things would be different.
I have read a lot on the 5 day pouch test and have decided to give it a shot.  I am gonna try to get all the sugar, soda ect... out of my system and make better choices on what I eat.  Also I am going to pay more attention to my water intake and get my vitamins going again as well.  
Sooooo, today is day one and I just finished off my first protein drink.  I weigh 211 this morning and I am so hoping that I can finally get below that 200 lbs mark.  Here's to a fun and exciting 5 days.  Hope my family doesn't boot me out =D

Hello everyone,
I know I have not been on here in a very long time.  I started feeling better and since we were soooo broke all the time, I decided to get a second job to help get them paid off quicker.  Before surgery I would never have been able to do two full time jobs without collapsing when I get home. 
I guess the second job is one of the biggest reasons I am not doing that great in my weight loss.  Don't get me wrong,  I have lost a lot of weight and am off all meds and feel awesome but I would like to get down a little more just because and I know I only have a short period of time when this tool works the best.  I have pretty much hit a stall for quite awhile and I know it is cuz I don't eat and drink right, with working all the time I feel like I don't have time for anything.  Sooooo, knowing this, I have made up my mind to plan better for my meals and to always have something on hand so I don't get in this rut again.  I started this morning with my protein shake again and planning time for my walks in between jobs.
I am not trying to get anyone to feel sorry for me or make up excuses for everything I do wrong but more look back to this wonderful site for the helpful tips and hints and all the encouraging people to help get me back on track again.
Thanks again for all your help!!
Tanya

Things are really going good for me. I am hitting a few stalls but I am loosing inches instead which is just as good for me.  I had my first blockage which caused me to throw up.  Problem is my blockage is air.  Dr tells me that everyone inhales before they take a bite of food or a drink so the air goes down first then the food/drink.  At first I was able to wait it out, the pain can be pretty rough.  Then things got worse so I started taking some tums which helped for awhile.  Now the tums don't even seem to work and the pain is horrible.  So the other day I get sick and after that, all was good.  It was a weird feeling cuz it didn't come from my stomach but as soon as I was done, the pain was relieved.  If anyone has any advice on what to do for this, please let me know.  I have started eating even slower than what I was and I am really trying to not inhale before I drink but it just doesn't seem to help.
I am not getting enough protein in my diet so I noticed someone posted on here that they started eating beef jerky to help.  So I started two days ago eating small amounts of jerky through out the day and I am now getting it all in.  The scale even started moving down again!!
I just started working a second job so now I know I wont get enough exercise because I know I wasn't getting it before but maybe the extra job will help since I will be unloading a truck sometimes.  
I know I am only putting down the things that I am doing wrong but a lot is going right too.  I feel so much better, have lots more energy.  I am getting stronger each day with the things I have to lift at work, its not as hard for me.  My self esteem is getting higher, I can take a compliment and say thank you now instead of making excuses.  My stress level is still pretty high but I am getting better about letting the bull roll off my back.
So this is defiantly the best decision I have made for myself, sometimes I just wonder what my ending result will be since I am a OH junkie and love to look at the success pictures everyday.
I hope everyone has a healthy and great new year.  Good luck to everyone with their surgeries!!


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I had some extra time today and wanted to post a couple of things.  I am really starting to get compliments about my weight loss now at work.  I didn't know if people could really see a difference or not.  I even had one of the maintenance men say "So is this thing really working for you?"  I said you mean the surgery and he was like yeah that how is it working for you, you can really see a difference.  Its funny how people want to know how its going but they seem to scared to actually say "surgery".  I also had one of my co-workers comment how good I was looking.  I wore my first pair of jean to work in a loonnngg time and she noticed how much I have lost.  Yippee!! 
I go to my second Dr's appointment today, I need to ask him about my food and drink not wanting to stay down.  I don't mean getting sick but sometimes it seems like it just floats up my esophagus to my throat and I have to continuously swallow.  Its a very weird feeling and I just wonder about it.  
Other than that it seems like I am getting around better and have lots more energy in what I am doing.  My knees still bother me a lot but I still have a lot of weight to take off of them and to strengthen them up.  One other thing I am noticing is I don't sleep as well at night.  I get cranky cuz I can't fall asleep very easy and when I do fall asleep, I don't sleep very sound or for very long.  Any ideas about that, please let me know.
Well that's all I have for now.  I will check back in another week or so to see how I am doing.
Have a great day!!



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I have missed a couple of weeks but I don't have a whole lot to report.  I have finally hit the point where people are really starting to notice my weight loss but I am hardly noticing a difference.  I have heard that it is hard for someone to notice the weight loss on themselves because they have been big so long.  Maybe that is what is going on with me.  I will post my current picture, maybe you can see more than I can.


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Things are going good.  I just wonder if my weight loss is gonna be slow through this whole journey due to the amount of stress I go through at work.  Sometimes I think do I need to find another job so I can rid myself of some of this stress.  I guess it will all work out in the end.
I am getting into my smaller clothes so my inches are going down, I have been trying to exercise everyday but sometimes it's hard with all I have to do.  Maybe one day my Scentsy business will just take off and fly then I can quit my job.  Its a nice dream doncha think.
Well anyways, not much to post just doing things one day at a time.
Have a Great Day All!!!


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Yesterday I went back to work.  Wow did I get tired. I made it through the day but my butt was dragging.  I am not sure if it was because of stress from a big family blow up that also included my boss/sister-in-law, but I felt like pooh yesterday.  I woke up in the morning and drank me a whey protein shake and didn't eat anything else the rest of my day at work cuz my stomach was so upset.  I know it wasn't right to not eat anything but I couldn't help it.  I did drink a crystal light water with a protein bullet added to it but no food.  I came home and knew I needed something so I went back to baby food.  I guess I just thought it would be more gentle on my stomach.  I didn't eat anything the rest of the night either and so far this morning I drake a protein shake and about an ounce of baby food again.  I am not hungry at all and having an upset stomach, I really didn't want to force it.  Problem is I went to my seminar in the beginning and there was a girl there that my Dr had saved because she was literally starving to death.  She noticed she wasn't feeling hungry so she just didn't eat anything.  Dr had to start her out on a clear liquid again just to get her going because her stomach had shrunk down to nothing and she was starving herself, but didn't know it.  Not something I want to get into.
On a positive note, I have started loosing weight!  I am so happy and clothes are starting to fit sooo much better.  So all my worries have gone out the window.  I will just continue to use this surgery to help me succeed in what I am trying to accomplish.


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I tried to ask a question today, maybe I shouldn't have but I thought that's what the boards were for.  I asked if I am doing something wrong or if anyone has any advice for me because I haven't lost ANYTHING.  I wasn't hoping for a miracle, maybe just a pound or two.  I had some tell me in a kind helpful way about my lack of weight loss and I had one ask me what kind of miracle was I looking for.  She told me to chill out and maybe its the way it comes across in a message but it sure sounded like a slap in the face to me. 
As I sit here trying not to cry about something so lame, I wondered why I even posted a question in the discussion board to begin with.  I should have just stuck with reading and not asking questions.  
I am sorry if I sound so retarded about this but I feel when a new person comes to this site and asks questions, maybe the responses need to be a little kinder and not so harsh, especially from someone who had their surgery so long ago.  They probably come on here thinking not nice things about us new one but sometimes I think they need to remember that they were here once too.



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I think I am getting cranky.  I thought the weight would come off a little easier, but at the same time at least it's coming off rather than going on.  I have hit my stage two diet and I went in for my check up and Dr says everything looks great.  He even said my weight loss is good.  Just wondering if he can do math very well.  I got all my clothes out of the closet that I haven't fit into in 5 years and they are starting to fit nicely but wow that scale won't move. 
I have been really trying to get my protein in, drinking a couple of whey protein drinks a day.    I guess I need to quit being so impatient and let things happen as they happen but man is it frustrating.  It will get better though, I go back to work on Monday so my mind won't be on it all the time anymore.

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Well I survived the whole week of liquid diet again.  I am slowly adding in stuff but making sure not to drink before or after the meal.  I am getting around sooo much better.  I don't hurt really at all during the day unless I am jarred around to much but I just try to be careful.  Don't have a lot to say, just wanted to update my weight and check in here real quick.  See ya'll later!!


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Well I am almost back down to what I was before I went in for surgery.  Kinda depressing but I know its almost there.  Still a little sore but I can get around so much better.  I don't have to have my pillow just to walk through the house.  Now its just to sit, stand or roll out of bed.  I am drinking my 1 ounce liquids throughout the day and taking all my vitamins.  I want to be one of the ones that the Dr is happy with because I take my vitamins like he tells us to.  I don't really have a lot to say today, just sitting around watching TV, reading and writing in my journal.  Kinda boring and I can't wait until I progress to the stage that I can go out and walk just to get out.  Everything looks to be healing very nicely but who is kidding who, I am no Dr.  Well I hope to check in to see how all my friends are doing and to give a little info about myself so I can see the difference.  I will chat later.  Have a great day!!


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Wow has it been an adventure!!  I came home from hospital yesterday about noon and just kinda hung out with family.  I am feeling pretty good today.  Tummy still bothers me a little, trying to get past the feeling of my stomach falling out.  All I gotta say about that is keep your pillow close.  It really does help!! 
My diebetes is gone and dr told me not to take anymore of my other meds either.  I traded all my prescriptions for 3 vitamins.  Isn't that great!  I weighed myself when I got home and almost had a heart attack, I had gained weight.  I weighed 296.4 because of all the fluids but today I only weighed 289.2 so my freaking out was all for nothing.
Today I only have taken one does of pain meds so each day the pain is getting better also.  Well thats all I have to say for today but if anyone has any questions or just wants to jabber with someone, feel free to email me, I love pen-pals.
Have A Wonderful Day!!


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Today is the day!  In 30 min I leave for the hospital to get my surgery.  I am gonna start posting my weight in the title of some of my blogs so I can see the difference and so can you.  This will be the last time I am 284.2!  Have a great day everyone and will see you soon!

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Made it through my last day before surgery.  Getting ready to go to bed now so I can try to get some sleep.  I am so excited I am not sure if I will be able to sleep.  I will be back in a few days, thanks for all your thoughts and advice.

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I am officially drinking my last slim-fast, Wahoo!!  Tomorrow is gonna be just a clear liquid but i think I can handle it.  I have gone from eating everything in the house to not eating anything and wanting to rip peoples arms off and beat them with it to not really minding if I have food or not.  Sometimes just the thought of food sounds good but it doesn't really bother me to not eat it. 
I have lost a total of 50 lbs with all I have done in the past couple months, the last 15 was in these last 2 weeks.  Doesn't seem like a lot but it is 50 lbs less I have to loose later.  People at work have even mentioned that they have seen a difference in me.  My clothes are fitting different so I went to the smaller sizes I had shoved in the back of the closet and most of them fit.  It is a great feeling.  Things have also calmed down a lot at work in the past week so I don't feel like I am gonna loose my job now due to serious attitude about this surgery.  I had it set in my mind that I was not going to let anyone talk me out of this because it is a choice I made for myself to feel better.
Well I am gonna go to bed now so I can get up tomorrow and do all my final stuff before my surgery.  Gotta clean a little house, pack my bag and do some laundry.  I mainly wanted to come on here and thank everyone for there help with advice given and support.  I can't wait to be on the other side, I will talk to you soon.
Have a Great Day!!


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And its so much easier to do this liquid diet now.  I don't even suffer when I cook or go somewhere with food.  I just joke a little bit and say how I could eat something but I don't.  I am very impressed that I have not eaten anything at all.  I really do think I won't have any problems following my doctors rules.  
I am counting down the days until surgery.  5 Days until my "new and improved" life begins.  I go through lots of pictures of before and afters, and also check lots of discussions to try to prepare myself.  I work Sunday, Monday and Tuesday, off Wednesday because of the wonderful drink they make you drink and then I have my surgery.  I am super excited but at the same time a little worried about things like getting sick, saggy skin, ect...
I just long for the day that I can go outside and play with my kids and not have any problems breathing.  I think everyday at work that one of these days I will be able to stand in the aisle and someone will be able to walk behind me without both of us sucking in and climbing on the counter.  I am also trying to not talk alot about it to people, I don't want to burn everyone out on my news.  That is one of the reason I want to find someone on here to talk to and understand me.  Hopefully that day will come real soon.


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I made it!! One whole week on this diet and there was only a couple of days I felt someone needed to lock me in a cage so I didn't hurt anyone.  Today was a little tough but it was a hectic day.  Woke up this morning and made my slim-fast and walked out the door to take my brother-in-law to the airport.  On the way home I knew I needed something so I stopped at Wal-Mart to buy some slim-fast and I bought me a water and some crystal light.  So I made it home just in time to make another slim-fast and head out the door again.  I kept asking myself, is it gonna hurt just this one time to eat something?  But then I tell myself, that would not be following drs rules and if I did it this one time, then I would probably do it again so I didn't.  I am just a little proud of myself =D. 
Something else I was gonna mention is that when I drink my shake, I don't feel like I have to eat jello, drink broth and crystal light at the same time.  I feel full on just the slim-fast, well for the past couple of days I have been feeling full after my shake.  So in my mind, this is progress.


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I made it through the day without yelling, growling, or chewing on someone's arm.  It was a big improvement for me.  I noticed I wasn't as hungry either.  I have been drinking my slim-fast throughout the day and filling in with sugar free jello, broth and popcycles.  Today I was able to stick with just the slim-fast and at lunch I had a small amount of Jello and now I am gonna have a popcycle.  So it is getting so much better, day by day.  A big thank you to the bariatric buddys group today.  I learned a lot of different things.  I will check back in later and let you know how things are going.  

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Oh My! Wow I don't even know what to say or do!!  I was super bad today,  I didn't eat anything but my anger got the better of me.  How in the world can food do this to a person, or lack of food I should say.  I was so grumpy with my kids I had to leave and go for a walk.  I growled at everyone and it seems like I could not get it under control.  Right now I am so mad at myself cuz I was so uncontrollable.  I went for a very loonnggg, slooowww 3 mile walk and then finally decided to come home and suffer with another slim-fast.  How do you do it???  Any person out there that might see this post and has any ideas..... how do you make it through the 2 week liquid diet?  You know the biggest problem is... I don't think I am even hungry so what is my problem.  Is it possible they put something in food to make a person totally crazy if they don't get it.  Gosh I hope, hope, hope that tomorrow is a better day!  I don't know how much more my family will put up with before they shove a sandwich down my throat.


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Well after last night having to cook one of my favorite meals for the rest of the family and my sister, I had to go to my room and drink my shake in order for me not to want to get a BIG bowl of it.  But I did it,  I was able to bypass another meal without chewing on someone elses arm or my own.  I did get a little, ok who we kidding, A LOT cranky last night.  Seems like everywhere I looked there was something I could have eaten that in my mind would have filled my tummy up.  Problem was, I wasn't even hungry.  I know its sad but I think most of this is in my head and I am determined to win this battle.  Soooo another slim-fast down and four more to go today, I think I am gonna make it.  Or at least I hope I do cuz it seems like around the time I get home from work is when I get crankyfied.  Hope the family can put up with me!!



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Ok, its finaly catching up with me... that is soooo sad.  On day 1 through 3 I had no problems but today I feel like I could rip someones arm off and eat it.  I have not cheated one time though,  slim-fast all day long is boring.  The people I have met or know that have had this surgery and did the liquid diet, none of them were able to go the whole time without eating something.  I told myself that I don't care what it took that I was going to follow all of Drs rules.  Well I think its gonna take someone knocking me out so I can keep this up.
One positive thing is that people at work are starting to understand and respect me for my decision.  I only heard one comment yesterday and that was someone telling me "oh thats a shame to have surgery". Are you flipping kidding me!!  First of all How rude, second, if she only knew how many people who have had this surgery and have followed the rules what kind of successes there have been.  Its people like that I try to avoid talking to about my decision because all they can give me is bad advice and bring me down. 
Well I guess I better close this up for now and go drink me another slim-fast.  Wahoo!!



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     It is getting closer.  I never thought this time would come.  I even told someone when I started my 6 month dr visit, this is gonna take forever, and then to have to wait for the approval from insurance, if its even approved.  So much to think of.
     So tell me, why do I feel like I have to eat EVERYTHING in the house??  Is it because I don't think I will ever be able to eat again?  I am trying to keep in mind that I will be able to eat BUT it will be a lot less and different foods.  I am determined to follow all the rules that Dr. Hornbostle gives me because I have seen what happens if you don't.  I have also seen what happens if you don't CONTINUE to follow the rules.  The thought of going through all this and not following the rules to not be able to loose weight and keep it off just freaks me out.  I am very scared of what my skin will look like but I am gonna be out there every day walking and lifting weights at home.  I would walk every day before, 3-6 miles a day, but kinda let that go.  I am not gonna do that again.  I keep telling myself if I could just loose some weight then I can be able to keep this up but I don't see me loosing and really don't feel any better so I stop.  With my "tool", I will be able to continue to loose weight and feel better so I can continue to loose weight. 
     I am going to make myself take my meds for the next four days so I don't feel like I am starving and I am also going to try to keep my mind busy so I don't think I am starving either.  If I would just get up and do something different, my hunger goes away.  So here is to a new start,  cuz it would be kinda pointless to expand my stomach right before I need to go on a liquid diet.  I will try to let you know how it goes today


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