November 30, 2007
Okay, I was watching Entertainment tonight, and I saw Carney Wilson. She is uncontrollably gaining her weight back after having gastric by-pass surgery!

I know that this surgery isn’t a fix all but; I hate it when I see people gain the weight back. It made me sit up and fly right. I would just die if I gained the weight back.

There is this teacher here who had the surgery and he lost about 150#’s, well he has gained back about 170#’s!

I guess all we can do is take it one day at a time and if we cheat jump right back on the cabbage truck!

My progress is going really slow right now. I am 202#'s and getting very frustrated, b/c I want to be in the onesees so bad! Another lady at our school just had the surgery and she is in the onesees already! She is a lot shorter than I am though, so she looks bigger, but I am still very, distraught today. It will get better though.

You Guys Stay Encouraged

God Bless,

Teena

Why do people have to hate so much?! Okay, I went to a wedding reception on Saturday. I must tell you guys, I am not one to brag, but I looked good! My husband told me that I looked better than I ever have in my life! Three secrets achieved this for me and of course I am going to share it with you!

Secret #1 LONG SKIRTS I had on a long skirt suit, suede, the skirt was very tight at the top and flarred a little at the bottom. It also went to my ankles and the jacket stopped right at the waist. I had on a body shirt that was my skin color underneath, (which helped hold in my stomach) I also had on high heel boots, about 3 inches, which gave me the long, tall, model look!
Secret #2 UP-DOS! Yes ladies, up-dos, or short hair with volume always makes you look slimmer. It gives you that long neck look and it also makes your head appear smaller!
Secret #3 FASHION FAIR My makeup was flawless! Make sure you put on a good foundation before so you won’t be dry!

Okay, this is what happened! I walked into the building with my husband on my arm, and everyone turns around to look, so literally, all eyes were on me! A lot of my family was there from out of town and they haven’t seen me since I weighed over 300 pounds, others were people from around town who also haven’t seen me in years, or should I say in pounds! When I noticed everyone looking at me, I struck a poise! And this made everyone start laughing, well, just about everyone. Four of the ladies that were hostesses, including my Mom, gave me slurs and were lapping their eyes at me! Well, finally it was time for the bride and groom to cut the cake. I was standing there with my sister and a friend of mine. We were about in the middle of the room, and one of the four ladies called me over and said, “all of the attention is suppose to be on the bride and groom and instead everyone is still looking at you, could you please sit down so they can get the attention they deserve!!!!

What nerve! My feelings were so hurt! I wasn’t the only one standing! I strutted over and told my husband and sister I was ready to leave, and they both said don’t you dare! They are just jealous!

Oh my God, I am not use to this! I let it get to me so bad that I went out and had a drink and I haven’t had alcohol since the 80’s! 

How do you deal with this without getting depressed! Before people talked about you because you were too fat, now they talk about you because you look too nice! What is up with that?! If you have any stories to share about similar experiences, please do. And let me know what to do in case it happens again, I know it will!
 

Please pray for me!

Teena